IDEALISM IS EXTREME EGOISM, DESIRE TO BE IN CHARGE RUN WILD
The idealist wants to change his self, change other people, change society and change nature to be as he wants them to be, to suite what he believes would give him good feeling.
The desire to change what is, reality is egoism. As A course in miracles said, in eternity all are the same and coequal and the desire to change eternal reality and make it what the sons of God desire entered their minds, and they invented the physical universe to give them opportunity to separate from each other and go be different, some inferior and others superior. This is the birth of the ego, the pursuit of differences.
All people, in one form or another, want to change something; the idealist wants to change everything, he so desires change that he must have people and the world be as he wishes them to be and does not accept anything as it is, thus he is deluded.
Delusion disorder is when you want to change you, people and things to be as you wish them to be and you are unable to accept you, people and things as they are.
THE IDEALIST IS PRONE TO ANGER
As Karen Horney pointed out in her seminal book, Neurosis and Human Growth, because the neurotic idealist believes that he is right in trying to change people and make them better he feels angry at those people who prevents him from accomplishing his deluded goal. Thus, the idealist is prone to anger for the world must be as he wishes it, or he feels angry.
THE IDEALIST ACCOMPLISHES LITTLE IN LIFE
As Alfred Adler pointed out, the neurotic pursues glory in an all or nothing matter. In the end the neurotic idealist’s all or nothing approach guarantees that he or she changes nothing and accomplishes nothing in his life; for one thing, he wants to accomplish the impossible goal of making people and things perfect.
THE IDEALIST IS JUDGMENTAL
The idealist pursues perfection; he uses the ideals of perfection he mentally constructed to judge people; since what is, is imperfect he finds them imperfect and is unhappy hence is depressed.
Ordinary egoistic people, normal people accept minor changes, small progress, not the total progress, the grandiose accomplishments of the deluded idealist.
THE IDEALISTIC AFRICAN WANTS TO TRANSFORM AFRICA IN A SECOND
The idealistic African wants to drastically change Africa and make it as developed as he imagines developed countries in the west are, he wants to make African cities as beautiful as Rome and Paris combined, but those cities took thousands of years to construct but he wants to do it in his lifetime.
He wants to change things with a magical wand, by merely wishing for them to be so, impossible goal.
Other people build small houses, but the idealist wants to build versatile palace, which only an autocratic king who redirects the people’s money to his pockets can do, so he ends up not building even an ordinary house like ordinary people and still has wishes for mansions.
THE IDEALIST IS TENSE
Idealism is a disturber of the individuals’ emotions and body; his body is always tense because he uses his mind to wish for grand stuff and that excites his body to be ambitious and pursue those grandiose goals. Thus, he is always physically tense, stressed out and traumatized.
Pursue grandiose goals and you make your body aroused and tense and you live in tension; give up desire for big goals, better still, give up all goals and your body and mind relax, and you live in peace and calmness.
THE IDEALIST CANNOT LOVE OTHER PEOPLE
The idealist being an extreme egotists cannot love for he is too invested in seeking external goals that would make him seem important that he is unable to love.
Love requires no ego or a tiny ego but not big ego. Ego is wish for separation from union, separation from other people; egoism is wish to not be close to other persons so the egotist cannot be close to other people although he wants to make them seem important.
THE PURSUIT OF GRANDIOSE EGO IS WHAT LED TO THE INVENTION OF OUR PHYSICAL UNIVERSE
Some metaphysical books, such as Helen Schucman’s A course in miracles, say that human beings are born on earth to pursue big goals, such as the goal of self- creation and creation of other people and things; those impossible goals give him ambition and direction in his youth but in middle to old age he feels like he did not attain them and is despaired.
But he still seeks other goals, thinking that accomplishment of big goals would banish his depression; what would banish his despondency is to seek no goals at all, or to seek the goal of love; love requires no ego, and no ego generates peace and happiness.
THE GREAT MASTERS DID NOT HAVE CHILDREN BECAUSE THEY DID NOT WANT TO INTRODUCE CHILDREN TO THE MADNESS THAT IS THIS WORLD
Jesus Christ did not have children, the same goes for Gautama Buddha (Gautama was said to have been forced to marry by his father and had a son and then left both his wife and son in search of the meaning of life and never came back to them). Ramakrishna also did not have children.
Why did these religious and spiritual experts not have children? I have an idea. They realized that the world is a system of madness.
The world came into being in an act of madness. Reality is united thing, but we thought that we can separated things and live as individuated persons hence invented the physical universe of separated things and house each of us in a body and embark on living as separated selves; even here on earth we are connected to all things but do not see the connection.
Separation is inherently a psychotic act, a delusion and hallucination; this is because it is impossible to separate from other people and things, yet we believe in it. So, we are in ego world.
We all know that to heal our ego madness is to stop seeking ego; stop the desire for living as individuated self and return to awareness of unified self in Nirvana, Buddha told people; no desire for ego separated self and we are healed of madness and return to reality, unified state, God, to awareness of the oneness that we always are in while thinking that we live separated individual lives.
PEOPLE DIE WHEN THEY RECOGNIZE THAT THEIR FUNCTION ON EARTH IS DONE AND THEY HAVE NO OTHER TASK TO PERFORM.
I was extremely ambitious; that ambition drove me to schools; I never quit school until I had the PhD and began teaching and doing other things. Thereafter, I threw myself to fulfilling my idealistic ambitions, making me, people and the world ideal and perfect.
Eventually, I realized that the desire to improve people is a chimera, you cannot do it; it is delusional, but it was what gave me ambition; with that desire gone so what else is there for me to do live for? If I could not live for the idealistic delusion of improving people and the world, for what could I live for?
I threw myself to spirituality; to trying understanding and living spirituality; that is, giving up my ego individuality became the second part of why I am living on earth.
Like the great spiritual experts, such as Jesus Christ and Buddha, when I regain the awareness of our eternal oneness, I doubt that I would like to live on earth, a place that repulses me.
I wrote this stuff in 2002; it is still appropriate twenty years later.
January 2, 2022