Ozodi Osuji Ph.D

Ozodi Osuji Ph.D

Ozodi Thomas Osuji is from Imo State, Nigeria. He obtained his PhD from UCLA. He taught at a couple of Universities and decided to go back to school and study psychology. Thereafter, he worked in the mental health field and was the Executive Director of two mental health agencies. He subsequently left the mental health environment with the goal of being less influenced by others perspectives, so as to be able to think for himself and synthesize Western, Asian and African perspectives on phenomena. Dr Osuji’s goal is to provide us with a unique perspective, one that is not strictly Western or African but a synthesis of both. Dr Osuji teaches, writes and consults on leadership, management, politics, psychology and religions. Dr Osuji is married and has three children; he lives at Anchorage, Alaska, USA.

He can be reached at: ozodiosuji@gmail.com (907) 310-8176

Friday, 21 July 2017 20:38

On people seeking worth

OSUJIS DAILY NOTES

 

ON PEOPLE SEEKING EXISTENTIAL WORTH

 

Ozodi Thomas Osuji

 

I AM THE ONE WHO HAS A PROBLEM WITH TITLES

 

      What a person observes people do that bothers him is actually his problem rather than other folks problems. Psychoanalysts call this projection (ego defense mechanism).

     I am the one with a problem when it comes to the foolery that Nigerians make of themselves logging their titles around. It bothered me no end seeing Nigerians giving themselves empty titles.  I know that they are doing it, giving themselves titles, to make them seem important.

     What do you want them to do, accept existential unimportance? Existence makes people seem unimportant and they struggle to seem important, so what they are doing, trying to seem important by attaching titles to them is a normal response to their existential unimportance; it enables them to struggle for achievement, for achievements gives them the impression that they are important; without those achievements and titles they would be paralyzed by their existential unimportance and may be commit suicide. Therefore, leave them alone; let them dance their dance of social importance for it keeps them going and alive

 

BODY AND EGO CANNOT GIVE PEOPLE IMPORTANCE

 

      Everywhere you look human beings are trying to obtain a sense of importance through their bodies. This is especially so with women.

      Women decorate their bodies with nice clothes and jewelries and present themselves to the public and kind of think that that makes them seem socially important.

       Men pile titles to them, and wear clothes, caps and jewelry that supposedly make them important in their world, such as Igbos wearing red caps, wearing beads around their necks and arms, and through them feel kind of important.

      Here is the deal. All these social dances cannot make people important. We cannot feel important from our bodies for we know that our bodies are nothing important. Our bodies will die and decay to elements, atoms, particles and to nothingness. Nothingness, that is our bodies, cannot be important and we know it.

 

INTENSE AMBITIOUSNESS IS DESIRE TO FIND WORTH THROUGH SUCCESS

 

      Some persons, me included, try to find worth and significance through ambition. In my youth I was totally ambitious; I wanted to succeed in education and then go get a job and succeed at it and become a socially important person. I was so ambitious that I had no time to relax and have fun. I was intense, motivated and focused like a trajectory moving towards a goal, the goal being success and the success is designed to make me feel important. In time I learned that success does not give me importance for I live in body that will die. Body and social success cannot give me existentially importance.

      This is depressing but when one accepts ones existential unimportance one tends to relax and smell the roses and live happy existence.

 

FOLKS TRY TO FIND IMPORTANCE IN SPIRIT

 

       Throughout human history people recognizing that their bodies have no worth posit what they call God, spirit and say that if they identify with God, spirit that they derive real importance. Spirit is said to be permanent, eternal and changeless so to identify with him is to overcome the death of the body, to transcend the changeable and temporary and become permanent hence important.

      The problem is that we do not know that spirit exists; God and spirit is a hypothesis and therefore cannot give us importance.

 

SCIENCE TAKES AWAY IMPORTANCE FROM PEOPLE

 

      Science says that there is no God, spirit and life after we die; science says that our minds and thinking is epiphenomenal; that is, are the products of our brains; that our thinking is materialistic, produced by matter; science sees us as pure animals. Okay.

      If we are pure animals who like dogs die and rot and disappear from existence then we are nothing important.

      Science takes away from people their imagined importance, their ego and spiritual importance and tells them that they have no importance.

 

LIFE ON EARTH IS PREDICATED ON SEEKING BODY BASED IMPORTANCE

 

     Life on earth is seeking body based worth; it is impossible to obtain worth by seeking it through body; body is nothing and folks want to derive worth through identification with body. 

      Since we cannot derive worth from body, ego and spirit then what are we supposed to do?

 

ACCEPT YOUR EXISTENTIAL WORTHLESSNESS, INSIGNIFICANCE AND UNIMPORTANCE AND STOP SEEKING THEM

 

       One must accept that one is an animal that lives and dies and accept that one cannot obtain body based worth or from imaginary spirits; one must accept ones existential worthlessness and live with that reality.

       If a man accepts worthlessness and does not seek it and does not pretend to have it he lives humbly, peacefully and joyfully, expecting nothing and getting nothing.

       Such a man is not easily manipulated by society that gives people phony titles to gratify their desire for worth and in the process manipulate and control them or religious organizations that give people the hill of beans that they have worth in god and in the process manipulate them and have them obey the religions’ leaders.

      Live with worthlessness; it can be done and must be done for your own peace of mind.

 

NO ONE CAN CONTROL AND MANIPULATE YOU IF YOU ACCEPT YOUR WORTHLESSNESS

 

        If I accept that I am worthless, unimportant and insignificant and do not desire their opposites what else can you do to me, tell me that I am unimportant, but I have already accepted that reality? You have no effect on me and cannot control me as your silly ego is trying to do by telling me that I have no worth.

      Igbos manipulate each other by playing on their desire for worth; recognizing that Igbos seek social worth they tell you that you are worthless and that is supposed to make you feel bad.

     Igbos fear failure for to be a failure is supposed to give you shame; they call you shameless for in their primitive minds and primitive world being a failure is supposed to shame you! They do not even know what constitutes success!

       Being wise is the greatest success in life. Throughout human history it is wise people, philosophers that are known thousands of years after they are dead. We know about Plato, Aristotle and a few other Greeks but not about rich Greek folks.

      Who remembers rich folks a hundred after they are dead? Nobody! People remember those who give them words of wisdom such as Lao Tzu, Confucius, Buddha, Shankara, Ramanuja, Jesus Christ, Bahaullah, Ramakrishna and Osuji.

      No one can control a person who has accepted his worthlessness; governments and leaders are able to control people because people seek phony worth, seek empty titles to mask, veil, cover their existential worthlessness.

 

LEARNING ABOUT IGBOS AND THEIR CONDITIONAL ACCEPTING CULTURE

 

     You can learn a lot about a culture by relating to a few of its members. I learned a lot about Igbo culture by relating to a few Igbos at Nigerian Internet forums. By relating to them on the Net they showed me a lot about their Igbo culture.

      I had taken what I called sabbatical from academia and the administrative world, a world that I had been a part of for thirty years; I felt a need to go think things through without trying to conform to any external others. Some of the Igbo chaps asked me if I am unemployed and I said yes. They extrapolated from that that I must be poor (common sense would have told the fools that a man who had his PhD in his twenties and had worked for thirty years ought to have some savings but we are talking about fools). These folks began a process of calling me poor and so on. I kept asking myself why it is their business if a person is poor or not. Finally, I got it.

     In their culture people must be known to be employed and making a certain amount of money to be considered acceptable. In the Igbo world you have to appear to be socially making it for the people to respect you. Thus, most Igbos struggle to have money so as to seem successful; they know that if they are seen as successful they are accepted by their people and if not they are rejected by them. In the process Igbos do not take time out to do serious thinking; they mostly proffer received group information.

      Igbos are  so busy trying to get  each other’s acceptance that they do not do personal thinking and decide what is right or wrong and make a personal stance on the truth. They are really a primitive people conforming to what they think that their group members would approve and are afraid to be rejected by their group members.

     As a result, none of them really have made a seminal contribution to the world of thought. No Igbo that I know of have contributed to philosophy or psychology or even physics and chemistry; these people are simply not relevant in the world of ideas.

       I learned a lot about them from relating to them from afar on the internet. I thank those I had to close my nose to read the rubbish they write for they gave me tremendous insights into the Igbo character and Igbo culture.

       Igbo culture accepts people conditionally, only when they seem successful and reject them when they seem like failures. The average Igbo is afraid of rejection by his people and as a result lacks what Carl Jung call individuation; they are like children afraid to displease their parents and people and do whatever they do to conform to their group’s norms.

     Any psychologist would tell you that people need unconditional social acceptance to become psychologically healthy.

      Conditional acceptance of people makes them neurotic. Most Igbos are neurotic; I have not seen one psychologically healthy Igbo in my entire life.

     Igbos have a lot of social pathologies. This is not the right place to begin the process of changing their pathological culture and healing them.

 

Ozodi Thomas Osuji

July 21, 2017

www.centerformindscience.org

 

Friday, 21 July 2017 09:01

We choose to live in bodies

WE CHOOSE TO LIVE IN BODIES

 

Ozodi Thomas Osuji

 

      Let us consider our lives in bodies, our present existence. We all know that each of us has the ability to end his life in body. If you choose to, right now, you can commit suicide and end your life in body. It is as simple as that. You go to the store, buy a gun and bullets and go pump those bullets into your head and you are dead. You may choose a less gruesome method of dying by taking, say, cyanide and get it over with in seconds. 

       If you can take your own life (and, sadly, other people’s lives, too), so, what prevents you from doing so?  The answer is very simple; you want to live in body. You want to live doing what body enables you to do, live as a separated self.

      Body, matter, space and time are means of making living as a separated self-possible. You are alive in body, space and time because you wished and still do to live in separated state. 

      To be alive on earth you must have a separated self in body. To be alive on earth you must sentence yourself to slavery working to earn money to buy what your body needs to sustain it for the possible 120 years maximum that the human body can live before it dies.

     You must work and make money to buy food, clothes, medications and shelter to support and protect your body. 

       If you have no ego separated self in body why would you be in this world, why stay alive on earth if you do not have a separated self?  What are you doing here?

      Are you here to support other people, those living in ego separated states? Give me a break, will you; nobody lives to make it possible for others to live, you live because you want to live and if possible you help other people who also want to live to live but primarily you live because you want to live.

       If you have no desire for the survival of your physical body today you would be gone from this world today for you have the means to take you out of it.

       So admit it, then, for once in your life be honest with you; you are here because you want to be here; do not say that God created you and wants you to be here and that God does not like any one to kill his self.

     Most folks actually do not know that God does not know that our world of egos exist; God is unified spirit and as such does not know that our separated material world exists; God knows that we, his children, constructed imaginary dream worlds and dream themselves in them, while they are still alive in him.

     Our world is less than one percent of heaven; we are right now in heaven, close our eyes and see our world, a dream, but otherwise 99% of us are still alive in heaven. 

       The point that I have made, so far, is that we are in this world because we desire to be in it; we desire the world of separated selves so admit the obvious and stop deluding yourself into thinking that you are here against your wish, for if you wish to leave this world, at any moment, you can do so.

      You are already here. Your ego wished for you to be here. Now, change your wish and wish to have a happy dream; wish to dream with your brothers a lovely dream; you do so by loving every person in the world.

     Love does not make the world not a dream; the world will still be a dream, a nothing; love just makes it a lovely nothing, a happy dream, a happy insanity.

     You have already dreamed for fourteen billion years, from the Big Bang to the present.  Go ahead and dream for more billions of years in dense body and thereafter for trillions of years in light body; you have the freedom to dream; God cannot stop you from dreaming but he wants you to have a happy dream by loving your fellow dreamers, all people.

     Dreams are allowed by you (God).  Ultimately, the physical universe would end (in a few trillion years all matter would decay and return to radiation, cold light) and the world ends and you wake up from your earthly dreams. 

 

CONCLUSION

 

      You are here because you want to be here; no one can be on earth who does not want to be here. As long as you desire to be here then make it a lovely world by loving those who are also here with you. 

       This is all that the teachers of God ask you to do; they ask you to have a happy dream, a happy insanity of seeing yourself in a separated world when your real world is unified, by loving all those who are like you insane to think that they can live in a separated state.

      Love you and love all people and your life on earth becomes a happy dream, a happy insanity (sanity lies in the unified world of God, aka heaven).

       This is what all the teachers of God like Rama, Krishna, Buddha, Jesus Christ, Bahaullah, Osuji teach. Learn their teaching that tells you that it is insane for you to believe that you are separate from your real self, unified spirit self and that whereas you have the right to be insane that you can make your insanity pleasant by loving all those who are along with you are insane and believe that they are separated from their real self, God.

     Love you and all people and you make your stay in the world, the universal dream of separation, a happy one.

     Finally, you always have a self; on earth you have an ego separated self; in the world of light forms you have a Christ separated self, a self that although still in form and in the world of space and time knows that it is one with all selves and loves them all, and a unified self in heaven (heaven is our real home).

      We always have a self. We cannot not have a self; the question is what kind of self-do you have in your consciousness: separated ego self, separated Christ self or the unified son of God? The choice is yours. 

     The futility of suicide is that it is grandiose and wants to end a self you did not create; you cannot end yourself. If you destroy your body, as in suicide, all that will happen is that you are born, again, in body to continue the dream until you have had a happy dream and finally choose to return to heaven, to let go of the ego and Christ and like the prodigal son return back to your father, unified state.

      You do not leave the earth by killing yourself but by remembering love, union with all people. If while you are on earth and you remember that you are one with all creation and its creator and love them all you will see our world disappear and you find yourself in heaven. This is the experience of oneness; after it some of us choose to return to this world of separation to help teach you that our true home is unified, is eternal, is perfect peace and joy, and that you return to it through love not self-destruction, for you cannot destroy you, for you did not create you and cannot destroy what you did not create, God created you.

      All that you are asked to do is for you to love you and love all people.  This is certainly not asking too much, is it? Why do you hate love (union) and prefer hate (separation)? Pride?

       In humility, return to living as your creator, God created you to be, a loving person.

 

Ozodi Thomas Osuji

July 21, 2017

www.centerformindscience.org

 

PS: A week ago I came back from Europe and had a desire to restate the truth as I know it to be. I have done so (in the past six essays). I now return to more mundane things, such as taking care of my personal business. Good luck and cheers,

Thursday, 20 July 2017 23:50

Forgiveness and the world of light forms

FORGIVENESS AND THE WORLD OF LIGHT FORMS

 

Ozodi Thomas Osuji

 

THERE IS NO WORLD AND YOU PROJECT OUT A WORLD AND GIVE IT ALL THE VALUE AND MEANING IT HAS FOR YOU; YOU COULD ALSO GIVE IT ANOTHER MEANING, THE ONE BY THE HOLY SPIRIT OR GIVE IT UP AND RETURN TO GOD

 

Work book lessons 1-50

 

     What is A course in miracles teaching? It is teaching that the world we see is not actually there and that we projected it out and give it all the meaning it has for us; beyond the meaning we give to it, it has no other meaning; it does not exist and we see what does not exist hence are frustrated and upset because we see something that is not there.

