LIFE IN EGO AND BODY IS NOTHING BUT I KEEP TRYING TO MAKE IT INTO SOMETHING IMPORTANT WHICH IT WILL NOT BE HENCE MY FRUSTRATION AND LACK OF PEACE AND JOY
Life in ego and body is nothing but I kept trying to make it something important and had consequent unhappiness and lack of peace. Life in body and ego is a dream and does not even exist but I wanted it to exist and not only exist but to be important. I wanted human activities, my activities, included, to be important to give me the impression that I am doing something important with my life, to me and to nonexistent society.
It is not going to be important for it is just a silly dream of separation. We remain unified spirit in God and cannot separate from him and each other and are not separated from each other, it is just a dream of impossible separation and when we wake up, we say, oh, that was a silly dream in which we seemed separated from each other and quickly forget it and live in the joy of unified state, heaven. Everything we did on earth, our wealth, power, fame is seen as silly games of bored, sleeping children that do not matter and should not be bothered with.
One must accept life in ego and body for what it is, a nightmarish dream and a futile dream and overlook it and stop trying to make it seem important for it is not.
Consider those having sex, are they doing anything important? They are doing nothing and ought to be overlooked.
One should either overlook life on earth and right now awaken to real life in unified spirit self or have further play with it in light forms, in which case one does not judge it as important, good or bad for nothingness, dream is not good or bad but to be overlooked or enjoyed (to enjoy nothing is to be mildly mad, so life in light forms is still mad).
In the meantime, one should leave people to pretend to enjoy life on earth, enjoy sex, food, social power, wealth and other illusions that they employ to make nothingness seem important to them.
Racists make their nonexistent body seem important and give themselves the delusion of importance, delusion that nothingness, nonbeing, ego and body can be important.
I must laugh at the whole thing and pass it over without disturbing my peace, you too must do the same.
This is the lesson that I have learned so far, that I disturb my peace by trying to take nothingness seriously.
I now recognize that the world is nothing, it does not exist except as a dream; it is an impossible dream that what is impossible of existence exist; it is impossible for parts to separate from the whole.
The universe is the play of tired children of God imagining what is not possible as possible; what does not exist as existent.
What does not exist cannot make sense therefore the realistic thing to do is to overlook it, but if one wants to continue the dream to make it a happy dream by loving that one dream with, all people and not take anything in the dream as important or seriously.
One is now a laughing mystic; mystics see the world as a thing of mirth and laugh at it knowing that behind the dream is real life in unified spirit state; union is eternal, permanent and changeless.
THIS EVENING I RECOGNIZED THAT TOP SCIENTISTS ARE ALMOST ALWAYS CALM, THEIR FACES NOT LOOKING PENSIVE WHEREAS NEUROTIC PHILOSOPHERS GENERALLY LOOK PENSIVE, AND WHY?
Scientists are studying the world as it is, they do not ask the why question, they do not want to understand why the universe exist, why people exist and do what they are doing but see the universe and people do what they are doing and take it as objects of study without trying to make sense of them.
Scientists do not think with wishes of how the universe and people ought to be hence do not think with fear of not getting the type of world and people they want; they are objective and observe what is as it is. They ask how questions not why questions; how questions lead to describing what you see but not speculating on why what you see is there.
The universe exists and people do what they do, and the scientist describe them without bothering his little head with the question why they exist and do what they do.
If a tsunami, earthquake, volcano and other so-called natural disasters occur and destroy things and people, scientists try to understand them as natural events, games to be understood but not pay much attention to the death and destruction of people.
Neurotic philosophers desire for the universe and people to be in a certain way and when the universe and people are not as they want them to be they feel frustrated and angry and fearful; that is, they are in ego and desire power to make the universe to be of their creation instead of accepting the universe as it is and leaving it at that.
In a few hundred years human beings would have comprehensive understanding of how stars work and be able to replicate them on earth, construct silos where they can use heat and pressure to get hydrogen to fuse into helium and produce light, heat and radiation and those may wipe out the entire human race but they will do it anyway with the understanding that they are just playing, they have no investment in people living or not living.
This explains the calm, blank feelingless demeanor of scientists. They look like schizophrenics with blank looks on their faces.
I have attained the understanding that the universe and people are dream things and no longer fret over them. People may seem to die in their bodies, but nobody dies for what happens in dreams have not happened, so I am calm, bemused by the universe and people’s odd behaviors. I am now what we might call the laughing son of God. I am finally at peace and am happy; qualities that eluded me when I was the neurotic thinker wanting to get the universe and people be as I want them to be, moral. Now, I calmly live with what seems an amoral universe and people.
October 25, 2021