REMOVE YOUR DESIRE FOR A POWERFUL SELF, LIVE FROM A HUMBLE SELF AND KNOW PEACE
I will consciously never give in to thinking or acting from desire for a powerful, important and superior ego separated self; if those big self rears itself I will keep quiet; I can only think and behave from a quiet, humble self.
To the extent that I do so I feel peace and joy.
It was my desire for a powerful self that gave me fear, anxiety, tension, depression and rejection of depression and deluded grandiose self.
No desire for a big self and I live in peace with good mental health.
My life on earth was a prison sentence in which I came to seem powerful and then feel angry when other people did not treat me as if I am powerful.
If I did not have a desire for a powerful self how other people treat me does not matter to me; it is, in fact, my desire for a powerful self that determines how other people treat me.
I WAS REJECTED BY JOBS THAT I REALLY DID NOT WANT TO DO ALTHOUGH THEIR PRESTIGE ATTRACTED ME; IN THIS SENSE THOSE WHO REJECTED ME FOR THOSE JOBS DID ME A FAVOR FOR THEY ENABLED ME TO GO FIND OUT WHAT LINE OF WORK I AM REALLY INTERESTED IN; I SHOULD HAVE GRATITUDE FOR THOSE WHO DENIED ME JOBS
The jobs that I applied for and did not get I really did not want; I was applying for them from an ego power needs not because I wanted them.
The real job that I want is one in which I do not feel fear and anxiety and feel peaceful at.
MENTAL HEALTH FOR ME IS NOT A MORAL ISSUE, IT IS A SCIENTIFIC ISSUE.
For me, mental health entails never giving in to thinking and behaving from the wished-for ego grandeur for that is a false self; mental health lies in thinking, speaking and behaving from the real self, a humble self, a quiet self that recognizes that it is part of all selves and part of God.
When I think, speak and behave from my real self I am calm, peaceful, loving, and authoritative.
PURSUIT OF IDEALISM WAS NECESSARY FOR IGNORANT ME FOR THE EXTANT WORLD WAS NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME AND I HAD NOT YET LEARNED TO LET THE ENTIRE WORLD GO
From the moment that I was born, my problematic body made me reject my body and sought a better body; I used my mind to imagine an ideal body and ego self and identified with the idealized self, a powerful self and wished to be it; I felt angry when other people did not treat me as the idealized, powerful self.
My childhood was filled with anger, for my big self was always feeling slighted by other people and to avoid been slighted I avoided people and kept to myself. I was full of temper tantrums. I had to get my way, or I felt angry. If you did not treat me as a prince, I felt annoyed with you. I did not recognize any other child as better than I was, therefore, I resented it if teachers treated other kids better than they treated me.
Suppose that I did not develop neurotic wish for ideal self, ideal other people and ideal society what would I have done?
Given that my body was no good and in as much as I could see other people, they are even worse off than me, at least, I am smart whereas most people are dummies, so I could not respect them. Social institutions were foolish, so I did not like them. I had to reject extant society and people and seek alternative to them.
Now, of course, I know that as long as people live in body they are condemned to be fools and insane; just look at Americans, are they not all insane, it is only insane people that would vote for the narcissistic and pathological lying child called Donald Trump. In Africa, they place criminals in leadership positions, so all people and the human polity stink and I had to reject them.
My mistake was to think that we can use idealistic conceptions to replace the stinky social reality. Now I know that what I need to do is reject what is and use my mind to seek for a spiritual world, not to improve the outside world, for that cannot be improved.
No extant profession was good enough for me, so I had to establish my own profession, spiritual psychology.
UNCONSCIOUS MIND CONTAINS ONE’S SPIRIT AS WELL AS REPRESSED MATERIAL
Sigmund Freud and his psychoanalysis’ saw the unconscious mind as containing only repressed material and from which they influence our lives; Carl Jung recognized that in what he calls collective unconscious mind might be spirit.
In our unconscious minds is our spirit self (Holy Spirit), and from there they influence our lives, not directly because the nature of spirit is different from ego and its world of space, time and matter. Spirit is nonphysical and does not have body and therefore can only make suggestions to the ego in its fleshy world. It is that spirit part of us that dreams and arranges what we encounter in our world.
Psychoanalysts are also correct for in our unconscious minds are what we do not want to deal with in our conscious minds, and we repress them and from there they make a royal mess of our lives. The problem that Freud and crew made is to totally reject spirit; man is spirit having physical experience so you must understand his body and spirit, not either or.
May I ask you, dear reader, if you did not see a bit of yourself in this essay? Listen, as Harry Stark Sullivan, a psychiatrist, said, all human beings are alike, they differ only slightly from each other. The neurotic child, who was what I was, from the perspective of Karen Horney and Alfred Adler, is only slightly different from the normal child. Neurosis is found in very smart kids who had biological and or social problems and are reacting to their issues by seeking a fantasized, ideal self, while rejecting their real self. You can learn from my teachings on spiritual psychology or keep on pretending that you are a fully functioning person. Do we even have normal people in Nigeria, in the USA, are the people not mostly insane? I have supervised many psychologists and psychiatrists and have not found one that is not neurotic! Know yourself means understanding your strength and weakness and improving your weakness, and since no one can ever be perfect, learning to live with some of your weaknesses while accentuating your strength.
February 3, 2022