If Jesus made his body disappear, can I do the same?


Ozodi Osuji

      Finally, Kenneth Wapnick asked Helen Schucman to ask her Jesus whether he died and resurrected from death (a question that, to me, should have been asked, and whose answer should have begun the book, A course in miracles, since the idea of death and resurrection is the key to human peace and happiness). So, she asked him the question on October 2, 1976, shortly after the book had already been published in 1976. He/she gave a long winded and rambling answer that requires explanation before it is understood (why does the guy not talk in simple English prose beats me; See the quotation of the answer that he gave below). What he said, in effect, is as follows.

      People thought that they crucified his (Jesus’) body and it died, and they laid it in a tomb. That is, they believe in death. He himself knows that the human body is nothing and has no life hence could not die. What has life is his mind.

     He used his right mind (Holy Spirit directed thinking) to make his body disappear from the tomb and took on another body, for, as he said, a body that looked like the old body, with human attributes, and, as it, showed it to his fear paralyzed disciplines. He showed it to them to prove to them that death is an illusion, that they are not bodies, that bodies are illusions that do not even exist, but we believe that they exist and what we believe seems real to us.

    He goes on to explain that to be in body is the real meaning of tomb; as it were, to live in body is to be entombed. We, who live in bodies, are entombed (we entombed our minds, only mind exists), we use bodies to hide our real self and real mind, which is not body or ego-based thinking; we have to stop believing in bodies so that, first, we can have vision, see our bodies in light forms,  and, thereafter, make bodies made of matter or of light disappear altogether; this is because forms do not exist at all, only formless, unified spirit exists; they are dream figures that we dream to be on earth with, in a dream universe; we made our bodies seem real to us and made death also seem real; so, he, Jesus, had to go through a process of seeming to live in body and seeming to die and resurrecting from body, knowing that it is all illusion.

      Each of us, he said, must do what he did, stop seeking separation from our real self, which is the son of God, and from God, and stop using our imaginary body to make separation seem real to us; each of us must do what he did, make our bodies disappear (for it never did exist)  and see with vision, that is, change our perception, from ego-based perception to Christ-based perception; ultimately, we must transcend perception and awaken in the world of knowledge, in God.; the world of God is the world of formless, unified self and mind.


      To live in a body is to be depressed for we are aware that bodies are nothing; bodies are worthless; bodies will die and disappear into the nothingness from which we conjured them out. But, instead of accepting that body is nothing and worthless, we cling to it because of the purpose we gave to it, make us seem separated from God and from each other.

    Some people drink coffee and or take other stimulants to try stimulating themselves out of their depression. I used to drink a lot of coffee to make me forget my underlying existential depression from the awareness that if all that I am is ego and body, I am worthless, I am nothing important. I became addicted to coffee at age ten (but to no other drugs, not even alcohol).

     I used my mind to wish for a better body, and in the process developed excessive use of the ego defense mechanism of fantasy; I was always imagining myself in a better body, or body that is not prone to diseases and that will not die. That is, I used my mind to try to stimulate myself out of my depression from living in body and from separating from my real self.

      These days, they give kids and people who have existential depression, as I did, anti-depressant medications (such as HM), to stimulate them out of their existential depression.

    If a person identifies with body and separated ego he must be depressed and must seek ways to stimulate his self out of it; he will use coffee and or street drugs (such as cocaine and amphetamines) or doctor prescribed drugs (such as Prozac, Zoloft, Paxil; those are stimulants; they stimulate release of serotonin in the brain). My ex-wife, like most mothers in America, was given anti-depressant medications and she used them and coffee to try stimulating herself out of her existential depression. I used to observe her efforts to make her body seem important to her and to other people; she wanted people to admire her ego and body, all efforts to escape from her underlying existential depression. She consulted a secular psychotherapist and he told her that I did not love her and that that made her depressed (true, but did she love me?); she did not understand the existential root of her and human depression.