    What we can now do is project out another world, do so from our right mind, the Holy Spirit; the new world we projected out with our right mind is still like the world our left mind projected out but this time it is a world of light forms and looks beautiful; it is still a dream, still fictional and not real but it is better than the world in dark form. It is our world reinterpreted with forgiveness.

      We look at the world in light forms, aka happy dream, real world, gate of heaven, bridge between earth and heaven (Catholics call it purgatory and Muslims call t paradise) for a while and then decide to stop looking at the self and world in forms and let go of all selves and worlds in forms and return to the formless world of God where we all share oneself and one mind.

    

A course in miracles, work book for students, lesson 75

 

       A course in miracles was written in poetic form; as such, it does not clarify what it is saying; this tendency to be wooly really annoyed me no end.

      Consider the course’s central teaching, forgiveness.  What does the course mean by forgiveness? It says that it means overlooking the world.

       The world is a dream and what is done in dreams have not been done so overlook the dream to see the dreamers, the sons of God, first in light forms and ultimately in formlessness.

       Does this mean that if I see a man raping a child, if I see a person killing another person, if I see a person stealing from other people am supposed to overlook what I am seeing, yes or no? 

      Give me a yes or no answer; I do not want an elaborate poetry that I need to keep myself busy trying to decipher what it means.

     So, what should I do if I see a person doing what seems to me to be anti-social behavior, overlook it, and forgive it?

       If I see a person abusing a child and overlook it, forgive it have I not become part of the child’s abuse? Of course I have.

       If I see you doing harmful things to other people it is my duty and responsibility to make sure that you do not do so; I must stop you and if I cannot I must call the police and make sure that they deal with you according to extant society’s laws.

      What then is forgiveness? Forgiveness does not mean condoning anti-social behaviors; it does not mean tolerating evil behaviors. It does not mean tolerating Muslim Jihadists running around killing people or misguided Americans running around the world trying to impose their stupid foreign policies on other people or tolerating American government’s anti-human policy of not giving all people a single payer health insurance and paying for all young people’s education through university.

       In the here and now world,  people identify as their bodies and if you attack those bodies they do feel pain and fear and you shouldn’t attack them and if you attack  them you must be removed, arrested, tried and sent to prison.

       However, it is also true that nothing can happen to us without us wanting to experience it, as the course observed, so those you attack want to experience pain to make their egos seem real to them.

      But we want to experience it not out of rational state of mind but from irrational frame of mind. It is because of our ego insanity, the insanity that separation can be made real.  

     For example, black people want to experience racism hence project out white racists who want to discriminate against them; the two groups experience sadism and masochist; both parties are sick for if they are sane they would not want to experience abuse and abuse others.  

      So, if you see the dance of the abused and abuser you do something about it. You stop the abuse; you stop racism; you work to change the racist society even though the people in it, out of their sickness, set it up; out of your sanity you work to change that sick society they set up for it warps human growth.

      What forgiveness means is that if you see the attacker and the attacked you know that behind their egoistic behavior are other selves, the Christ self, the light selves.

      The abuser and the abused literally have other selves, selves in light forms.  If you stop their mutual sick abusive dance and love them you see both of them in light forms.  You will see the Christ in the racist as well as in his victim.

        In Nigeria, for example, most people are corrupt and are thieves; yet, there are light selves in them, Christ selves in all of them. If you forgive them, overlook what they are doing you will see that forgiven self, the Christ self in them.

      However, you do not have to overlook their criminality; you do not do them any good by tolerating their thievery; you work to stop the mass corruption that has taken hold of the country and prevents it from developing.

 

THE LIGHT SELF IS THE SELF THE HOLY SPIRIT HAS ALREADY REMADE FROM OUR EGO SELVES

 

      The Holy Spirit has already reinvented all of us, whites, blacks, Nigerians, racists in light selves, in Christ selves; yet he wants you to correct the behaviors of people and not just run away from doing so under the impression that you are supposed to overlook the egos world to see the light world.

   The light world is already there but you still need to correct the extant world before you go to it.

 

BEARING GRIEVANCES AND SEEKING REVENGE PERPETUTES OUR WORLD

 

      The course is correct in saying that if you bear grievances and seek vengeance for what other people did to you that you would see them in egos and bodies, hence perpetuate their stay in the world of the ego, the world of darkness and sentence them to living in hell.

      Forgiveness takes people out of the world of darkness and takes them to the world of light forms.

     If you forgive people, overlook what they did to you, you escape from seeing them as egos and bodies and seeing you as ego and body; forgiveness shows you people in light forms.

     Yet, you are not going to exit from this world by merely overlooking its evils. You must be in this world of dense matter and work to get the people to care and love each other.

    It is true that lack of forgiveness keeps you and people prisoners of this world; still, we must be prisoners of this world until we have transformed the world and made it a loving world.

 

EACH OF US HAVE A BODY OF LIGHT; THE WORLD SIMULTANOUSLY EXISTS IN LIGHT AND DARK FORMS

 

       Each of us, upon birth in this world, develops a self in body and ego and also develops another self in light form.

       In that sense we brought light (a light self) to the egos dark world (see a course in miracles poetry in lesson75).

      We are the light of the world and brought that light to the darkness of the egos world. This means that the Holy Spirit has already remade our body and ego form in light form and that if we choose to love people and work to improve the world and not condone evil we shall occasionally see ourselves and all people in light forms.

      This does not require us to run away from the evils of this world; we must stay here and make it a happy dream (happy dream is the world of light forms; real world, holy relationships all exist in the world of light forms).

      The problem with writing a book in poetic form is that what it says is not clarified; A course in miracles lacks clarity and that is why I undertake to clarify what it is saying is simple prose.

       The book will go out of circulation in a few more decades, not because it does not contain the truth but because it is written in poetic form that lacks clarity; people are looking for clarity.

      This is the inherent problem with speaking and writing from the unconscious mind, which is what Helen Schucman did, without allowing her conscious mind to filter what is coming from her unconscious mind.

     A part of her unconscious mind called itself Jesus and through that identity wrote her book. If she had used her conscious mind to understand what she is saying she would have known that the ego, holy spirit, Christ, left mind, right mind, God are all parts of the individual’s mind.

      There is no Christ and Holy Spirit out there remaking our world; the Holy Spirit is our higher self that we use to improve the world that our lower self, the ego made.

       We as the sons of God are the ones who made the ego and its world, as well as the world of light forms, the real world, the happy dream.

      Indeed, we (the parts of the whole) and God (the whole) are the ones that created heaven, for God is not another person; he is our collective self.

 

GNOSTICISM

 

       Talking about darkness and light are gnostic ways of representing the world of good and bad. To Gnosticism, the world of the ego is the world of darkness; the world of God is the world of light; to bring light to darkness is to live in the world in a godly manner. 

       I wished that Helen Schucman had taken her function seriously and translated her poetry into prose that has clarity. I guess that she had to do her part leaving me to do my part of clarifying what she said, so as to make her message enduring.

       Very few people have understood what she said before I came along to help them understand it; folks merely rewrite her book without really understanding it.

 

THERE ARE THREE WORLDS IN ONE PLACE

 

       Quantum physics suggests that there are many universes.  A course in miracles talked about three of them: our present world of dense matter, the purified form of our world called the world of light forms, and the world of God that is formless.

       These three worlds are in us and we are in them. We project out the world we see. It is also us who project out heaven, our real home (we are aliens in our world of dark forms and light forms).

      Heaven is real but the world of dense matter and the world of light matter are false, are dreams, and are fictional and insane, are delusional for they do not exist and seem to exist because we want them to exist.

        In a few hundred years science will prove the existence of these three worlds to be true so we are not talking mythology here.

       A course in miracles merely talked about the three worlds in a poetic metaphors; science will prove them using its verifiable parameters.

     Consider the idea of entangled particles communicating across great distances instantaneously without recognition of space and time; this is what religionists talk about when they say that they can talk to anyone telepathically.

 

 VALUING NOTHINGNESS VERSUS VALUING SOMETHING IMPORTANT

 

      The worlds we see with our physical eyes do not exist; it is a mirage; it seems there but is not there. It is there because we want it to seem to be there.

      The world comes into being because of our wish for it; it is like a dream where what the dreamer wishes calls forth a dream world and he sees that would in his dream and thinks that the world is there but when he wakes up he knows that it is not real.

     Our wish for separation from God called forth the existence of the world we now see, the world of space, time and matter. We want the world and see it. Because we desire it we value it. But since it does not exist we are really valuing nothing.

     The world is our handiwork, we made it and are proud of it; it is our baby, we gave birth to it and are proud of it, but we are proud of nothing.

      God knows that we are proud of nothing. He knows that we do not want to let it go. So, he says, let me improve the nothingness my children made and are proud of. He, through his Holy Spirit, remade the world of dense matter into the world of light energy.

      We have bodies of matter that will die and decay so our bodies are nothing. The Holy Spirit remade our bodies with pure light and the bodies of light will last trillions of years before they are gently translated to formless heaven.

       The point here is that we in the world value the world; we feel disappointed when the things of the ego are gone. We are attached to our world.

      Teachers of God, such as Gautama Buddha, say, okay, so you like this nonsense you call your world, eh, go ahead and value it but do so with detachment; know that it is tinsel; it is here today and gone tomorrow, it is transitory and ephemeral; do not become too attached to it so that when it is gone you do not feel excessive psychological pain.

      Your parents are dead and eaten by worms. Stop right there and think about it. How valuable were their bodies if they are earned by worms? Their bodies have no value. The only thing that matters is the love between you and your parents, so love them and they should love you.

    (A primitive Igbo mechanic called Chukwuma told me that he makes a lot of money and told me how much money he is making, slightly over one hundred thousand dollars a year, and he is almost seventy years old; I was making more than that in my thirties but the ape is bragging about his wealth; another Igbo monkey called Nebu Adiele told me that he is richer than I am, and it turns out that he is a security guard! Igbos are always boasting about their wealth; like immature children they are not aware that the things of this world are transitory and that wise folks do not value them; I am here to teach them to stop valuing nothingness and value what matters, the things of God, to value the eternal, permanent and changeless things of spirit).

       On earth we value nothing; God gave us something better to value, the world of light forms. That world is still a fantasy, still unreal, still insane in that it is in forms, for reality is formless  but it is a better insanity (is a happy dream) than the changeable world we call our physical world.

    In the long run we must stop valuing sand, the things of this world, and value the eternal: spirit, love and union.

 

Ozodi Thomas Osuji

July 21, 2017

www.centerformindscience.org

 

You probably have heard it said that some people are teachers of love, aka God.  A teacher of love teaches the perennial philosophy that all human beings are the same and coequal and that they are created by God and remain as God created them, innocent, guiltless, sinless and holy despite the evil they seem to do on earth.

Teachers of God have studied their earthly characters and understood them to be egoistic and decided to completely let go of identification with the ego self-concept and embrace a different self-concept, still a conceptual self (hence still  a false self for all concepts are false, truth is not conceptual).

Each of us is an ego and must understand that ego and then make a conscious and voluntary decision to let go of that ego self-concept and henceforth think and behave from what Christians call the Christ self and Buddhists call Buddhist self. They do this consciously; no one forces them to do so for they could as well choose to think and act from their ego self-concept.

Yesterday, I wrote a piece saying that what it means to be a human being is to feel insignificant and seek significance; it essentially delineated my ego character, what needs to be changed; we feel insignificant outside God (love) and significant in God (love).

Teachers of love know that to think and act from the ego, separated self-concept gives them fear, guilt, anxiety, anger, depression, delusion, mania and schizophrenia. In fact, the ego separated self-concept is mental disorder itself for it is a false self.

If you think and act from a false self-concept, a self that is not your real self you are insane. The sane person thinks and acts from his real self.

Alas, while you live in body and is on planet earth you cannot think and act from your true self, for your true self, the self that God created you as, is not in body.

Your true self is spirit, and is part of unified spirit, which is the union of God and all his sons.  No one on earth can think and act from unified spirit.

As long as you are in body and in the world of space, time and matter the most that you can do is approximate your true self but not be it.

To approximate your real self you have to re-conceptualize you and now posit what is called the Christ self, a self that loves you and all people.

The Christ self is still in human form but it now allows itself to be guided by what Christians call the Holy Spirit; it thinks and acts from the perspective of the Holy Spirit; it does not think and behave from the ego, separated self.

Because it thinks and acts from the Christ self, a self that loves all people it approximates its real self, the son of God but is not him.

Because it loves all people occasionally it sees all people and itself in light forms.  Our world can be seen in light form; that form of it is the form that the Holy Spirit has remade it; it is still like our world but it is no longer in dense matter but in light energy.

One day I was taking a walk in the woods and was tired and sat down and suddenly the entire woods took on a light form; it was so beautiful that your physical eyes cannot believe that such beauty is possible in our world; let me just tell you that your body, all human bodies, animals, trees, mountains, moons, planets, stars, galaxies and the entire physical universe has a form of it in light form; that new form of it is already existing; you can see it, it is the world that the Holy Spirit has already remade from our present world; to see it you must totally love you and all human beings; you must forgive you and all people the evil you see us do.

To come to the gate of heaven, which is what the world of light forms is, you must be a loving and forgiving person; no one comes to the gate of love (heaven is formless, is perfect love) who is not a loving person.

In the meantime, one must accept that one already has a self-concept that is of the ego. The ego is not an accident. Everything that has happened in your life or my life happened to make you/me construct an ego self-concept and see it as who you are.

The ego in you, your self-concept has taken fourteen billion years for you and the universe to construct it. The human ego, you and I, is gradually built up from the Big Bang, 13.8 billion years ago, to the present.

That which took fourteen billion years to construct is not an accident; it is, as it were, meant to be. Look at your body and ego and what you see is a body and ego that took you fourteen billion years to construct.  You are not an accident.

The body and ego you have you are meant to have for everything in your past and present life formed it.  You cannot not be who you currently are.

I could not have been other people given my body and social experience; my fourteen billion years evolution in space, time and matter produced who I am.  I could not have a different body and ego; and you cannot have a different body and ego.

It is, therefore, a will of the wisp to wish that you are like other people; you are not like other people; you are not me and I am not you; you do not have my body and I do not have your body; we had different physical and social experiences; you had to have a different self-concept, a different ego from mine.

If I have a different ego I would behave differently; but that is unrealistic wishes for I do not have a different body and ego.

The body and ego I have is the product of fourteen billion years of evolution and so is yours; none of us could be different selves. You can wish all you want but you cannot be me and I can wish all I want and I cannot be you.

You were meant to be who you currently are and I am meant to be who currently I am. Every person you see on earth is meant to be who he or she is; given his body and society he had to have his ego type, his self-concept, his personality; he could not have been somebody else.  If he is rich he is meant to be rich; if he is poor he is meant to be poor; if he is smart he is meant to be smart.

