IF MY LACK OF LOVE FOR THE WOMEN IN MY LIFE MADE THEM SICK OR KILLED ONE OF THEM, IT FOLLOWS THAT MY LACK OF SELF LOVE ALSO MAKES ME SICK AND UNLESS CHANGED WOULD KILL ME
Recently, I observed that the seven women that I have dated or married became sick and one, my ex-wife, died. I speculate that my lack of love for them contributed to their sickness; they are not angels and contributed to their illness and death; nevertheless, regardless of their role in the drama what matters is my role; I contributed to their sickness and death.
It follows that my lack of real love for me also contributes to my perpetual physical illness and unless changed would lead to my death, for as we do to others, we do to ourselves because others are us denied and projected out.
What all these mean is that it is now time for me to go from emotionless thinking machine to a loving person; it is love that keeps folks alive; there is no condition for loving people, for it is kind of like the sun that gives energy to the good and bad on earth and without the light and heat energy from the sun we would not live; without unconditional love for ones self and for other people we would not live.
Therefore, I return to love nd surcease my natural tendency to be a thinking machine. Those around me are hurting because instead of loving them I intellectualize their problems and subject them to ceaseless analysis, all in pursuit of an idealized self and idealized how people ought to live. Enough of this disembodied lifestyle, life is too short to reduce it to only ego cerebral analysis. God is love; his son is love; I return to love, to life.
WE HAVE SECOND SELVES IN BODIES
I have seen an exact replicate of me in an image form standing in front of me except that it did not have flesh, just a picture of me; when I tried to touch it, I could touch nothing, when I turned it turned with me.
In my three out of body experiences another me, although I did not see It, left my body and travelled towards a point of light (in one someone was holding my arm and guiding me to that light). After talking to my mother, I eventually returned to my body.
From these experiences, I conclude that we have other bodies, not just our bodies in flesh. We, the sons of God, invented our bodies in flesh; the Holy Spirit, according to A Course in miracles remade our fleshy bodies into light bodies; this means that the body made by the Holy Spirit does not have flesh and can go through walls; it is the self that folks who have had near death experience see; it still looks like them in flesh , except that it has no flesh and they can make it assume any age they want to be.
PEOPLE ARE NOT THEIR BODIES; THEY ARE PURE SPIRIT, IDEA, THOUGHT AND CAN TAKE ON BODIES OF FLESH OR LIGHT; THEREFORE, TO JUDGE PEOPLE’S BODIE’S AS GOOD OR BAD IS STUPID FOR THEY ARE NOT THEIR BODIES; WHAT THEY ARE IS FORMLESS SELVES; THEIR REAL SELVES IS BEYOND OUR EGO JUDGMENT
IT IS JUDGMENT THAT KEEPS PEOPLE IN BODIES AND KEEPS YOU, THE JUDGE, IN BODY, ALONG WITH THEM; STOP JUDGING YOU AND OTHER PEOPLE AND YOU EMANCIPATE BOTH OF YOU FROM BODIES.
People are formless spirits; they are parts of God’s unified spirit self; God is the idea of the whole self, and his sons are the ideas of the parts of that whole self; they are not in forms. It is desire for separation that produced forms in flesh to make separated self-seem real; the Holy Spirit takes the fleshy self we made and remade it into fleshless light self, which is still an illusion until we are ready to accept our real self, formless spirit self.
May 31, 2022