From Ozodi Osuji’s Daily Journal:
YOU HAD TO BE WHO YOU WERE TO MAKE THE MISTAKES YOU MADE AND LEARN FROM THEM AND CHANGE
I have a problematic body; that body made me hate my body and seek an alternative ideal, perfect body. Over time I recognized that it is impossible to attain the desire for an alternative perfect body and ego self. I stopped seeking alternative ego ideal self. In doing so I attained inner and somatic peace.
I have an uncommon understanding of human nature, philosophy, and religion. I could not have achieved this feat if my body were healthy and allowed me to enjoy it, as I see folks with healthy bodies do. I had to have a problematic body, feel inferior in it, compensate with a quixotic desire for an alternative ideal self and experience the failures of that quest and finally learn to accept me as I am, not as I should be.
I submit that if I had inherited a different body, I would not have accomplished the feat I did in understanding people.
I further posit that I chose my problematic body to enable me to undergo the journey that I did. In rejecting my body and seeking the ideal self I developed total contempt for people, since, relative to the ideal self, I saw them as not good enough; having identified with the false ideal self, I felt superior to what is called normal people.
Of course, no one is superior to other people. The point is that I had to go through what I went through to be who I am today.
There are no accidents in my life and other people’s lives; we live the trajectory we live because it is our existential fate and from which we learn and improve.
Do not curse your fate; embrace your fate for it is the basis for your growth.
IF YOU DO NOT LOVE YOU, YOU CANNOT LOVE OTHER PEOPLE AND IT IS AN ABSURDITY TO THINK THAT YOU SHOULD LOVE OTHER PEOPLE AND NOT LOVE YOU
If you plan to be alive in body and ego, you must love you, regardless of your definition of love. If you do not love, then why are you living? What are you working for, laboring to earn the money to support your body, buy food, medications, clothes, and shelter, why do it if you do not love you?
You must love you if you plan to live on earth and be happy. It is even more absurd to think that you ought to love other people and not love you.
What you do to you, you must do to other people; this is because other people are extensions of you, and you are one with them.
If you hate you, you must hate other people; if you love you, you must love other people. Any religion and philosophy that teaches you to love other people and not love you, to place other people’s interests above yours, is the devil’s religion, not God’s religion.
In true religion, you know that you and all people share oneself, the self of the son of God and that you must love you to love all other sons of God and that if you hate you, you must hate other people.
If racism teaches you to hate you, you must hate the racist, too. If you want to be alive and be happy you must love you; if the racist does not want you to love you and be happy, he is better off dead.
SELF HATRED IS A MANEUVER TO NOT LOVE ONE AND NOT LOVE OTHER PEOPLE; IT IS ONE OF THE EGOS MORE CHILDISH DEVICES TO GET THE SON OF GOD TO HATE HIMSELF AND HATE OTHER PEOPLE AND REMAIN SEPARATED FROM HIS REAL SELF AND OTHER PEOPLE’S REAL SELVES BECAUSE ONLY LOVE FOR ONESELF AND FOR OTHER SELVES CONNECTS PEOPLE AND ENDS SEPARATION
Self-hatred and pursuit of a compensatory false, grandiose, ideal, perfect self is an ego device to not love oneself and not love other people hence remain separated from one’s real self and other people’s real selves and from God.
Self-hatred is an ego childish effort to separate from one’s real self and from other people (who one must also hate if one hates oneself) hence not end separation and know union and its peace and joy.
The effort to not love one and other people is an immature effort to remain childish; to be mature one must love one and love all people.
THE EGO THINKS THAT DEATH IS REAL HENCE IT DEFENDS ITSELF AGAINST DEATH; IT FEELS FEAR AND USES FEAR AS PRIMARY MEANS OF PROTECTING ITSELF; THE HOLY SPIRIT KNOWS THAT LIFE IS ETERNAL BUT KNOWS THAT WHAT THE EGO IS DOING IS REALISTIC FOR THE EGO AND BODY DO NOT EXIST AND MUST BE DEFENDED TO SEEM TO EXIST, BUT THE HOLY SPIRIT URGES THAT WE LOVE FOR IN LOVE WE ARE ETERNAL
The ego’s primary means of protecting itself is fear; fear protects the false, ego and body; love protects the real self, eternal unified life.
May 21, 2023
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