You cannot have Albert Einstein's IQ of 160 because you do not have his body and ego. You cannot be me with amazing understanding of philosophy, psychology and spiritual matters. You are you and nobody else in the entire physical universe is like you. Each of us is special and unique.

Given the totality of my physical and social existence I had to reject my body and desire to have an ideal body; that is to say that I had to pursue becoming an ideal, superior ego.  I could not not have done so. To wish that I could be an average person with a ho-hum ego is wishful thinking.   The only choice in the matter that I now have is to study and understand my body and ego. I have to understand the shortcomings of my ego. Having understood them I resolve to change my ego self-concept.

All I have to do is decide not to think and behave as I did before; all I have to do is decide to think and behave from my higher self, the Christ self; that is, all I need to do is decide to think and behave from my right mind and allow me to be guided by the Holy Spirit.

Before I do anything I pause and ask the Holy Spirit to guide me. I no longer spontaneously do what my ego self-interest urges me to do; instead, I stay silent and ask my higher self to guide me.

This means looking at every situation I am in from the perspective of love and social interest. How would my behavior affect other people, would it hurt them or not? Would my behavior serve our mutual social interest; is my proposed behavior loving and respectful of me and other people? If the answer is yes I am behaving from my higher self, from my right mind, from Christ, from the Holy Spirit.

(Ego, Christ, Holy Spirit and God are all parts of my mind, your mind; they are not separate persons but modes of thinking and behaving; I give them names to make the point that each results in certain behavior outcomes different from others; if you behave from ego you feel anxious; if you behave from Christ you feel peaceful.)

If I behave from ego psychology, my self-interested behavior that does not concern itself with other people's good I live in fear, anxiety, anger and mental disorder; on the other hand, if I behave from love for all people I experience peace and joy; peace and joy are the gifts of God.

When a person consistently lives from love and forgiveness, from Christ, his life, as it were, is blessed; he is in peace and joy, in bliss.

So, what is transformation of character? Transformation of character occurs when each of us studies his personality, his self-concept, his ego and his behavior pattern  and decides that it serves him poorly and decides that the higher self, the Christ self, the Buddha self, the Krishna self, the Chi self serves him better for it gives him peace and joy. The person decides to let go of behaving from the ego (hate) and chooses to behave from Christ (love).

No one can force you to make this change; this is a voluntary choice that each of us must make when he reaches the stage in his life when that choice is necessary.

Not all people have attained the stage where they must make that choice; most people are closer to animal status, they are deeply asleep and dreaming that they are separated ego selves and take their dream figures, egos as real and will be unmitigated egos in this life time.

You cannot force the average person to behave from his Christ self; nor is that your function; your function, when you get to the fork on the road where the road divides into two, one to the left and the other to the right, one to ego and the other to Christ, is to choose which road you travel. It does not matter what road you travelled in the past, what matters is the one you now want to travel.

Only you can decide to walk as the Christ; if others choose to continue walking as the ego let them be.

Your one function is to save you, redeem you and deliver you from the pain inducing clutch of the ego and live as Christ and model Christ life for those who want to emulate it.

It is not your function to change other people or worry about their behaviors. A Donald Trump will behave like the mentally warped narcissist who admires his image in every pool of water he sees and not care for other people; he is not for you to change him; your issue is to behave like the Christ, the loving person that you are meant to be.

For me, the transformation of my character means not thinking and behaving from my false, big ego self and now thinking and behaving from the humble, loving and forgiving self.

Let me clarify what I mean by humility. By humility I do not mean letting you ride rough shod over me. I am a very smart man. Therefore, if you try to dominate me you will not prevail.

Humility does not mean humiliation; humility means choosing to behave from love and forgiveness but not abasement of one's self. In humility one allows God to guide one and since God has everything one lives in God's grace, abundance and grandeur, not ego false grandiosity.

In God we are all the same and coequal but on earth we are special; that is, each of us has special skills; there are things that you can do that I cannot do; each of us must use his special skills to serve the public; each of us has a special function to perform for the salvation of all of us (mine is to be a teacher of love).

Sociopaths (such as Trump and an incredibly sick Igbo boy called Nebucadinazer) take advantage of others and often see godly people as naïve; if you try to take advantage of loving people they have a right to put you in prison.

Finally, transformation of character and being a teacher of love does not mean that one has to be serious in demeanor. No, it means that one understands that our world is a dream and that what is done in dreams have not been done and that dreams are not to be taken seriously but to be made happy.

Teachers of God have a happy dream; they see the world as humorous and laugh at people taking themselves too seriously; they are full of smiles, laugher and humor; they see the world as a joke, a play to be enjoyed. They have fun while they are in the world; they do what human being beings do but not feeling guilty for they know that they are innocent and have not separated from their creator.

Post Script

I am establishing a school to teach a combination spiritual and scientific psychology; if you have a doctorate degree in a behavioral science or, at least, a master's degree and have many years of experience as a therapist and would like to join this endeavor please contact me; your goal must be pure desire to help establish a new thought system; you must be motivated by love not by ego desire for gain.

Ozodi Thomas Osuji, PhD (UCLA)

July 20, 2017

www.centerformindscience.org

This name is soon to be changed to College of Mind Science, CMS.

(907) 310-8176

INTRODUCTION

Human beings have pondered and written tons of literature on human nature; many of these cogitations are good reading and if one has not read some of them one ought to do so. Plato, Aristotle, Descartes, Spinoza, Leibnitz, Hobbes, Locke, Hume, Berkeley, Kant, Hegel, Schopenhauer, Nietzsche, James, Bergson, Sartre, Jasper, Heidegger, Freud, Adler, Jung, Buddha, Shankara, Ramanujan and others are a good way to appreciate serious thinkers' perspectives on human nature.

In this piece, I will, building on my personal experience and observation of people, add my perception of what it means to be a human being.

I have observed myself in every possible way a human being can observe himself and since the only person one knows best is me, I will root most of this writing on self-observation.

I have also observed other human beings, black, white, oriental, men and women and children, and I have done so in many corners of the world.

No one really can get into the heads of other people to know what they are thinking so one cannot really say for sure what people's motivations are; even when one asks them to tall one why they do what they do one finds out that many people do not pay attention to trying to understand who they are and why they do what they do; many people merely proffer spurious answers and or answers calculated to present them in a positive light; thus, what they tell one is why they do what they do may not be true.

As noted, the human being I can speak for is me; therefore, I will largely draw from my self-perception in this paper; how I see me is how I see other human beings; if you believe that my generalization is wrong the onus lies with you to provide us with a corrective perception of human beings.

And while we are at it, let it be observed that all perception is wrong; we do not know what the ultimate truth is. Despite the grandstanding of arrogant psychologists and scientists the fact is that we really do not know what the truth is; certainly, we do not know who human beings are although we must conjecture.

The ultimate truth of who we are remains unknown to us, certainly to me; all I can do and all that you can do is speculate on our nature; the day we pretend to know who we are, while still on earth, is the day we become psychotic.

I am tempted to clog this paper with references to scholarly articles but have decided to not do so; the thesis of the paper represents my thinking, thinking obviously contributed to by a lot of people. Make the thesis of the paper what you like. Following the conclusion, I will add a list further reading.

THE PERCEPTION OF HUMAN INSIGNIFICANCE AND DESIRE FOR SIGNIFICANCE

In my perception, what is driving human beings are mostly three fold: first, is a deep rooted awareness that as animal creatures they are born and will die, decay and seem to disappear into nothingness; this gives people a sense of worthlessness. Second, is the desire to seem to have worth? Third, is the desire to understand and adapt to their world.

I personally feel worthless and think that you, too, do; however, the feeling of worthlessness may be unconscious in some persons.

The feeling of existential worthlessness is intolerable to me and to the human psyche; therefore, it is rejected, denied and the pursuit of worth is posited and pursued.

Everywhere in the world, people, be they black or white or oriental, pursue worth, significance, and importance; those pursuits translate to pursuit of power for power is used to give one's self a sense of worth.

The pursuit of worth is so deep rooted in people that they often use it to completely drive out of their consciousness the feeling of worthlessness that is in them.

Consider the pharaohs of ancient Egypt building pyramids. Why did they do it? I do not know why they did it and you do not know why they did it and they themselves may not even know why they did it.

A reasonable conjecture as to why they built those magnificent structures, not to live in them but to preserve their dead bodies, is to make them last forever and ever; they did not want their bodies decayed; they used all kinds of chemicals to mummify their bodies so that they would not decay before placing them in the pyramids. Their intention is to defy death and live forever in body.

This behavior eradicates, magically, at least, their consciousness that as bodies that would die and decay that they are nothing; they used the magical belief that now that their bodies are preserved in temples that supposedly would last infinitely that they are deathless; they would no longer decay.

Alas, the pyramids were built with rocks, that is, sand and at best lasts several thousand years before returning to sand.

The earth is composed of sand (for now forget about elaborate chemistry and physics) and every structure on it eventually returns to sand.

Mummified bodies may last a few thousand years but, ultimately, will return to sand and to the implication of that reality, human nothingness.

Human beings are animals that are acutely aware that they have no intrinsic worth and are nothing and they compulsively seek worth.

LEADERS DO MANIIPULATE PEOPLES DESRIE FOR WORTH

If you are a shrewd observer of people you already know that deep down they feel worthless but desire worth.

If you want to manipulate people then tell them what they want to hear; tell them that they have worth and are important (you could use other synonyms like beautiful, handsome, rich, powerful, and athletic and superior to their neighbors). If you tell people that they have worth and are very important persons, VIPs they are more likely to listen to you and do what you asked them to do than if you told them that they have no worth and are nothing.  Try it, praise those around you and see if they would not like you and do as you asked them to do.

What do you think that Adolf Hitler did?  The man was a shrewd observer of people. In his book, Mein Kampf (1925), he noted that Germans, as a result of losing the first world war and present dire economic and other issues, felt inadequate vis a vis the victors, the French and English. He said that if he told them, Germans, that the war was lost not because of their fault but because Jews caused it and, more importantly, that if he told them that they are a superior people, certainly superior to their Slavic eastern neighbors (for it was kind of difficult to tell them that they are superior to the English and French since those, too, are Germans), that they would feel good about themselves and as a result accept and follow him as their leader.

Thus, the man deliberately told his people several lies: that Jews cost them the First World War and that they are superior to other people, especially superior to Slavic and African peoples. As expected, his people accepted his lies and accepted him as their leader.

However, like all governing based on lies the Third Reich had to collapse thus twelve years later the Third Reich collapsed.

By the same token, the American political system which was built on the lie of white superiority to black folks is, before our eyes, collapsing; the monstrosity called the USA will be replaced by a rational human polity that accepted the truth of human sameness and equality.

The USA is going to be the last world empire based on lies; I am here to state the truth, as much as is possible, so that future empires are based on the truth of human equality.

In basing empires on the truth of human equality future empires would last longer than the few hundred years empires based on lies last (Rome lasted 500 years and so were many other lie based empires).

Can the USA last five hundred years before declining, falling and disappearing into the midst of history? It cannot if its present insistence on being amoral and unjust persists.

HUMAN CIVILIZATION IS BASED ON HUMAN BEINGS DESIRE FOR WORTH

Human beings pursuit of what we call civilization is predicated on their pursuit of worth.  The basis of human civilization is the desire for individual, social and existential worth.

If people stopped seeking worth they would no longer have the type of civilization we currently know them to have.

HUMAN BEINGS PURSUIT OF RELIGION AND GOD IS BASED ON THEIR DESIRE FOR WORTH

Human beings pursuit of religions and religions' gods are predicated on their pursuit of worth. Even when people die they want to have worth in their supposed hereafter life.

Religion and philosophy is largely motivated by desire to find after death life that defies the apparent empirical observation that life in body seems to end in our physical death.  When human beings die they continue seeking worth (through those still alive on earth).

If in doubt go to a cemetery and see the money lavished on building tombs over the buried bodies under them. The bodies have long ego decayed and or eaten by worms but their  living relatives somehow imagine that they are still living in the structures they built to house them.

I have already talked about pyramids as monuments to human vanity.  What people do, build mausoleums over their dead, seem stupid but we must remember that it is the drive for worth that kept them alive and without it they would not be alive doing what they do to make their social accomplishments possible.

Without the desire for worth people would be depressed by the conditions of living: future death, and perhaps give up and commit suicide and get it over with. It is the possible attainment of worth that keep people struggling along to attain it, even though it seems a chimera, a fantasy!

WHAT EXACTLY IS THE SELF THAT PEOPLE WANT TO MAKE SEEM TO HAVE WORTH?

People want to make sure that their selves have worth in this life and in the world that supposedly exists after their physical bodies are dead.

Everywhere you find people they presume to have selves. But what exactly is the self that people think that they have?

To the best of my knowledge we do not have a sense self-prior to our birth on earth; at least, I do not recall having a sense of self before I was born on earth.

Most children learn their sense of self. To avoid making unverifiable statements I will rely on my own experience.

I had no sense of self before I was born; whatever sense of self I have must have been learned on earth. Indeed, I do not recall having a sense of self until about age five (kindergarten year).

At age six, the year I began elementary schooling, I became aware of whom I think that I am. That sense of self is clearly the product of my bodily and social experience. The sense of self that I have is a byproduct of my living on earth; it did not come to earth with me.

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What I know for certain is that at age six I became aware of having a self.   I developed a sense of self, a sense of me, a self-concept and a human personality.

Empirical observation shows me that my self-concept, personality, ego or whatever we want to call it is rooted in my inherited body and how that body interacted with its physical and social environment.  The result of that interaction is what I call myself, my personality and behavior pattern.

Right now, I am not in a speculative mood. I am in the mood for pure empiricism, pure observation of phenomena as I see it knowing that observation alone does not necessarily yield the truth to me. I still do not know what the truth is; neither do you or any other person know what the truth is.

I am, therefore, going to assert that the self that I know about is the product of my inherited body and how that body experienced itself in this world of matter, space and time and society.  Ultimately, what the human self is I really do not know.

Some say that our real self is spirit but that raises the question of what spirit is. Spirit is supposed to be that which is outside the human body and lives forever and ever. I can conceptualize spirit but do I have evidence for its existence?  I do not; so let us move on with what we can currently verify.

THE GENESIS OF MY PERSONALITY

Here is the etiology of my personality, as I understand it.  I was born with a very problematic body. I inherited a serious mitochondria disorder, cytochrome c oxidase deficiency; I also inherited spondylolysis of the fifth lumber vertebra and mitral valve prolapse in the heart.

These medical disorders made my body feel unable to adapt to the exigencies of the physical world we live in.

My body felt traumatized and overstressed by the activities of daily living; if I described for you my bodily experiences you would not understand what I am talking about; indeed, it may seem fictional to you.

For example, suppose I tell you that I could be sitting down and out of the blues my entire body would start feeling burning sensation, as if it is literally being roasted on fire, can you grasp that? Let us not go there for the average human being, not even medical doctors know a thing about human beings with unique bodies. The good of it is that some such persons have IQ levels that are out of this world.

