Monday, 06 March 2017 03:49

Deconstructing and reconstructing your ego self

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Ozodi Thomas Osuji

All My life I had a calling; that vocation was to seem a very idealistic and powerful person; when I see anything in this world I imagine how to make it better and use magical powers to make it so. This tendency made everything in this world not good enough for me; thus, I could not settle for anything in this world, for I was always looking for ways to improve things and the world itself.

It is now obvious to me that I will not become a big self and that the big self is not a going to help me overcome my weak body.

Therefore, I must let go of my initial desires, what I call my calling to become a powerful self, and change it to a desire to be egoless.

If you cling to being an ego, even a very little ego, you give to you fear and anxiety; to be in ego, no matter how humble the ego is, is to experience fear, anxiety, anger, paranoia, depression, mania, schizophrenia  and the other mental disorders; the ego is not good for any human being.

To have no ego at all is to feel peaceful and happy.


People want to have rational wishes, not no wishes at all; to have no wishes at all is to be dead and return to non-doing existence, to a mere being state, to what folks call heaven. In heaven we are in being and do not do anything but the moment we enter planet earth we are now in the world of doing.


This world is a doing world, not a being world. Heaven, that is, life outside body is a life where folks do not wish for food for they have no body to feed, clothe, medicate and shelter. Because in heaven people are not in body to be taken care of they do not have to do anything to support their bodies, they just exist but the moment they manifest in matter they are now living in a world that is the opposite of haven; they are now in body and must do something to keep their bodies alive hence are now in the world of doing.

I found it necessary to make the distinction between doing and being because Oriental religions urge people to just be and not do; they are confusing heaven and earth. Hindus listened to their wooly metaphysics and did not do things hence become poor.

In this world you have to do things to support yourself. To have what you want to live with on earth you have to work; the earth does not give us what we want by us merely wishing for them; we have to earn our way through earth.

But who is the real us that earns food etc. to support its selves while it lives in body? That brings me to Jane Roberts' Seth Materials.


Years ago, I read most of the channeled books by Jane Roberts, called Seth Speaks etc. Today, I went to church. I was the scheduled speaker at Church. I am supposed to give a one hour talk on the subject of conjoining spiritual and scientific psychologies (I am actually an ordained Christian minister).

Over the years, I came to the conclusion that whereas we need the physical sciences to study matter and the mental sciences to study the human mind that we also need a spiritual psychology to help reconnect us to the unseen aspects of us.

This morning I got to church thirty minutes early. So I sat in a room and looked for a book to read, something to keep my mind occupied. I saw a book by Jane Roberts called "Dreams and Projections of Consciousness." I read chapter one entitled, "Dreams, creativity and the unconscious".

The thesis of the chapter is that "The Physical universe (is) as idea construction". Mrs. Roberts, I recalled from reading her, has an interesting way of stringing words together; she is a poet by nature, hence a wordsmith.

I am not a poet; I am a scientist and write in plain prose not some fancy verbiage.  In the chapter she essentially said that we are all part of a nonphysical energy and talked about how each of us and all of us collectively used our nonphysical energy self, if you like, spirit self, to produce matter and then contrive to seem to live in matter.

To her we individually and collectively invented matter, space and time and projected ourselves into them and now seem to live in them but our real self is not matter, is what she called pure energy.

Well, I read the sister and said that she made sense. I myself gradually came to the conclusion that my real self and your real self is not matter, nor is it in space and time but is pure spirit. That spirit self is light, spiritual light. It is pure light.

According to my metaphysics, there is God; God is the whole light, the wave of light; each of us is a particle of that light.

As quantum physics teaches us, even at the physical level, wave and particle of light are one.  God (whole self) and his sons (parts of God's self) are one.

Each of us is a son of God, a part of the whole; each of us is responsible for constructing his physical world but he did it in conjunction with all of us (animals included).

As I see it, we are all part of what I call unified spirit self; we used our spiritual minds to construct our world.

No human being or animals is a victim for we are individually and collectively responsible for the construction of this world and what happens in it. The world is of our making, our construction albeit a dream and not real (the world is our individual and collective dream).

