I HAVE LEARNED A LESSON FROM A COURSE IN MIRACLES AND OTHER METAPHYSICS; I NO LONGER DESIRE A SEPARATED SELF AND DO NOT DEFEND ONE AND LIVE FREELY AND SPONTANEOUSLY, I NO LONGER HAVE SELF CONSCIOUSNESS THAT USED TO HOLD ME BACK
Every spiritual path teaches one the specific lesson that one needs to learn, that brought one to it. I used to believe that I have a separated ego self-concept that lives in body, and I struggled to make it seem important. I had total self-consciousness and that prevented me from engaging in public action where I could make a mistake or fail and feel embarrassed.
A course in miracles taught me that the separated ego self-concept is a mirage; it does not exist but seems like it exists, it is a dream self we identify with, and desire it, and defend it; defense of it makes it seem real.
If you do not defend the ego and its body, since it does not exist, it disappears. Ego and body are illusions; they seem to exist when desired and defended; if you do not desire them and do not defend them, they disappear from your awareness and leave you free at last; you are liberated from the jail house of wishing and defending what does not exist.
Thereafter, you live as if you are part of one unified life, going about your business and living spontaneously, you have no self-consciousness, nothing holding you back.
You learn quicker and live in peace and joy.
You have no desire to please anyone because it is the ego separated self that has desire to please people so that they accept it, accept an illusion, and make it seem existent and important.
In giving up the ego self-concept I live freely. That much benefit I got from A course in miracles regardless of whether the world beyond this physical world of space, time and matter exists or not (it exists but cannot be understood with the categories of the separated world because it is a unified world).
July 10, 2022