My medical issues robbed me of all sense of worth and importance. By age six I felt totally worthless and insignificant.

In Alfred Adler's psychological terms (1965), I felt totally inferior because I was unable to do what other kids do to adapt to their world. I was no good at sports; merely running around our school's soccer field exhausted me and made me paint like my heart is about to fall out of its chest cavity. I was unable to do any kind of physical activity. Indeed, upon eating food I was in such stomach discomfort and agony that I had to go lie down for a couple of hours to recuperate some physical energy.

Naturally, given who human beings are, I did not sit around feeling pity for me. I reacted with Adler's conception of neurotic superiority.

In Adlerian psychological categories I became a neurotic child. Diagnostically, at age six any clinical psychologist would say that I had a combination of dependent, avoidant, obsessive-compulsive and passive aggressive personality disorders; those are the definition of neurosis. In lay man's terms I was a shy kid with fear, anxiety and anger issues.

In this paper, however, I am not talking Adlerian psychology or psychiatry; those are child level approaches to human nature; I am trying to say something that spurious Western psychologists ignore while annoying folks like me with their almost silly rendition of human nature.

Psychology is nothing but philosophy studying human nature.

My medical issues robbed me of all sense of worth. I reacted with pursuit of worth. All through my life I have been seeking worth and significance.

In childhood I posited what Karen Horney (1950) would call ideal self and pursued it. The ideal self is a wished for self, not one's real self; in my case, my real physical self is crummy so I pursued becoming an imaginary mentally constructed physically healthy self; in Adlerian terms, a self that is powerful and famous.

Having posited the desire for worth and significance I became acutely aware of how other people treated me.

At elementary school I was aware of how other children treated me. Naturally, if they liked and respected me I got along with them but if they seemed to not like me or treated me without respect I felt annoyed at them. Generally, I did what shy children do.

The anxious, shy child is aware of his deficiencies; he feels that as he is he is not good enough and believes that if other children/people come close to him that they would see that he is not good enough and reject him.

As Carl Rogers (1947) pointed out, normal society tends to accept children conditionally; people accept you if you are deemed well enough by their standards otherwise they ignore or reject you.

The shy kid does not want to be rejected. Around people he feels anxious from the fear of potential social rejection. To avoid social rejection the shy kid withdraws from other children/ people and keeps to his self while wishing for other kids to take the initiative and come relate to him, play with him. Generally, other kids do not come to him so he ends up with one or a few friends, those who would not reject him.

I was a shy, anxious kid. People often took my seeming passivity as docility until they did something that made me mad.  As a child the worst mistake you would make is to treat me as if I had no worth. Even though I am generally shy and avoided people to avoid them rejecting me but if in actual fact you treated me with disregard the aggressive part of me came out. I would, right there, ask you who the hell you believed yourself to be to treat me without respect; I would ask you who gave you the right to treat me as a worthless being.  If you did not desist from doing whatever you were doing that I believed was demeaning I would physically attack you and do so to kill you.

Your death would not bother me, not even a little bit. I want you to literally die and disappear from existence rather than for you to treat me as having no worth.

Your treating me as if I have no worth takes me back to my existential sense of worthlessness; that feeling is always in my unconscious mind (I do not like the term unconscious and certainly do not use the term as Sigmund Freud, that great myth maker used it to mean the repository of irrational ID sexual wishes, see the completed words of Sigmund Freud).

You have not seen an angry boy until you saw me at age nine reacting to a person I believed treated me without respect.

At age nine, a teacher at my school tried to flog me and I told him to not even think about it; my parents did not use capital punishment to train us; I do not recall even once seeing my father and mother touch any of their children abusively; I grew up knowing that no one has a right to abuse a child; anyway, I told the teacher that no human being is allowed to touch my body without my permission. He persisted and I hit him with the intention of killing him; he actually reeled and fell down and got angry at me.  He got several boys to try holding me as he tried to flog me.  I went after the entire school building destroying everything in sight. The entire school building must be destroyed was my goal rather than permit a human being to abuse me.

The school authorities had to go get my grandmother, the only woman on planet earth who understood the correlation of my pained body and my behavior and loved me in an unconditionally positive manner; I thank the gods that I was blessed with such a wise woman around me.

All that my grandmother had to do is say, Tom, don't do that and I immediately obeyed her; children listen to whoever first loves them but if you do not first love them and try to tell them what to do the oppositional defiance in them comes to the fore. Well, grandmother took me home and eventually worked to get the teacher reassigned from my class.

The point here is that the exigencies of my body made me feel totally worthless.  I believe that this is what all human beings are like. Existence makes us feel worthless and we seek imaginary worth. Human existence and civilization is pursuit of imaginary worth. Imaginary or not that is what it means to be human beings.

In my teenage years I was furious at what folks call God. Here is why. My physical issues made me feel like there is no god out there taking good care of me. I did not feel that there is a loving god-father looking after my interests.

I felt that I and other people are abandoned in the universe; we are here taking care of ourselves and no external force was interested in helping us.

I used to feel so angry at any one who dared to even mention the word God around me. Before you would be done saying God I would say: fuck you and your goddamned God. Where is that freaking god of yours when I am in pain? If there is god he ought to reduce my pain; in the first place, he should not have created me with free floating pain.

AN ORPHAN IN THE UNIVERSE

I felt totally like an orphan abandoned by an uncaring universe.  My sense of being an orphan was compounded by my father's decision to send me to go live with his own parents (so as to learn their Igbo language).  I felt that even my parents have abandoned me and until they died I did not reconcile with them.  I used to say to my father: you abandoned me and therefore is not my real father. Get the hell out of my face. I had little or no respect for the man!

In retrospect, however, I learned that it was not my father that abandoned me; it was nature itself that abandoned me, although father contributed to my sense of abandonment by sending me to go live with his parents for three years.

As I reflect on it, since father inherited my tortured body, he, too, felt abandoned by existence, by the uncaring universe we live in.

Empirical observation shows that what was done to us we tend to do to our children. The universe abandoned my father and he emotionally abandoned me. I did the same to my own children when upon divorce I was so angry at their mother that I disappeared from their lives.

The woman tried to use the American racist judicial system to control me. I simply cannot accept a racist judge telling me what to do, so I decided to disregard what the pompous white judge said and walked out of the court room and out of the lives of my three children.  In effect, I left them to emotionally fend for themselves.

What I did is tantamount to abandoning them and making them feel like orphans in this universe. This is unfair to them. I shouldn't have done that to them but the fact is that I did and I am sorry. The only rationalization I had was my disgust at their mother taking me to a white judge to preside over their fate.

How dare she take me to a white judge, a criminal that exists to send black people to jails and prisons, who gave the ape pretending to be a judge the right to make pronouncements about my children; since when has white folks showed concern over black folks?

I simply refused to allow a criminal in a so-called judicial position, a white man, to tell me what to do. No white man, judge or not, given racism has the right to say a word, good or bad, over the fate of black children; his racism has automatically disqualified him from interfering in black families.

If black children are at issue only those who care for black folks, black judges, should preside over such matters; as far as I am concerned, a white judge, given what white judges in America represent, those who make sure that the racist system operate, those who use their sociopathic laws to enslave black folks and control them to the present, well, in my book, no white man, judge or not, has the right to say anything about my children.

Thus, seeing the bloated and self-admiring narcissistic coxcomb called a white judge in the court supposedly to decide my children's fate, I walked away. I have never really forgiven my ex-wife for exposing me to the devil that white judges represent for black folks.

I made a mistake; I should have found a way to be involved with my children and overlooked the insult that white judges represent for black men.

The white political system exists to destroy black families; they make the children grow up fatherless hence undisciplined and engage in petty crimes and get arrested and jailed.

In fact, if I had known what I now know I do not think that I would bring a child into this amoral world. This world does not deserve even one child to come to it to suffer the sense of abandonment that is reposed in people's psyches.

The universe ought to not have people in it, the pessimistic German idealistic philosopher, Arthur Schopenhauer, said, and I agree with him.

At age fourteen I rejected God, for to me if there is God he ought to have mercy on us, his supposed creation; but he does not have mercy on us and leaves us to suffer; he ignores us and therefore must not exist.

As I saw it, god was a make belief thing; God was made up by our ancestors; they imagined that he existed to take care of them in an uncaring universe.

You and your god must not be in my space, was my attitude during my adolescent years. Just get the hell out of here and don't ever let me hear you talk about God.

And don't ask me to read the bible, either, for, as a precocious kid, I read the bible several times, from cover to cover, all sixty six books of it and they did not make sense to me.

If God existed he would have made us special but the fact is that we are not special at all. We are like other biological organisms. Nature destroys us at will.

Earthquakes, volcanoes, hurricanes, tsunamis, tornadoes, floods, draughts, diseases caused by bacteria, virus and fungi destroy us as they destroy animals and plants.

We are not special; we are nothing; we do not have worth and are futilely seeking it, imagining that we have it when we do not have it.

SEEKING SIGNIFICANCE

All I have done with my life is seek worth and importance. I want the people around me to treat me as if I have worth and importance.

For example, when I was a kid and was told to go stay on the line to be served by whoever is serving us and I was kept waiting on the line for an extended period of time before been served I became angry.  In my head I would be saying things like this: who the hell is that fellow keeping me waiting on the line for this long; he or she ought to hurry up and do for me what am there to have done for me.

I do not care who it is that kept me waiting. You could be the president of the USA or the world and it would not make any difference to me; what mattered is that you have kept me waiting for too long.

At the rational level, of course, I understand the need to be treated in an orderly manner hence the que, but that is not the issue in me; the issue for me is that to be kept waiting and not served immediately makes me feel unimportant and worthless and I reacted to that sense of unimportance with anger, with wish to assert power that I do not have.

Anything that made me feel belittled, degraded, humiliated and degraded made me angry. You simply do not want to degrade me for if you do your death would be the lesser punishment I would like to inflict on you.

I am using my situation to make the point that human beings feel worthless and compensate with desire for worth and tend to like it when you treat them as if they have worth and if you treat them as if they do not have worth they feel angry at you.

THE SIN OF RACISM IS TAKING AWAY SIGNIFICANCE FROM BLACK FOLKS

I believe that the greatest sin of racism is treating black folks as if they have no worth. This sin may not be fully appreciated but if history is any guide black people will destroy Western civilization because of that sin.

Black folks feel humiliation by the white man. At present white folks are impressed with what they think are their scientific and technological power and imagine that they can get away with continued abuse of black folks. But we do study history and know that empires rise and fall; empires are like soldiers, they come and go.

The rule of the white man can hardly last another two hundred years before other groups take over the lead of world civilization.

Already, Asians, especially the Chinese seem poised to take over the lead of the world.  The real issue here, however, is that black folk's desire for worth was attacked and denied by white folks.

White folks, in their own pursuit of imaginary worth, found it necessary to stress the worthlessness of black folks! This is an existential sin. It is a sin that cannot be easily forgiven.

In the language of the Catholic Church, it is a mortal sin; a sin against the Holy Spirt, for it cuts so deep that folks do not ever forgive it.

People already feel worthless and seek chimeric worth and you compound it by telling them that they are worthless just so you shore up your own imaginary worth.

What is white flesh but human flesh that is going to die and smell worse than feces; what makes that putrid flesh better than black flesh? Imaginary self-conferred worth; that is what!

All human beings feel worthless and seek imaginary worth; if you deny them worth something in them wants you dead.

I am building on my own experience. I know that I feel like I have no worth and would like to have worth.  I know that the desired worth is imaginary and not real but that is my life.

If in relating to you, you treat me as if I have worth I generally get along with you but if you treat me as if I have no worth I want you dead, literally, not figuratively.

When I first encountered racism and realized that white folks see Africans as inferior I immediately resolved that all white folks must die! The death of all white folks was required to assuage my diminished sense of worth from racism.

Naturally, I am aware that in the contemporary world, white folks possess most of the power in the world so I had to reconcile myself to waiting for their future death. But die they must. Their disappearance from existence is required to make my pride and vanity feel assuaged.

Many White racists assume that just because they are in power that black folks see them as the gods they would like to be seen as. That belief could not be further from the truth.

The moment you treat a human being as if he has no worth you have ceased having worth in his eyes! At best, he can fear you.

Clearly, white sociopaths have power and control the extant world and many black folks fear their power but fear is not love and respect.

No black person respects white racists. In fact, to black people racists are less than human beings. I know that to me a white racist, be he the current racist clown in the White House called Donald Trump or the racist stiff on the job that fancies his race superior to black folks, has worth in my eyes.

However, the rational part of me no longer wishes racists dead but wants to re-socialize them and transform them from Neanderthals to real human beings hence my writings; my writing is aimed at correcting the wrong philosophy given to the world by the white man; my goal is to change the world's philosophies, for the ones given to it by Europeans are simply wrong and generate social conflict.

I am using my personal experience to articulate larger human issues. I am saying that given human desire for worth that it serves you best to treat all people as if they have worth even if you know that that worth is a chimera than to treat them as if they have no worth.

WHITE RACIST GENERALLY HAVE PSYCHOPATHIC PERSONALITIES

White racists are generally anti-social personality disordered folks, sociopaths and psychopaths. They are sadistic persons who derive pleasure from inflicting pain on people; they enjoy degrading people.

The psychopath is aware that deep down he feels worthless and that he wants to have worth; he also knows that other people are like him but instead of trying to treat peoples as if they have worth he sets out to degrade them. He wrongly believes that in degrading people he makes himself feel upgraded.

He verbally tells people that they are worthless and treats them as such.  The people he subjects to this degrading treatment feel angry at him. Generally, people band together and arrest, try and jail or kill the sociopath.

All over the world society builds prisons for criminals, that is, for antisocial personalities who do not respect other human beings desire for imaginary worth.

The fate of the psychopath in society is death.  Treat people as if they have no worth and they will kill you. Treat people as if they have worth, even though they don't, you reinforce their aspiration to have worth and they would like and get along with you.

As noted, when I was in elementary school if you treated me as if I had no worth I would literally try to kill you and not feel guilt from doing so! How dare you treat me as if I have no worth when I am already feeling worthless and would like to have worth?

I understand that every trait found in human beings is exaggerated in some. The desire for worth is not even conscious in many people.

Many of those we call normal folks are seldom consciously aware that they are seeking worth.  I am conscious of the fact that I am seeking worth.

I am aware that all people are doing what I am doing, feel worthless and seek worth. Thus, I treat people with total respect; I treat every man, woman and child, black or white I come across as if he or she has total worth; I give every person respect because I want him to give me respect.

I know that what I am doing is make- belief, for I also know that people have no worth. How so? If you want to, at any moment, you can kill me; all you need to do is go buy a gun and pump a few bullets into my head and I would be dead. I can also do the same to you.

If I or you had worth we would not be able to destroy each other's life. Because we can destroy each other's life, therefore, it is self-evident that we have no existential worth. Worth is a social construct, not an existential reality.