We are the dreamer of this world; the dreamer is not his dreams; the dreamer is spirit; spirit is eternal, permanent and changeless whereas his dream is the opposite of his real self; the world, the dream is ephemeral, transitory and changeable; material things, our bodies included, do change and die but our spirits are eternal.

No one needs to blame other people for his fate for he made it with the aid of all of us. What the individual needs to do is understand his situation and then deconstruct what he constructed and reconstructs it (with the help of all of us, of course).

For example, I chose to be born in an incredibly pained and weak body and used my mind to construct a big self that I wanted to become; that big self was meant to enable me cope with my pained life.

In childhood I identified with a big self. In other to become that big self I was incredibly ambitious. I went to school as if driven. I could not not read. Thus, I smashed through elementary, secondary and university and obtained the PhD in my twenties (and this is despite a war that wasted almost three years of my life). I was a professor by age thirty.

I was driven to attain my wished for ideal and powerful self. I constructed that ideal, powerful self. In my mid-thirties I turned my gaze towards matters spiritual and systematically studied Hinduism, Buddhism, Taoism, Gnosticism, early Christianity etc. Thereafter, I realized that the ego is a chimera and is not my real self.

I began my effort to deconstruct my big ego and reconstruct it and make it a humble ego. In the end my goal is to become egoless.

To accomplish the task of deconstructing my ego I must accept responsibility for constructing it in the first place; if I see myself as a victim of others, as determined by other people  and the environment I would not take my life into my hands and change it.

Jane Roberts is a good read so I took the book home and will read the rest of it. My life is incredibly busy. I have to prepare for my classes (at the university) and give lectures and have the time to do extracurricular reading and writing (in addition to academic writing and reviewing other writers' articles submitted to the academic journals that I do peer reviews for).

I live twenty four seven and scarcely have time to myself. Such is life, cest la vie, I am not complaining. I would not have it any other way; I love my busy life. As long as I am doing what I like doing and have aptitude for doing my life is a ball.

Jane Roberts is correct in stating that we are pure mind (energy) and that we use our minds to construct our world.

Look around you and see what human minds invented: computers, internet, smart phones, cars, trains, ships, planes, rockets, houses etc. We invented them all.

The question I have for myself is this: what am I using my incredible mind to invent in the physical and social world?  One must be inventing something to feel alive.

We are the inventors. We invent our world; the world is not what happens to us; we are not victims of the world for we invented the world.

We can reinvent the world we invented; we can deconstruct our constructs and reconstruct them, and make them better.

For example, scientists having understood how the DNA is a repository of information are now able to actually put information into DNA and have the DNA replicate with the information they put into it.

Our minds invented our DNAs and placed the information in them; in time we shall understand how it works and put different information sets, DNAs into our genes and produce healthier bodies. Healthier bodies live healthier lives.

In the meantime, I deconstruct bad ideas and reconstruct them with better ideas, such as my effort to find a union of scientific and spiritual psychology. I believe that what I am doing is what will heal people for people are spiritual beings having physical experience and you must understand them at the physical and spiritual levels and combine the two sets of information if you want to heal their screwed up minds and lives.

To follow my efforts please buy one or more of my 60 books.

Ozodi Thomas Osuji

March 5, 2017

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Ozodi Osuji Ph.D

Ozodi Thomas Osuji is from Imo State, Nigeria. He obtained his PhD from UCLA. He taught at a couple of Universities and decided to go back to school and study psychology. Thereafter, he worked in the mental health field and was the Executive Director of two mental health agencies. He subsequently left the mental health environment with the goal of being less influenced by others perspectives, so as to be able to think for himself and synthesize Western, Asian and African perspectives on phenomena. Dr Osuji’s goal is to provide us with a unique perspective, one that is not strictly Western or African but a synthesis of both. Dr Osuji teaches, writes and consults on leadership, management, politics, psychology and religions. Dr Osuji is married and has three children; he lives at Anchorage, Alaska, USA.

He can be reached at: (907) 310-8176