     I have learned all that I can learn from my problematic body; I learned that I used it to crucify me, make me depressed; all my life I used my mind to wish for a better body. I have learned that my body is worthless. It is now time to do what Jesus did, use my right mind to make my body to disappear, for it is not real. When I use my right minded thinking (thinking guided by the Holy Spirit, not left minded thinking guided by the ego) to make my body to disappear, I can also use that right minded, Holy Spirit directed mind to make another body for me, one that I do not need to learn lessons from, so it will be in light form and from it I can show myself in human matter based body to help teach people that they are not living in body and that there is no death, that they have not and cannot separate from God hence remain unified with God; that notwithstanding, as long as they wish to separate from God they will make that separation seem real to them by hiding themselves in bodies and feeling depressed, and fearful that God will attack and destroy their bodies, knowing full well that God knows that they cannot separate from him and cannot live in bodies .

     God knows that his sons are eternally holy, sinless, and guiltless and innocent; they have not done what they think that they did, separate from God; nor have they done what seems the evils they do on earth; they are merely dreaming evil activities.

     It is all a childish game by the sons of God who want to seem more powerful than God by separating from him and constructing their own universe of space, time, and matter.


         Jesus of A course in miracles says that all sons of God, all people are equal and should relate to each other as friends but reserve a sense of awe only for God; this is because though God and his sons are of the same substance, he created them hence they must respect him, not fear him.

      To say that God deserves awe would seem to suggest that he is separate from us, hence defeat the non-dualistic philosophy that A course in miracles is teaching. The book is written in poetic language that sometimes concretizes what is not tangible.

      God is our highest self, and our highest mind, we are his extensions; he is in us and we are in him; but we also have us as his sons and have the ability to use our minds to love, as God loves, or use our minds to seem unloving by inventing a world of hatred, the world in opposition to God, our world.


     In the end what I learned from the belated saying that Jesus disappeared from his body and made another body with human attributes to show it to his disciples, to prove to them that death is an illusion, is exactly what I believe to be true, that body does not exist. We wish for body and try to make it a better body hence our flight to fantasy, aka delusion and paranoia. What Jesus is saying is that with my right mind that I must make my body to disappear, then improve my perception by seeing with forgiveness and love, see with Christ vision, overlook the world of egos and the things done in them. I take on a human form, an improved healthy one, for I no longer need the learning from the older one filled with pain. What the old boy said is true; it is true because it seems true to me. It is a tweaking of my own pursuit of an idealized body and self.


     For a long time,  Igbos have fascinated me (because they are me projected out); whenever they open their mouths they say boastful stuff; they are very proud and arrogant; they put other people down; what they are doing is what I was doing, trying to make their lives in bodies seem worthwhile because they know that body is worthless, is nothing and does not exist; their little delusional thinking is an effort to make their bodies that do not exist seem to exist and important.

      Their three thousand years culture (they have lived where they currently live at for three thousand years) is rigidified; they are always seeking ego and body-based importance and consequently behaving like deluded, paranoid people.

      It is my function to teach them a new theology, as contained in this brief essay, that they are not egos, and are not bodies and for them to use the Holy Spirit, their right minds to overlook their egos and bodies and live from Christ; that is, for them to change their perception, from ego seeing to Christ seeing.

     Christ vision is forgiveness and love based seeing that culminates in seeing people in light forms. And thereafter they give up perception, dense or improved, and return to the awareness of formless, unified self, their real selves as the sons of God who are one with God.

      I teach this truth first to me, then to Igbos and to all Africans and humankind; this is my function as a Teacher of God and teacher of forgiveness and love. I am here to translate Helen Schucman’s convoluted, gabbled-gook language to standard prose so that everyday people may finally learn from it and live love and in so doing return to love, return to God.


       Yesterday evening I took a two and half hours walk; I returned home at around 8:30 PM and was dead tired. I laid on my couch. After about an hour of resting, I needed to read something; I decided to read the “Robert Perry Edited A course in miracles, based on the original handwritten notes of Helen Schucman, A Complete and annotated version published by the Circle of Atonement.”