Be that as it may, we wish worth so in my rational frame of mind I treat you as if you have worth. If, perchance, I made the mistake of not treating you as if you have worth generally I apologize for it.

For example, when I was a young man and finally tried sex and recognized that it is much ado about nothing, that it is a ridiculous animal activity that I would rather not engage in, I would rather go read philosophy than have sex, well, upon trying sex with women I concluded that sex is a filthy act and associated that filthy act with women. I lost respect for women (please before you delude yourself remember that what I am talking about here is generally what happens to men upon having sex with women; men do not have respect for women for they see the filthiness of sex as arising from women's filthy vaginas).

Upon seeing, a woman I would say: she is a filthy cunt; get the hell out of my site; women were a distraction that I could not afford; what interested me was the world of ideas; just give me Plato, Aristotle, Zeno, Horace, Ovid, Seneca, Epictetus, Descartes, Spinoza, Pascal, Leibnitz Locke, Hobbes, Locke, Hume, Berkeley, Kant, Hegel, Schopenhauer, Nietzsche, Feuerbach, James, Bergson etc. and I am happy.

I had no respect for women (I used to ask: can a woman be a philosopher?). However, in time I corrected that behavior for if women have no worth men have no worth; the only way a human being can have respect is if all of us have it.

Even if there is no existential worth that I can see with my eyes, I choose to see all people as having worth.

I am aware that some persons, such as dictators, choose to see people as worthless and from that stand point kill them.

Adolf Hitler chose to see people as worthless and thus killing people made no difference to him; he did not lose sleep from gassing millions of Jews and Slavic persons to death. That was what made him a sociopath and psychopath.

I choose to see all people as having worth even though I understand that worth and dignity are social constructs rather than an existential fact.

What is hidden in the many is conscious in folks like me; the many do not know that they are always seeking worth but their lives are consumed by it.

MENTAL DISORDERS EMANATE FROM TRYING TO FIT YOU INTO PRECONCEPTIONS OF WHO YOU OUGHT TO BECOME

All mental disorders emanate from positing an idea of who you and people ought to become and trying to make you and people become that idea, trying to fit your and other peoples realities to your presupposition of who you and people ought to be.

You and people are not who you ought to be but who you are and who you are you do not know so let who you are unfold in your life without telling it how it ought to be.

The mistake of the Christian Church and other religious ideologies is positing manmade pictures of how people ought to behave and trying to browbeat people into becoming those imaginary pictures of humanity.

We do not know who people are so let them just unfold who they are without a preconception of who they are and ought to be.

Building on Quantum physics, we know that the observer affects what he observes; you as the observer make a choice as to what you want reality, including you and people, to be and try to get reality to become that wished for view of it and your wishes do color the reality you see, which is not the actual reality.  There is a deeper reality that is beyond what the observer wants it to be and what that reality is we do not know.

Keep your mind open without presuppositions as to who you are, who other people are and how you and people ought to be and behave and how the world ought to be and simply accept things as they unfold.

THE PURSUIT OF WORTH ADVERSELY AFFECTS LEARNING

When I was in school the prospect of not making a perfect grade made me so anxious that I often skipped school on examination days. I simply did not like not doing well at school. I wanted to be the top boy at my class. However, I was never the top student at any of my classes at school.

At my elementary school there were usually about thirty pupils in a class. At the end of every quarter all the pupils would be examined, graded and plotted from first to the 30thand the positions would be posted on the door of the classroom so that we all knew the position each kid had in the examination.

The best position I made was second out of thirty.  Being second to someone else was unacceptable to me. I felt diminished in size by not being the top kid.

Learning is affected by desire for worth. A kid could be very smart, even have superior intelligence (any IQ over 132) and still not do well at school. One of the reasons could be because he fears making mistakes; the prospect of failing arouses so much anxiety in him that he prefers to reduce that anxiety by avoiding learning. He may drop out of school to avoid failing, and or for not been the top student.

It is useful to have good Intelligence but what really matters most is the student's sense of worth. If you give the student a sense of worth he relaxes and learns at his optimal level but if you treat him as worthless he becomes oppositional and may drop out of school.

American schools treat black students as if they have no worth and the kids react by either dropping out of school or not caring for schooling. Thus, there came to be the absurd belief that black students are less intelligent than white students. This is nonsense and, as such, is not even worth a response to.

All students are the same and coequal. Of course, some students are smarter than others but the fact is that the average student is the average student regardless of his race.

Learning is affected by the pursuit of worth so if we want students to learn we must make them feel worthwhile.

We can help those students who feel inordinate sense of worthlessness and seek unrealistic worth to accept the reality of being a human being, lack of intrinsic worth; each of us must accept a certain level of worthlessness, for in the final analysis human beings have no existential worth; worth is a social construct not a self-evident reality.

POVERTY AND LOWER CLASS STATUS MAKES PEOPLE FEEL WORTHLESS

In the adult world not having money makes people feel worthless; that certainly is my case; if I do not have money I feel small.  I do not like to be poor and certainly do not like to beg other people for money.

The idea of asking folks for financial help makes me feel like I am garbage; I avoid that feeling by even starving rather than asking for help. I would rather maintain the fiction that I have worth than beg for other folks to help me.

When in graduate school I contemplated academic career I shuddered at doing what professors do: write for grants, that is, beg those who have money to give them money with which they do their research. A professor would boast about how much money he obtained to do his research; if he got millions he felt on top of the world.

The act of asking another person or organization to give me money to do research with was unacceptable to me. I would rather give myself that money (but how?)!

NIGERIANS TITLE CRAZINESS

Human beings everywhere seek worth. If in doubt go to Nigeria and see the desire for worth at its craziest level.

A Nigerian with any kind of education wants you to know it. If he is an engineer or architect or whatever he wants you to call him by his professional status: Engineer Okonkwo,  Architect Okorocha, Mathematician  Chike Obi,  Lawyer Njoku and so on. You dare not call his name without affixing his professional title.

If he is a professor you must refer to him as professor or else he feels diminished by you. If he has no academic titles he goes to his village and gives the rustic villagers' money and they give him the title of chief. Thereafter, he masquerades around as chief Big Stuff.

Some Nigerians go to the ridiculous length of having you call them "Chief, Professor Dr. Vice Chancellor" (of a Mickey Mouse University).

In the West, folks do the same thing but in a more subtle manner? Come to the universities and see the professors struggling to come up with novel discoveries in science so as to win the Nobel Prize in physics, chemistry, biology etc. It is all pursuit of worth done differently.  People are always seeking worth.

Much of human behavior is rooted in the pursuit of worth; this pursuit of worth is rooted in human beings  perception that their lives in body is worthless and their compensatory desire to overcome that sense of worthlessness by doing what seems to give them worth.

HUMAN BEINGS ARE MOTIVATED TO UNDERSTAND THEIR WORLD

In addition to their obsessive-compulsive seeking of worth (with which to mask their worthlessness), human beings are motivated to understand their world.

Clearly, there is intelligence in people; at their best people use the intelligence in them to study their physical, social and psychological worlds.

People are motivated to understand themselves and their universe and do so in an objective manner.

The pursuit of science is inherent in human nature. The pursuit of technology, doing what enables people to adapt to their world, is also inherent in human nature.

Man is at his best when he is pursuing knowledge. When I am trying to understand an aspect of nature, man including, I can do so for hours and in doing so lose my sense of self.

When I lose my sense of self while doing something I am in the only heaven that I know of. To me, heaven is when I do not have a sense of ego separated self; heaven is when an undifferentiated life force that manifests through me is trying to understand the world it lives in.

Bliss, that is, peace and happiness, I believe, lies in trying to understand something as objectively as is humanly possible without taking credit for what one understands.

I struggle to know the truth and then give my finding a way to folks (I am sure that many a bright graduate student has used ideas he borrowed from me to write his masters and or doctoral dissertations without even acknowledging where he got them. And that is fine with me; he and I are part of one life force so each of us is giving to the other and taking from the other).

My perception shows me that people pursue worth and use their minds to understand their world. You cannot prevent them from doing these two things.

You cannot stop people from seeking worth and power for if they did not do so they would have no motivation to strive for what human beings call success and would soon die.

I HAVE ONLY ONE PROBLEM WITH ONE SOLUTION

I have observed myself very closely; what I see is that I have one problem. My one problem is my belief that I have a self and my desire for that self to have worth. At about age six I became aware that I have a self and I wanted that self to be powerful.

I did not sit  down and consciously come up with that self; all I know is that gradually, presumably from the moment I was born, a self-concept  developed inside me and by age six it became concretized as who I think that I am.

My rational analysis of the origin of that self tells me that it is rooted in my body and social experience.

In George Kelly's (1958) categories, something in me took the interaction of my body and society to construct a self-concept for me.

My self-concept is the product of my body and society; it is a result of my behaviors and learning beginning from when I was born and did not develop over night or in one day.

My problematic body interacted with its physical and social environments and was at pain most of the time; it observed how other people related to it and came to the conclusion of who it thinks that I am.

My self-concept, my personality and my ego (the term ego is the same as self-concept and personality) is a byproduct of my experiences on earth; I did not come to this world with it.

The self-concept is epiphenomenal; that is, it is a response to the individual's experience in his body and society.

Because the self-concept is a throw up from the individual's experiences in the here and now world, it is not real; it is a smoke produced by the fire of the individual's body and society. As a byproduct of body and society the ego is a secondary phenomenon.

That leaves to be answered the question: what is the individual's primary self, his real-self? I do not know who my real self is; do you know who your real self is?

The term personality is derived from Latin, persona, masks. It is said that ancient Greek actors' wore masks to hide their faces as they, on a stage, enacted recreations of people's characters, some of whom may be in the audience, and may feel embarrassed seeing themselves portrayed by the actors. Thus, actors hid their faces as they portrayed other people's characters.

The term persona or personality means that each of us has a different self which he hides or does not know about but puts on a different self, a social self, a mask that he presents to other people to relate to and accept as who he is.

Personality is not the real self. But who is the real self beneath the mask of personality? I do not know who my real self is; however, I do suspect that we have real selves apart from our personalities.

What I do know is that by age six I had a persona, a personality in place. I presented that persona, that social self, that false self, that mask over my real self to other people to relate to and they, too, presented their own personas to me to relate to.

What is going on is that all of us wear masks of who we want to be seen as in society and present them to each other to relate to.

We relate to these masks, and collude with each other trying to believe that the masks are who we are. This is the dance we enact in society, or as Eric Berne (1964) called it, the Games People Play. Thomas Harris (1967) in "I'M Ok YOU'RE Ok" called what we are doing transactional analysis where we play the roles of parents, children and adults to each other depending on which role we feel is appropriate at any point in time.

From when I became conscious that I have a self I have played the role of a certain type of self, a big self. My wished for social self is a powerful self.

Please note what I said here: I am playing a role of the person I want to be or think that I am but not my real self. What my real self is I do not know.

Do you know who your real self is or have you played the role of a certain persona for too long that you no longer know who your real self is?

I know that I have a problematic body. My problematic body made me feel totally inadequate and powerless. It made me experience life as too painful. Because of the problems it caused me I did not like my body. I rejected my body and my body based actual self.

I resolved to become a different self, a better self, an ideal, powerful and superior self. I do not remember sitting down and making that decision but it happened that way.

All I know is that by age six I found myself denying my actual self and wanting to become an imaginary, ideal powerful self; the imaginary ideal self is everything that my actual self is not; it is tall and handsome; it is athletic and healthy; it is intelligent and wins at whatever it tries in this world. Ultimately, that imaginary ideal-self lives forever and ever.

I present my wished for ideal, powerful self to other people to relate to and they, too, apparently, present their imaginary, ideal selves to me to relate to.  In this manner, people and I play roles for each other, presenting false selves to the each other to relate to; we relate from false self to false self!

In this dance, if other people approve what my false ideal-self did I feel happy around you. If you do not collude with me and tell me in words and or deeds that I am the imaginary ideal self I want to be I feel unhappy around you. I may also feel angry at you.   Generally, I avoid those who do not approve my wished for ideal self.

I use what psychoanalysts call ego defense mechanisms to defend my wished for ideal self. The ego defense mechanisms are repression, suppression, denial, projection, dissociation, displacement, rationalization, sublimation, reaction-formation, fantasy, avoidance, minimizing, fear, anger, guilt, pride, shame etc.

Ego defense mechanisms are employed by each of us to protect his wished for self, his imaginary false self.

Ego defense mechanisms are not used to protect the real self; for one thing, we do not even know who our real self is. Moreover, the real self does not need to be protected or defended for the real needs no defense to be real.

It is the false self that knows that it is false that must be defended to make it seem real. Defense makes the defensed false self-seem real in one's eyes.

As noted, if other people collude with me and tell me that I am my wished for ideal, powerful self I like  them and get along with them but if they did not validate my wished for ideal self I do not like them.

I feel anxious around those who would not confirm my wished for self. I am afraid of people not affirming my wished for ideal self.

Please note that whereas all these ego dynamics are conscious in me that they, in you, are, perhaps, unconscious? The difference between you and I is that I know what I am doing whereas you may be doing the same thing in an unconscious manner. Therefore, in describing me I am really describing you! I am really trying to teach you about you! As Harry Stack Sullivan Observed people are more alike than unalike.

I have a wish for a big, powerful, ideal self. My actual self feels weak and insecure so the big, powerful self is compensatory and not who I am, in fact.

My one problem, as I see it, is my wish to have a big, powerful self.  This problem makes it difficult for me to relate well to other people, for it is always on the lookout to see how other people treat it. If they validate it, it feels fine with them but if they do not it feels bad and perhaps reacts with anger towards them or avoids them.

Part 11

ANGER RESULTS FROM SEEKING A BIG, POWEFUL SELF

In anger I am saying to the person that I am angry at: how dare you not treat me as the all-powerful person that I want to be?

Anger  is a maneuver used by the angry person to try browbeating other people into accepting its ideal, powerful self; anger is a mechanism used to get the entire world to treat one as one thinks that one ought to be treated, a powerful, special self, who one is not in reality.

Whereas some anger is inevitable because anger is response to frustration and there will always be obstacles on our paths that frustrate our goal attainment, but excessive anger is found in those who pursue false big selves. If you understand this reality then you shrink your ego to humble proportions and other people treating you as worthless may no longer bother you.

If you accept yourself as worthless, as I do, other people seeing you as worthless would not bother you. If you treat me as worthless, well, I already see you as worthless so what difference does it make if one worthless person treated another worthless person as if he is worthless?

You're seeing me as worthless does not bother me one bit. However, if you act on it and try to harm me I will not hesitate in killing you and not feel any qualms for doing so; killing you is killing a worthless person. For example, killing a white racist amounts to removing a piece of garbage from society and I do not lose sleep from that act.

MENTAL DISORDERS EMANATE FROM WISH FOR A FALSE, POWERFUL SELF

As long as I defend my wished for but imaginary, big self I am prone to fear, anxiety and anger. Indeed, what folks call mental disorders, such as depression, mania, delusion, schizophrenia etc. are different manifestations of the wished for powerful self.

