Random thoughts

  From Ozodi Osuji’s Daily Journal (May 28, 2022)

ON WHY I HAVE COMPLEX DREAMS

      For as long as I can remember, my mind has been hatching elaborate plans on how to improve the human polity and improve everything in the world. If I were a playwright, I would have written impressive plays, but I am not. I compensated by having complicated dreams. I can barely close my eyes in sleep when I am in dreamland. My dreams are so elaborate that even the Bard himself (William Shakespeare) cannot plot out such amazing dramas. It is because I am preoccupied with hatching idealistic plans to improve the world that my mind can write the complex dreams I have at night.

VERY FEW HUMAN BEINGS HAVE THE COURAGE TO SPEAK OUT AGAINST SOCIAL INJUSTICE

     I just reread Robert Monroe’s book, Journeys out of the body (New York: Doubleday, 1971). I do not know what to make of it. It occurred to me that psychiatrists and psychologists could say that the man is hallucinating when he said that he could will his self to be outside his body, see another version of himself, what he called the Second Body, and as the second body travel to all over the here and now world, to what he called the second locale (where thought creates forms) and the  third locale, a kind of different dimension.

      Was the man merely dreaming or was he psychotic? He was a successful broadcasting executive; he had his own radio and television stations. I do not think that he is hallucinating, but it occurred to me that psychiatrists could see him as crazy. At that point I said to me, to hell with what psychiatrists say about the man; the typical American psychiatrist, like the typical human being, is a coward who knows that his society is on the wrong path and does not speak out against it until the country collapses. Unless the USA becomes like the Scandinavian countries, provides publicly paid education at all levels to all Americans and health care to all Americans etc. it is going to collapse. The level of social and economic inequality in this country has not been seen in a human polity and it did not collapse.

      If American intellectuals do not have the courage to speak out on the need for course correction in their country what they say about Robert Monroe and others who claim to have skills that most of us do not have does not concern me.

THE NEXT TIME THAT YOU ARE HAVING A NIGHTMARISH DREAM TELL THE OBJECT THAT SCARES YOU THAT YOU LOVE IT AND IT WILL STOP SCARING YOU!

     I have had dreams in which unseen forces attacked me and I felt scared; as in my daily life when I am attacked, I fight back; thus, when I have scary dreams, I kick and hit the unseen objects that scare me. This is my habitual pattern of dealing with opposition, fighting.

     Reading Robert Monroe, I learned something new. He tried fighting opposition to his out of body travels and they did not budge but when he adopted love towards them, not love out of fear, but love as a strategy he discovered that the oppositional forces left him alone. That is to say that you can defeat your enemy with love not with fear, anger, and fighting.

     I am going to try it. The next time that I have one of those nightmarish dreams where an unseen force attacks me, instead of fighting him I will simply tell him that I love him/it and mean it. Hopefully, that would disarm the negative force (which was produced by my mind hence is a negative part of my mind in form).

INTELLECTUAL EGO DEFENSE MECHANISM IS A MEANS OF SEPARATING FROM GOD AND OTHER PEOPLE

     Years ago, when I began working in a mental health clinic, a nurse came to my office and closed the door. She said to me, Dr. Osuji you over employ the intellectual ego defense mechanism. Talking to you is like talking to a disembodied intellectual machine spilling out ideas. She said that she dares say that I do not have many friends because very few people can keep up with an intellectual machine and that people want a person who understands them and listens to them. She asks me to be simply human. Got up and left the room.

      I really did not think much about what she told me. Yesterday, it occurred to me that I overuse the intellectual ego defense mechanism.

     Each of us uses more of each of the twelve or so ego defense mechanisms (repression, suppression, denial, projection, dissociation, displacement, rationalization, sublimation, reaction-formation, fantasy, minimization, acting out, anger, fear, shame, pride, guilt and avoidance). The ego defense mechanism one over utilizes tells you much about his character.

     Africans, for example, overutilizes rationalization (making excuses), they are always making excuses for their bad behaviors, their poor self-governance, blaming scapegoats, such as white men and in so doing you know that they are not yet ready to govern themselves well because real leaders take full responsibility for their country’s issues and do not seek others to blame; paranoid persons over use projection and denial; they deny what they see in them and project them to other people and that way retain false sense of perfection.

    intellectuals are afraid to seem emotional, hence deny their feelings and use analysis/ intellectualization to cope with life rather than looking deeply into themselves and understanding what they are fleeing from with their perpetual intellectualizing.

YOU ARE AFRAID OF YOU WHEN YOU FEAR OTHER PEOPLE,

YOU ARE ANGRY AT YOU WHEN YOU ARE ANGRY AT OTHER PEOPLE.

     If you tend to be afraid of other people, examine yourself and you will see that you are afraid of you; if you tend to be angry at other people, you are angry at you.

     This phenomenon is because there is only one self, you, that exist in the universe; that one you contains all people and things and you project them into a dream, our universe; thus, if you see people, those you projected out, that scare you, you scared you through seeming other people; those people that make you angry means that you make you angry through them.

     Pause and ponder what I just said; do not be in haste to tell us that it is true or not true. Think. If you understand what I just said and practice its implications, you become a self-realized son of God.

LIGHT IS BEST CHARACTERIZED AS ENERGY BECAUSE IT IS SIMULTANOUS MOTION, HEAT, ELECTRICITY, SOUND AND CHEMICALS

     Beginning with the big Bang, 13.8 billion years ago, light came out of nowhere and nothing and is in motion (mechanics), is hot (heat), makes sound, transforms to electrons (electricity), and to quarks and protons and neutrons and forms atoms and combines atoms to molecules and combines molecules to chemical material.

      Thus, the most appropriate name for light is energy. One source of energy, light transforms to other forms of energy and to matter.

      Only light exists in the universe, albeit in many guises. The universe is synonymous with light energy; we are all parts of light, disguised as flesh.

Ozodi Osuji

May 28, 2022

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