      A member of my local A course in miracles group had given it to me in 2017 and I did not see it as different from the usual Course, so I shelved it. Yesterday evening, I brought it out; I read the introduction and it said that it had incorporated all the material taken out of the original Course, material often found in what is called Urtext of a Couse in miracles. That got me interested, so I began reading it from chapter one. It did not seem new and different.

     Helen Schucman was a poor psychoanalyst; her take on psychoanalysis seemed like what a dissociated woman would write, not the psychoanalysis that I know. So, I put the book down. Later, around 11PM I decided to read the material on whether Jesus did, in fact, resurrect from physical death. I read it and thought about what I read for a while and then went to sleep.

     This morning I woke up with the above interpretation of it. As soon as I reached the above interpretation, I heard an inner female voice say, “well done,” just those two words. I went to the bathroom and wondered where that phrase came from and conjectured that it is from Helen Schucman. I have been angry at her for writing the best interpretation of Jesus’ teaching yet writing it in her gibberish kind of language that confuses rather than elucidates; she is saying that my interpretation is correct. Whether that is so, or not, does not matter. I go with what makes sense to me. The above essay makes sense to me.


     After typing the above, I had an urge to drive to Starbucks and buy a good cup of java. Why do I like to stimulate my body with coffee?

      I feel that we came from a place of perfect peace and joy, bliss, and found ourselves in bodies, space and time and live in pain and are seeking to regain  the joy we feel in unified state, aka heaven; now, joy based on stimulating the body with food, alcohol, drugs, and sex; we seek body-based pleasures to replace our spirit- based bliss in heaven.

     We must seek pleasure because in our true home in unified state we lived in bliss and cannot tolerate living in pain, as we do on earth. Unfortunately, all the body-based pleasures are addictive: food, alcohol, drugs, sex, pornography are all addictive; we must return to seeking spirit-based bliss by having the correct understanding of the mission of Jesus, as I am trying to accomplish in my writings.


 “My body disappeared because I had no illusion about it. The last one had gone. It was laid in the tomb, but there was nothing left to bury. It did not disintegrate because the unreal cannot die. It merely became what it always was. And that is what “rolling the stone away” means. The body disappears, and no longer hides what lies beyond. It merely ceases to interfere with vision. To roll the stone away is to see beyond the tomb, beyond death, and to understand the body’s nothingness. What is understood as nothing must disappear.”

“I did assume a human form with human attributes afterwards, to speak to those who were to prove the body’s worthlessness to the world. This has been much misunderstood. I came to tell them that death is illusion, and the mind that made the body can make another since form itself is an illusion. They did not understand. But now I talk to you and give you the same message. The death of an illusion means nothing. It disappears when you awaken and decide to dream no more. And you still do have the power to make this decision as I did.”

“God holds out His hand to His Son to help him rise and return to Him. I can help because the world is illusion, and I have overcome the world. Look past the tomb, the body, the illusion. Have faith in nothing but the spirit and the guidance God gives you. He could not have created the body because it is a limit. He must have created the spirit because it is immortal. Can those who are created like Him be limited? The body is the symbol of the world. Leave it behind. It cannot enter Heaven. But I can take you there anytime you choose. Together we can watch the world disappear and its symbol vanish as it does so. And then, and then… I cannot speak of that.”

“A body cannot stay without illusions, and the last one to be overcome is death. This is the message of the crucifixion; there is no order of difficulty in miracles. This is the message of the resurrection: Illusions are illusions. Truth is true. Illusions vanish. Only truth remains.”

“These lessons needed to be taught but once, for when the stone of death is rolled away, what can be seen except an empty tomb? And that is what you see who follow me into the sunlight and away from death, past all illusions, on to Heaven’s gate, where God will come Himself to take you home.”

Ozodi Osuji

May 7, 2022


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