In depression the individual failed in attaining his wished for powerful self and lost social face and feels small; he loses interests in the activities of daily living, such as going to school, work, playing with other people in sports, self-grooming and relating to people in general;  he wants to be left alone to vegetate or even to die.

In mania the individual pretends to be the imaginary powerful self he wants to become; in the manic phase the individual forcefully wants to seem powerful and uses his mind to stimulate his biological processes to work fast so as to cloud his brain to enable him see himself as the god he wants to be, as famous etc. He uses his mind to force his body to become excited and act as if he is the wished for ideal, powerful self; he tells you that he is the richest man on earth and wants you to believe in that lie; he is euphoric in mood, laughing as if he has no care in the world.

In delusion disorder the individual pretends to be whom he is not, usually a very powerful self and wants you to see him or her as such.  Delusion disorder, aka paranoia is actually ancient Greeks definition of mental disorder. To ancient Greeks the mad man denies his real self and pretends to be a different self, a powerful self and wants you to treat him as his wished for powerful self or else he feels angry at you or withdraws from society and go live by himself pretending that he is the big self he wants to become (in schizophrenia, disorganized or paranoid types, you see the schizophrenic pretending to be a big self).

In psychoses, the individual acts "as if" he is the all-powerful god his ego wishes to be.  He manages to get his idealized self to talk to another part of his self, the conscious ego self, hence he  now appears to have a split self, one self-talking to another self (this is not dissociative disorder, aka multiple personality disorder; that one is too complicated to be talked about here).

Mental disorders are rooted in folks wish for a big, powerful self to cover their underlying small, powerless selves.

Clearly, biology plays a role in all mental disorders (in other writings I talked about the role of dopamine in schizophrenia, neuropiniphrine in mania, serotonin in depression, GABA in anxiety disorder etc.); nevertheless, it is the mind of the individual that in response to the exigencies of his body and society wishes to be powerful and important.

Mental disorders are exactly that, mental; even though they are rooted in bodily and societal disorders we can heal them at the mind level.

Change your mind about who you think that you are and act in accordance with your new self-concept and you heal your mental disorder.

CHANGING THE SELF-CONCEPT AND HAVING NO SELF-CONCEPT

Each of us has a self-concept; the self-concept is a bunch of ideas and concepts of who the individual thinks that he is; the self-concept is mostly false ideas about one's self. Therefore if you change your self- concept and replace it with more correct ideas of whom you are and you heal your mind.

I have one problem; my problem is that I have a separated big, self-concept. If my problem, and your problem, is that I have a big, powerful self and you also have it what is its solution?

The solution is simple! I have to give up wishing to have a big, powerful self. I have to stop defending my wished for ideal self.

Ultimately, I have to give up the very idea of having a separated self. All selves, humble (normal persons) or grandiose (personality disordered persons and or psychotic persons) are false.

Any self that I can think of as who I am is not my true self. I do not know who my real self is.  It is when I accept that all my self-concepts, whatever idea of self that I have, is false and stop having any kind of idea of a self in me that my one and only problem is solved.

The solution to the problem of self is to have no conceptual self. If I do not have a self that I conceptualized then who am I? I do not know.

I think that there is an undifferentiated life that manifests in all of us. What that self is, I do not have the faintest idea of.

Let me repeat: my one and only problem is that I have a self, big or small; my one and only solution to it is to let go of having a self and henceforth have no self of my conception.

All self-concepts are perceptual; they are based on what one sees in the separated world; perception is always not the total truth; truth must be beyond perception.

By the way, I have just restated Hinduism, Buddhism and Taoism and Zen here. Oriental religions work to get people to give up their conceptual selves and have no self. In having no ego- self people are said to be natural and healthy; in having a self, normal or neurotic or psychotic self, people are said to be unhealthy!

NO SELF CONCEPT TO DEFEND RESULTS IN RELAXATION, PEACE AND JOY

If I have no wish for a self and have no self to defend I would relax and smell the roses and coffee.  I would just be in existence without wishes for this or that imaginary self to be true. I would be part of one life manifesting in all human beings, animals and trees (and in inorganic matter).

If I have no self-concept that I am defending I would feel liberated from the prison of the imaginary ideal self. I would be peaceful and happy, for it is the belief that one has a self that causes one loads of emotional problems.

With no self-concept I would live a simple life, smiling most of the time and not taking anything seriously.

If I have no self to defend I would be part of one life. I would only do what I like doing and leave it at that.

What I like doing, for now, is to understand the self that I am pretending to be but that I am not.  Since the imaginary self I am trying to become is not real I am really not trying to become any self although I give myself tons of anxiety, anger, depression and paranoia trying to become that which does not exist, a separated self.

If I let go of the desire for the imaginary self I would live like the windblown dust that in fact I am, landing wherever it lands and not worrying about it.

As long as each human being has a self-concept that he thinks that he is and defends it he must have conflicts within his self and with other people.

As long as people have selves they will have wars.  Wars are fought by false selves; false selves fight and kill each other.

Since they are not real selves, actually, at wars no real self is killing other real selves; egos killing each other are nothing, for egos are make belief selves and do not, in fact, exists.

Wars are arenas where the false are destroyed!

Returning to me, here is the sum of my life: my biological and social existence treated me as an orphan; I was not given a pain free body. Thus, I felt angry at the universe for not treating me nicely.

My father did not treat me nicely, either. He was always critical of me, always comparing me to his neurotic ideal self and its ideal standards of behaviors.

My father and mom lavished attention on their first son and treated their second son, me, as a second class person. The first son was given whatever he asked for whereas the second son had to beg for whatever is left over.

The fact that I had to beg to be given something infuriated me. I was angry at my parents for treating me so shabbily.

I resented been treated as if I am not special and do not matter. In my relationship with other people I project the issues that I had with my parents to them. I want people to treat me as if I am special and important. In a passive manner I tend to please people so as to get them to like me. However, if they then treat me badly the aggressive part of me comes to the fore as I verbally attack them for treating me poorly.

Simply put,  I project my issues with my parents and existence to other people; if they treat me shabbily, as nature treated me, I feel angry at them, as I felt angry at the universe/ god and my parents for treating me shabbily.

THE EGO ASKS YOU TO PLEASE KEEP A BIT OF IT FORGETTTING THAT IT CAUSES YOU PAIN

When, finally, you realize that the ego is not your real self and you want to let it go it begins the struggle to have you keep it; it tells you that it is the self you formed to enable you adapt to the exigencies of this world. That is true except that it no longer enables you to adapt to the realities of this world.

For example, if one has a big self-concept, a big self that in childhood one conceptualized with the false notion that it can enable one to cope with the big problems of life, that big ego now negatively affects ones relationships with other people.

If you insist on been seen as mister big-self, other people will not like to relate to you as such; the big self-disturbs your social relationship.

At school the big ego slows down your learning, for you are too busy defending the big self and fearing making mistakes.

On the job, you are too invested in been seen as a very important person and play that role and therefore do not have all the time to do your job optimally.

The big ego is a false self and has nothing to recommend it. Yet, it asks you to retain it. If you decide to let it go it begs you to please retain a small part of it. If you listen to it all you will get is give yourself pain, actually, a lot of pain for the ego gives one pain.

The ego gives one fear, anxiety, depression, paranoia, mania and schizophrenia. I do not see anything good in the ego and therefore do not see why any aspect of it ought to be retained.

But having said this, in childhood the exigencies of the child's world forced him to develop the ego personality he has.

For example, given my medical issues and conditional social acceptance I had to develop the ego I had. My ego was not an accident; it responded to the realities of my childhood life.

Each individual's ego, personality and behavior pattern is not an accident; it is who he had to be given the totality of his existence.

However, given the psychological pains that the ego gives us each of us we must at some point reevaluate it and decide that it is more trouble than it is worth, and give it up.

You cannot retain a bit of your ego for if you retain some of it you have retained all of it, for the ego is an all or nothing proposition; you cannot choose to keep some of it and let go of others; it is either you let go of all of it or you keep all of it.

Transformation of character is not done partially; it is an all or nothing phenomenon; you either give up all your old self-concept  you keep all of it; you must decide to give up the self you know you had, your old ego self, your personality, your self-concept and formulate a new one. You cannot mix old wine and new wine and expect them to taste good. You must put new wine in a new wine bottle for you to obtain the best taste from it.

I APPROACH EVERYTHING IN LIFE WITH FEAR AND ANXIETY

I approach everything in the world with fear, anxiety and anger. I anticipate what could go wrong and try to plan on how I am going to deal with it. I am always in an anxious, fearful mode.

This constant state of fear tenses and stresses my body; it actually ages my body. Therefore, it is not good for me to keep doing so.

One must decide to trust the present and future and not see it as going to cause one harm and simply let what is going to happen to one to do so. One crosses each bridge of life as one gets to it rather than spending most of one's time worrying about how one is going to cross the many bridges of life.

THE WHITE MAN TREATED ME SHABBILY THEREFORE I HAVE NO DESIRE FOR HIS APPROVAL

I live in the USA. Like most black persons living in America, white folks assumed that I am inferior and treated me as such. I was discriminated against on the job.

The white man treated me shabbily. Because he did so he is not my mentor and certainly not my friend. A friend helps his friends, not place obstacle on their paths as the white man places on black folk's paths.

Because he did not look after my interest I have no business seeking permission from him before I do anything.

It is a sin for a black man to seek approval from a white man; to seek approval from a white person is tantamount to seeking approval from ones enemy before one does what one wants to do.

The white man is mostly sociopathic and narcissistic in nature; he only uses people and discard them when they are no longer useful to him.

Therefore, I have no business seeking approval from the white man for anything I want to do with my life. I do not need to get his permission to articulate a world view that makes sense to me. I could care less for his opinion on my views.

Actually, one of my existential goals is to attack and decapitate the white man's world views, to send them to the burial ground and replace them with more loving ideas on how to live life.

I have absolutely no regard for any idea that comes from the white man's mouth and so it has it be.  The white man owes me nothing and I owe him nothing; we could be cordial to each other but I must not accept that he is out for my good; to do so is to live in delusion, for the white man may choose to use you at any time and do so.

IN CAPITALIST ECONOMIES PEOPLE EXCHANGE SKILLS AND PRODUCTS AND DO NOT CARE FOR EACH OTHER

In capitalist economies the assumption is that people are selfish and in pursuit of their self-interests sell and buy things; people buy things from those who have what they want to buy.

For example, human beings do become sick and therefore need medical treatment. They look for those who sell medical services. Medical doctors sell to those who are sick what they want to buy. Thus, medical doctors make a lot of money in capitalist economies, for the people will always get sick and need medical treatment.

The relation between medical doctors and their patients is entirely rational relationship and has nothing to do with caring or love for any one.  People want to live and medical doctors sell to them what they need to live, medical services. Beyond that the people involved in this relationship do not care for one another.

If you do not have the money to pay for his medical services the American medical doctor would not treat you and could care less whether you lived or died. By the same token patients would not care for the existence of medical doctors if it were not the case that they live in bodies that get sick.

If illness is eradicated from the human body people would desist from overvaluing medical doctors.

Farmers produce food that those who want to live and must eat food to live buy and thus farmers obtain money and with that money they buy what they need to have to live on.

If you do not have the goods and or services people desire to live on they would not buy from you and you are left out.

Thus, in a capitalist economy the individual asks his self: what service and or good do people need that I can produce and sell it to them?  In what areas am I able to serve peoples interests?

You figure out what you have aptitude in and train for it and have the skills to produce what people need to survive on and give it to them and do so as exactly as they want it, not as you think that they should have it.

This is called realistic relationship with people; there is no sentimentalism involved; people do not care for you and you do not care for them; both of you are selfish creatures meeting each other's needs and that is all there is to you and peoples relationships.

EGO PHONY LOVE

While they are relating to each other from this rational, enlightened self-interested perspective, people nevertheless talk about what they call love. Apparently, people's minds like to see them as loving persons.

You would be a fool if you believed that people are loving persons; love is for mere talk not practice. For one thing, what is love? Most people do not know what love is. So, how can they love if they do not know what love is?

You would be idealistic to believe that people would like you and would give you anything just because you want to live. No, people do not care whether you lived or died.

Idealism that says that people should care for each other the capitalist says is not realistic and is sentimental for it does not acknowledge peoples real nature, which is selfish.

Capitalist biologists such as Richard Dawkins and Edward Wilson say that people are driven by selfish genes.

In my opinion those so-called biologists do not understand that what they call selfish human nature is merely a reflection of the capitalist ideology they are living in.

What human nature is these folks do not know! It is my task to teach them that there is no such thing as human nature but that we can choose whatever nature we want to be; we can choose to be loving and altruistic (see Erich Fromm's 1956 book, the Art of love).

THE PSYCHOLOGICAL MARKET PLACE

People have a need to understand their minds and bodies; psychologists tell them about how their minds supposedly work and medical doctors tell them about their bodies' disorders; in effect, psychologists sell ideas on the mind and medical doctors sell ideas on the body; both are doing what people want to know and are willing to pay for.

If you cannot sell the type of ideas people want to buy on the mind or body they would not come to you but would go to those who have such ideas.

In the USA, given that most white Americans are their narcissistic or sociopathic in nature they listen to mental health professionals who gratify their narcissistic needs.

Narcissist and sociopaths do not give a damn about other people's welfare but instead seek attention and admiration from other people; they want to be admired by other people; they use you to get their needs met and when you are no longer useful to them they discard you like you are a piece of rag doll and could care less for your existence; they have no emotional attachment to people but just want people to tell them how beautiful they are and how accomplished they are.

Currently, Americans have a sick narcissistic boy-man in the White House; he is called Donald Trump; I call him the American chief narcissist.

In one of my Facebook circles is a white woman who talks about love to the point that it is nauseating. But the moment you have a need you find out that she could care less for you; she would not meet your need. All that she wants to do is talk about how she is such a loving person and folks who have not related to white Americans and know that almost all of them are narcissists gravitate to her and listen to her razzmatazz until they are in need and she flees from them. Thereafter they learn what most black folks know about white folks: they are narcissistic or psychopathic in nature.

The black psychologist, Bobby Wright, wrote about the white personality as the psychopathic racial personality.

If you are a smart mental health professional and want to market your ideas you tell people what they want to hear, that they are great. If you tell them what they do not want to hear, such as tell them that narcissism is a sick mental state, they would ignore you; they want somebody to tell them that they have beautiful bodies and minds.

As we speak, white folks want people who tell them that they should be sticking their penises into other men's anuses and call it sexual activity, I am talking about homosexuality. If you dared say that such behavior is not appropriate for human beings, not even for animals, their political correctness would shout you down, or even destroy you.

From my standpoint, I know that people seek to be important and want existential worth. You then tell them that they are important and have existential worth if you want them to buy what you are selling. But if you insist on the truth you must add that people do not have intrinsic existential worth and that worth is a social construct.

Why is worth a social construct and not a natural phenomenon? Consider that if people had worth nature would respect them and not easily destroy them. In reality, anyone who desires it can destroy people's lives.

Any American president can decide and go to war and use millions of American adolescents to fight that war.

Donald Trump, the narcissist in chief, desiring to make a name for his self, can decide to go to war with North Korea and use millions of American kids to fight that war (and North Koreans will defeat Americans unless Americans resort to nuclear weapons).

In the meantime, the sociopathic Donald fights to prevent offering American kids publicly paid health insurance yet when the kids grow up he wants them to go fight and die for his ego gratification; what idiots human beings are!

In my opinion, no American kid should go fight and die for their callous and mean spirited leaders who did not give them and their parents publicly paid health insurance and publicly paid education at all levels, including university and technical schools.

Anyway, if people had intrinsic worth nature and society wouldn't treat them as they currently do, as nothing of importance.

Moreover, in pursuit of worth and significance people give themselves fear (of death of their egos and bodies), anxiety, anger, depression, delusion, paranoia and schizophrenia. Therefore, if they do not want mental disorders they must give up their desire for body and ego based worth, and accepts their intrinsic worthlessness and lives with that reality.

PEOPLES BODIES HAVE NO VALUE

If you are realistic you must accept that your body lacks worth and tell people that their bodies have no worth. This information would enable them to relax and stop enslaving themselves to working twelve hour days to earn a living for their worthless bodies.

Obviously, given that there are no free lunches in life, some work is necessary to make a living but to be a slave to work, for what, for body that would die?

Our bodies are composed of sixty four elements (especially carbon, hydrogen, oxygen and nitrogen); each of those elements is composed of electrons, protons and neutrons; those particles are composed of quarks and quarks were made from photons of light.

Analysis shows that the human body is ultimately made from light. Light came out of nowhere and everywhere during the big bang, 13.8 billion years ago; from that light particles, atoms, stars, planets, animals, people and trees were formed.

We know that the universe is expanding; as it expands it loses heat. Trillions of years from now the universe would so lose heat that all the stars and planets would die.

Indeed, our star, the sun will in about five billion years die. In two billion years when it begins to die, has less hydrogen to fuse into helium, the sun will begin fusing other elements and become hotter than it currently is. It would be so hot that it would dry the water on planet earth.

Without water the earth cannot support biological life. Thus, in about two billion years animals, human beings included, and plants would die out on planet earth.  The earth would look like today's Mercury, Venus and Mars.

May be people would develop the technology with which to migrate to exoplanets and that way keep migrating from one star system to others;  as each star dies they go to other stars and their planets, from one galaxy to others until the entire  stars and universe  dies.

If there are multiple universe, as some speculate that there are, and some of those universes are habitable, human beings might be able to tunnel their ways to them; some say that there are wormholes through which people can tunnel to other universes.

Whatever is the truth about the existence of many universes, what is currently known is that our physical universe would die a chilly death (not fiery big crunch). We can then proceed on the grounds that we will die a cold death.

All elements would decay; protons would be the last to decay and the universe would be made of cold radiation and cannot support life as we know it.

Because, sooner or later, we shall die, life in body is transitory and ephemeral; it is not permanent and eternal. That which is not permanent is nothing.

Thus, we can say that our lives in bodies are really nothing; they seem to have temporary existence.  Where we currently see people in bodies there will be no people in bodies in the future.

The world is like a movie; you see the people in bodies in the movies and they seem real but like movies they are actually not there; there are no people where you see the movies playing on the screen of the world.

The question is who shot the movie. Who invented this world and made it so real that we take it as real?

It seems that some non-material intelligence invented our world and projected seeming life into people; this is kind of like the movie Matrix, where projected in actors think that they are real when in fact they are computer animations!

So, are there intelligent forces outside our physical universe that invented our physical universe? Nineteenth century infant science denied that possibility and embraced materialism, the philosophy that the permutation of matter produced mind; that our thinking is epiphenomenal, the byproduct of our bodies and brains. Materialism does not accept that there is life outside our bodies; when we die we die out. Materialism is atheistic.

Science is too young, it is only five hundred years old, and from Nicolas Copernicus (1543) to the present is not even five hundred years, to make finalistic claims about the origin of our universe and us.

Whereas religion posits unprovable gods as responsible for the origin of this world, I would not be surprised if this universe was invented by some intelligent agent.

This does not mean that we have to fear the intelligence agent and worship it. If a non-material intelligence exists, it is in us!

Sooner or later, science probably would be able to completely understand the universe and we begin inventing our own universes and people!

In this paper I am not going to speculate on the nature of the intelligence that putatively invented this universe; I have done so elsewhere.

For now, a realistic person accepts that his body and ego mind are transitory and ephemeral and doesn't over value them.

When I die my body would be cremated and since most of my body and your body are composed of 70% water, the water would evaporate and the other elements are reduced to about three pounds of ashes. Those three pounds of ashes have no monetary value. My body is not worth a penny!

Because it has no value, I do not take my body and ego seriously. To me my body and ego is nothing and I treat it as nothing.

But while I am on earth, I use my body and ego to relate to other bodies and egos as smoothly as is possible without deluding myself into thinking that I have worth.

The objective fact is that I have no existential worth and you have no existential worth; be that as it may, we can pretend to have worth, for that pretense seems necessary to make living on earth tolerable to our egos.

THE EXPECTATION FOR OTHERS TO SERVE MY NEEDS OR I FELT ANGRY AT THEM IS IMMATURE

If I put on my thinking cap the only inevitable conclusion is that my parents and people in general did not do much to harm me and therefore I have no business being angry at them.

It was nature that gave me my crummy body, a body that causes me no end of pain that wronged me. It was nature that made me feel like an orphan in this world. Therefore, if I need to feel angry at any one at all it is at nature.

A mature adult does not blame other people for his situation but merely does whatever he can to deal with his issues; blaming nature or other people is a waste of time and is not going to correct the situation.

My father inherited my body; thus, nature caused him the same type of problems it caused me and therefore he too was a victim of nature. He too did posit an idealized superior self that he was pursuing and used its imaginary perfect standards to judge his self and other people and criticized us.

He should not have judged me with ideal, perfect standards and found me not good enough just because I did not live like an imaginary perfect self.

I am a human being in flesh and blood and therefore cannot become as perfect as the imaginary mental construct called ideal self. He made a mistake in comparing me to an ideal self; he should not have done that for that caused me unnecessary psychological pain.  His mistake is neurotic and understandable and is to be corrected without unduly blaming him.

In Alfred Adler's terms, it can be said that I am like the pampered, spoilt child who expects his parents and other people and the world to take care of his needs and when they do not do so he feels angry at them and easily gives up and accept defeat rather than figure out a way to make a living by his self.

I project my anger at nature to those around me and blame them for not meeting my needs. If they did not immediately do what serves my needs I felt angry at them. It is as if I am a prince or king whose needs must be met or else he feels abandoned by people and cries to make them feel guilty and from guilt take care of his needs.

Well, in the adult world no other person is supposed to take care of my needs; I am supposed to take care of my needs and not feel angry at other people for not doing for me what I ought to be doing for me. I get it; all I need to do is correct my projecting my anger at nature and god to people by ceasing doing so and simply do whatever I can for me and leave it at that.

No one else owes me anything and I do not owe other people anything.  We are all alone and if we meet we smile at each other but beyond that we do not live to take care of each other people.

As Fred Pearl's used to say in his Gestalt therapy, it does not matter whether other people approve us or not; all we need to do is approve ourselves.

Albert Ellis, in his Rational Emotional Therapy used to encourage people not to give a damn about what other people think or say about them. It is not what other people say or do that makes you happy or sad or angry but how you interpret what they say or do. If you think that you need others approval if they do not approve you, you would feel bad but if you do not need other people's approval, they not approving you would be water off your skin.

For example, I do not seek approval from any white person and their not approving me makes no difference to me. I do not need approval from evil persons.

Aaron Beck continues Ellis Epictetus based cognitive behavior therapy.

I must then apologize to all those in my life that I had been angry at when they did not immediately do what I asked them to do for me. They do not have to meet my needs and I do not have to meet their needs.

The fact that I do not like to be kept waiting, not having my needs immediately met, is an issue for me to correct.

LOVE MEANS JOINING WITH PEOPLE BUT NOT PEOPLE SERVING YOUR NEEDS

Love by other people does not mean that they should jump and do whatever I asked them to do for me. Indeed, many of my significant others tried to meet my needs but fell short in doing so not because they are unloving but because they simply could not.

For example, when I was a college student my father's brothers did not reach out and helped me with money and I felt angry at them for not helping me. Well, they had their own children to train and did not have the resources to extend to me. But I was so angry at them that I cut off from them and had nothing else to do with them until they died. I can bear grudges and grievances and seek vengeance; this is immaturity and has to go.

And that brings us to love. What exactly is love? I think that love is the state of union; in love we are unified with each other and the universe. In the state of union with all existence we feel peaceful and happy. The topic of love is too extensive to be dealt with here; I have done so elsewhere.

THERE IS A UNIFIED PART TO OUR MINDS

I have had what religious folks call visions; however, I believe that my mind produced them. But having said so, the question is: what part of my mind produced them? Certainly, it is not the part of my mind that I am conscious of, for in my day consciousness I could not even imagine how to come up with those visions.

I believe that there is a part of the human mind that is not within our conscious control but has in it all our past learning and human history and uses those to produce our nightly dreams as well as our so-called religious visions.

Helen Schucman, for example, probably wrote her book, A course in miracles, from the deeper part of her mind that contains her psychoanalytic learning and the history of mankind, what Carl Jung called our collective unconscious.

How what Carl Jung called our collective mind works I do not understand but it seems to me to be the repository of all human experience, scientific and spiritual; in it are past religious figures such as Jesus Christ; it is our collective mind, what we may call our higher mind, or in Christian categories, the Holy Spirit, or Christ mind.

I call it our shared unified mind, what religious folks call God's mind.

DISCUSSION

To live in bodies that will die people must feel worthless and powerless and seek worth, power and knowledge. This is the human condition.

However, like every good thing there is a negative aspect to it; in some people the desire and pursuit of worth, power and knowledge can take over the individual's entire life that he feels totally worthless and is obsessive-compulsively seeking power. I am talking about folks that psychoanalysis used to call neurotics and todays psychiatry call persons with personality disorders.

The trick is to seek worth while recognizing that it is a chimera; for as long as people live in body they have no existential worth.

Look at your body, the body that you are laboring twelve hour days trying to make a living for. Within 120 years your body dies, decays and smells like feces. Your body is going to be eaten by worms and bacteria.

If you like science, then see it this way:  your body is composed of sixty four elements, mostly carbon, hydrogen, oxygen and nitrogen with traces of small amounts of potassium, phosphor, sulfur, magnesium, iron, zinc, calcium, chlorine, sodium and so on; composed elements are held together by chemical bonds.

Upon death the bonds that hold your body together break up and the various elements that composed your body leave your body.

The elements in time decay to their constituent parts of electrons, proton sand neutrons; those particles would in time decay to quarks and those to photons and those to the nothingness from whence light came during the Big bang 13. 8 billion years ago.

If you cremated your 170 pounds body (which is over 70% water, just as water makes up 70% of the earth's surface) it would become about three pounds of ashes; those ashes have no monetary value, they are not even worth a penny!

Your body is not worth a penny, my dear friend! Yet, you enslave yourself to working for its up keep. What does that make you, a wise man or a fool?

And for telling you this much truth what does it make me, a pessimist or optimist? Would you rather you are not told the truth so that you keep on deluding yourself with the illusion that your body and ego has worth?

The philosopher's function is to tell you the truth, to disabuse people of their illusions and delusions of their worth. I am merely performing my philosophical function by telling you the truth.

The truth, even if it seems depressing, will give you proper perspective and help you live more peacefully and happily with the transitory and ephemeral things of this world.

Things, you included, are here today and are gone tomorrow. The immortal bard, William Shakespeare, remember him, in his immortal play, Macbeth, said that we are like poor actors on a stage; we are like the story told by a fool full of sound and fury but signifying nothing; in the present we clown around as misters big stuff but in time we are heard from no more; we disappear into the mist of oblivion from when we came!

If you like Hamlet, what are we, gods or animals? You decide and take the consequences of your decision.

Simply put, our bodies and the sense of self are nothing seeking to become something important but cannot attain it.  Such is the human tragedy.

Some say that worth inheres in spirit, in God and that we obtain it when we return to God. Okay. But the question is; where is God and spirit? Where can we find him?

He is nowhere to be found. You ask folks to merely belief in the unseen God?  In this piece I am not interested in belief and faith but in what I can verify through the scientific method.

I do not know that God or spirit exists, for, as Karl Popper noted, God and his heaven cannot be falsified, or even verified, so they are not proper subjects for scientific inquiry. However, they are proper subject for metaphysical, non -scientific cogitations. I have done that elsewhere.

CONCLUSION

In this paper I pointed out that the reality of living in bodies that would die and disappear from existence makes us feel like we have no worth.  I said that we appear to need a sense of worth to be able to live productive lives in this world. Thus, even though we do not have worth we seek to have worth.

Some people come to believe that they have the worth most of us pursue but know that we do not have it.

When we take the imaginary as real we have mental health issues. Mental illness inheres in believing that one has worth when one does not have it.

Mental health lies in seeking worth but accepting that worth is a social construct and not deluding one's self into believing that one actually has worth.

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Living from love

LIVING FROM LOVE

Ozodi Thomas Osuji

PERCEPTION IS PROJECTION

The thesis of A course in miracles is that perception is projection; it says that the world we see with our naked, physical eyes does not exist out there apart from us but, instead, is projected out by our minds. The choice we now have is to look at that world with the ego's or Holy Spirit's eyes.

In the day time the world is projected out by our collective minds and at night by our individual minds; because our day world is projected out by our collective minds it is shared hence lasts billions of years but because our nightly dreams are projected out by each of us they are not shared hence do not last longer than the individual's sleep- dream time.

WHY AND HOW THE WORLD CAME INTO BEING

In heaven, eternity, we lived a unified life.  We wished separation from this unified state and could not attain it. Unable to separate from the eternal union of God and his infinite sons, we went to sleep and dreamed; in our dream we projected out the world that we now see.

Our physical universe is projected with the wish for separation in mind hence produced space, time and matter; it exists to enable us seem separated from God and from each other.

Space enables us to see other persons as apart from us; time enables us to take time to reach other people so that gives us the impression that they are not  part of us; matter enables us to use it to construct our bodies and now living in bodies of matter we see other people as not part of us. Space, time and matter are illusions used to sustain the illusion of separation; in reality they, like the separation they sustain, do not exist.

Separation from unified state is an attack on it, so the world of separation is inherently a place of attack, and opposition to love (love is union).

SPECIAL LOVE RELATIONSHIPS; PSEUDO UNIONS

We project out people to attack us and we attack them. The world is a place of conflict and war.  In it we are not comfortable. We try to reduce the conflict and war with special love relationships where we choose to form substitute unions with some persons (families, societies, associations etc.). We welcome people into these replacement unions on the condition that they acknowledge our specialness, our uniqueness, our individual superiority. In heaven we are the same and equal; there is no specialness in God.

HOLY RELATIONSHIPS

Our substitute unions are full of fear, anxiety, anger, depression and paranoia. They do not satisfy us. God, through his Holy Spirit, enters the scene and gives us a different way to look at the world and relationships we have already made. He corrects our perception.

We have already projected out a world at war, a place where those we produced fight us and we fight them, a place we do bad things to each other.

The Holy Spirit offers us a way to look at the world and people differently. He tells us that the world is a dream hence what is done in it hasn't been done; he tells us to overlook what other people did to us that seem to hurt our dream figures; that is, he asks us to forgive what other people did to harm us for they only harmed our dream selves but not our real selves.

Our real selves, the sons of God, remain healthy and safe in God. Regardless of what people do on earth, since they have not separated from God and from each other and have not really harmed each other, they are innocent, guiltless, sinless and holy. The Holy Spirit asks us to see ourselves, despite the seeming evil we do on earth, as innocent.

The Holy Spirit's corrected perception is for us to see people with forgiveness and in doing so return to living in relative love for we are love.

God created us a loving people not a hateful people. When we forgive and return to love, even though the foundation of the world is conflict and war, we produce relative harmony on earth.

If we progress along this line of living forgiving lives we shall eventually exit the world and go to a new world, a world the Holy Spirit reinvented from the one we made; the course calls that world happy dream, the gate of heaven, the bridge between heaven and earth and the real world; it is a place of light forms; it is not heaven.

In that new world, which traditional Christianity calls New Jerusalem or New Israel, people still look like they do on earth but are now not in bodies of flesh that die and rot but in bodies made of light; they are led by Christ (love); they live there for as long as the physical universe lasts (which will be trillions of years).

When the physical universe eventually ends (when every person has purified his mind and is now at the gate of heaven) people stop living in forms, light or dense, and enter formless heaven.

In heaven people live as their true self, which is formless; that formless self is unified; in it is perfect peace and joy.

The gate of heaven has what Bahaullah calls the lesser peace; our world is a place of war.

The goal of A course in miracles is to change our perception of who we are and the world; we already projected out  separated selves at war with each other; the changed perception is for us to see us as unified and in doing so gain relative peace.

The choice we now have is to look at the world and its people with the egos' eyes or with the Holy Spirit's eyes; with eyes that attack, defense, bearing grievances and seeking of vengeance or with eyes that sees war and forgives it.

I RENAME A COURSE IN MIRACLES LIVING FROM LOVE

Each of us is given a thought system; the thought system may be written down or not; whether one knows it or not, ones thought system delineates how one is living one's life.

Each thought system is given to the world by what is called world teachers of God.  Many persons have served as world teachers of God; they include Gautama Buddha, Jesus Christ and Bahaullah.

Each teacher of God presents the eternal corrective gospel taught by the Holy Spirit in a language those around him can understand.  He does not teach a new message that is not found in the teaching of the Holy Spirit but teaches the same message in such a manner that people around him can understand it.

Jesus Christ taught Christianity. His teaching was distorted by Europeans.  Helen Schucman came to the world and working with Jesus Christ restated the message that Jesus taught two thousand years ago.  The language of Helen Schucman's book, A course in miracles, unfortunately, is convoluted and seldom do people understand it.

I undertake to put the teaching of A course in miracles into simple prose that many people will understand. Not that I need the permission of Jesus to do what I do but he and I, in several conversations, agree that I must do it (if you have not seen Jesus you are not really a Christian; he is always in front of you and you do not see him; try forgiving and loving people and you will see the old boy!) I rename A course in miracles living from love, for that is its message.

I am a world teacher of God (teacher of love) and have the right and capacity to do what I am doing. Many people will come to God through my rendition of the corrective, perennial philosophy taught by the Holy Spirit.

A course in miracles says that there are no accidents in the individual's life. How could there be accidents in one's life if the world we see is our dream?

In ones nightly dreams one sees a world that looks like our day world; one sees many persons doing all kinds of things and one of the persons in the dream is the dream figure that one identifies with.

One's dream figure and the other dream figures interact in the dream. If something happens to the other dream figures one does not feel pain or fear but if something happens to the dream figure that one sees as one's self, even though it happened in a dream, one feels fear and or pain.

One projected out ones dream and identifies with one of the dream figures in it.  But how did ones sleeping mind project out a dream world, a world that looks like our day world? I do not know.

I do not think that the best dramatist in the world, probably William Shakespeare, can write a plot, people it and enact it like one of my nightly dreams. Nothing in Macbeth, Hamlet, Julius Caesar, King Lear and the other great plays by the immortal Bard comes close to the dreams I have at night. But how did my brain write those dream plays, people them and enact them? I do not have the faintest clue.

And don't go talking to me about neuroscience for it is a subject that I can teach you. I am on top of the literature on brain science; I understand all about the dance of neurons, neurotransmitters and electrical ions in our brains but those do not explain our dreams.

A course in miracles says that our day world is also our dream. It says that a self that I am not consciously aware of is sleeping and dreaming our day world just as at night that force dreams through us.

The self that dreams our day world A course in miracles calls the son of God.  I do not know who the son of God is. All I know is that the course in miracles says that our real self is the son of God.

The book says that there is one God; it says that that one God projected his self to his son. The son of God, in turn, projects his self to his own son. This way creation begins in God and extends to his infinite sons.

In creation God gave all his powers to his sons; his sons, like God are creative. The only difference between God and his sons is that he created them and they did not create him otherwise God's sons have as much power as their father.

God and his infinite sons share one self and one mind. Where God ends and his sons begin is nowhere; where one son of God ends and another begins is nowhere. God is in his son and his son is in him; each son of God is not only in God but in the infinite sons of God.

God and his sons are eternally joined and unified; they are one. They cannot be separated from each other. If it were possible for the sons of God to separate from God and from one another both God and his sons would die.  The father and the sons cannot separate from each and therefore cannot die.

God and his sons are eternal, permanent and changeless; they have lived forever and would continue living forever.

Love is the energy, the glue that unifies God and his sons into one self and one mind; the father and sons cannot live without love; they are love itself.

MYTH OF EARTHLY CREATION

In eternity the thought of separation entered (from where, I do not know). Each son of God wished to separate from God and from each other. It is impossible for the sons of God to separate from God and from each other for they complete each other; God completes his sons and they complete him; without one the other cannot live.

Apparently, the wish to separate from God was motivated by the sons' resentment that God created them; they wanted to create God and create themselves.

Each son of God, in effect, wants to be special; that is, become superior to God and to the other sons of God. Each son of God wants to chase his father away from the creator throne, usurp and sit on it and become the creator of God, his self and his brothers and the entire universe.

God did not create his sons to be special; God created them to be the same and coequal with him and with each other.

The wish for separation and specialness was so strong that the sons of God, as it were, went to sleep and in their sleep dreamed. In their dream they gratified their wish for separated selves. They began their dream by inventing space, time and matter (please review contemporary cosmology, from the Big Bang to the present, for that is the separation cast in scientific language;  A course in miracles cast it in poetic metaphors).

The sons of God are now in a dream. In the stream they used the matter (atoms, elements, electrons, protons and neutrons) they invented to make bodies for each of them.

The process of getting to live in bodies took billions of years. (Please review astrophysics and evolutionary biology to understand how the universe evolved and invented galaxies, stars, planets, and on our planet, earth, evolved biological organisms like plants and animals.)

We are on planet earth, a dream place. In the dream we see seeming other people doing good or bad things to us.

We had evolved bodies that feel pain and fear so if other people do certain things to us we feel fear and pain and run away from them; we run to go survive as separated selves.

To us other people and the environment are real. We see other people harming and or killing people; we know that other persons could harm or kill us and we could kill them so we fear people.

A course in miracles says that this is the way we set up the game for, in fact, there are no other people; all of us share one self and one mind.

It is each of us that dreams and in his dream projects out his brothers and make them do certain things to him, good or bad things. He makes some do bad things to him so that he fears them and runs from them or attacks and destroys their bodies. He makes others do pleasurable things to him and he gets close to those and does pleasurable things with them.

Pain and pleasure are mechanisms for deciding who one allows to get close to one or who one separates from.  For example, your family members, hopefully, do good things to you so you stay close to them. On the other hand, if you are a black man in the USA you make white racists do harmful things to you (such as enslave you, discriminate against you etc.).  Anticipating the harms that racists would do to you, you stay away from them.

The situation we see seems real; it does not seem like a dream. You see yourself as the victim of others harmful behaviors. You justify defending your ego and body. You approach other people hesitantly, always mindful that they could harm and or destroy your body.

The course says that all these cautiousness in approaching people are part of the game as we set it up.

Let me personalize to drive the point home. The course says that I had every person who did whatever they did to me, good or bad, do so to me. Indeed, I did those things to me for it is my dream and I projected the dream figures that do things to me and me to them.

Other people are like me; they, too, are dreaming and project all of us out and have each of us do to them what we do to them. They projected me out and had me do whatever I did to them, good or bad.

In the dream each of us sees other persons as not him; each person sees his self as the victim of other persons who do bad things to him; each of us perceives his self as a victim and others as victimizers; he sees his self as innocent and sees others as evil and blames them for his hurtful state.

For example, I had a girlfriend treat me cavalierly.  Since I was a kid I have never allowed a person to treat me without respect.  I always want other people to meet my needs and I meet their needs.

I asked this girl friend to do something for me, a minor favor, really, the type of favor I routinely do for her and other people. She said that she would think about it. Four days later she had not done it or talked to me about it. I felt treated cavalierly and angry. In my anger I told her to take a hike, to get away from me, for I do not want to see her around me.

It must have been a surprise to her to see me respond to what she probably thought is a minor incident with rejection of her.  From her perspective she probably thought that she is innocent but from my perspective she was a bad person.

A course in miracles tells me that she is a dream figure in my dream, and that in my dream I projected her out and had her treat me as she did; that, in fact, I did to me what she did to me.  In so far that I believed that she treated me badly I had her do so. Why?

I wanted her to treat me unkindly so that I feel not loved by her and justify been angry at her.  I wanted to feel that she is an evil person and use that to reject her and push her away from me; that is, I wanted to separate from her and go find another girl friend and repeat the same dance of special love relationships.

I am a very insightful person and tend to see people clearly; I tend to keep quiet about how I see people but if they make me angry I tell them how I see them.

In my anger I told this woman my perception of her. I told her that she does not love any man; I told her that she has many male lovers (which is true) and that she does so because she does not want to love any of them. I told her that she does not want a committed relationship with a man but, instead, use them as vibrators to stimulate her sexual organs. She considers herself what she calls poly, a woman who likes to have affairs with many men and women. I interpreted that to mean a lady who is afraid of love for one human being but instead have uncommitted relationship with many people while deluding herself that she is a loving person.

I told her that because she really does not love any man that she is afraid of men, for we fear those we do not love.

Where there is love there is no fear and where there is fear there is no love. I told her that in my observation of her that she is a fearful person and that that means that she is not a loving person. I told her that her fearfulness is rooted in her lack of love for people.

If you do not love people but instead use them for sex, at some level you recognize that what you are doing is not right and feel fear and guilt.

I told her that the only way she is going to avoid feeling guilty and fearful is for her to get out of the adolescent mode of having poly relationship with men and women and go find one person to love, to have a committed relationship with.

To cap it up, I told her that if she continues with her poly life style that she would be dead in ten years. Why? To have sex with those you do not love is not right. If you do what is not right you build up negative samsara (karma).

Moreover, you exchange energy with whoever you have sex with and if there is no love in that energy you are harming yourself.

I told her that she already had a stroke and would soon have another one and die from it because of her deliberate determination not to love people but, instead, see them as source of sexual gratification (she  does not like me because I was not willing to be a source of her sexual gratification).

At some level, she realizes that she is a narcissistic woman who feels that she is beautiful and is seeking attention and admiration from her many lovers but is unable to love them and rationalizes her stunted psychological state with the rubbish that she is a poly.

Most men have a difficult time meeting the emotional needs of one woman so I do not see how a man can meet the emotional needs of several women or a woman meet the emotional needs of more than one man.

She is simply a woman with arrested emotional development; she was arrested at an adolescent age when she rebelled against monogamy and thought that having sex with whomever she likes is freedom. No, it is slavery.

A real adult voluntarily restrains his or her sexual life to one partner because he understands the problems in having sexual relationship with many persons, including the risk of contracting sexually transmitted diseases, one of which is HIV AIDS that one could die from.

It is in one's survival interest for one to be monogamous. I believe that one must have death wish, is suicidal and depressed to have sex with many persons. I told this woman that she is depressed and suicidal hence she risks her life by engaging in her dangerous life style (come to think of it, she had been treated for depression with several anti-depressant medications).

A course in miracle says that whatever I see this woman do is what I want her to do.  Indeed, it says that what I see her do I did through her.  I did to me what she did to me.

Seeing her do what my Catholic upbringing considers amoral I felt disgusted and angry at her hence told her that she is an evil woman and for her to get away from me.

OUR SENSE OF GUILT AND EXPECTATION OF PUNISHMENT; ORIGINAL SIN

A course in miracles says that I separated from God (our whole self) and feel guilty from doing so. Feeling guilty, I expect God to punish me. God will not punish me for he knows that I did not separate from him; he knows that I am still a part of him and that I am merely sleeping and dreaming that I am separated from him.

God does not want to rudely awaken me from my sleep. Instead, he allows me to sleep and dream separation. However, he wants to make my dream of separation as happy as is possible. To do so he created the Holy Spirit and implanted him in my seeming separated mind.

THE FUNCTION OF THE IMMANENT GOD IN THE TEMPORAL UNIVERSE

On earth, in each of our minds, are three parts: the unified mind that we share with God, a part of us we have forgotten; the ego mind, the part we use in dreaming separation; and the part where the Holy Spirit and Christ, our real self is.

The ego or left mind tells us that other people are evil and do evil things to us and urges us to separate from them.

The Holy Spirit (the right mind or the Christ mind) sees what other people did to us and tells us that they did so in our mutual dream of separation and that what is done in dreams have not been done.

The Holy Spirit tells us that we did the seeming evil things to us through those we see do them to us.

The Holy Spirit asks us to overlook the apparent evil that other persons did to us. To overlook is to forgive; so, we are asked to forgive what people did to us that we do not like.

In forgiving them we forgive us. In forgiving them and hence forgiving us we see their real self, the Christ in them and see the Christ in us.

Christ is our purified ego self; he is in light body (this seems fictional but try forgiving people and you will see them and you in light form!).

The person who attacked you, who did bad things to you, A course in miracles says, is your best friend and is your savior but you do not know it.

Your ego shows him to you as your worst enemy but the Holy Spirit knows that that person is your friend who volunteered to do what the ego considers evil to you to offer you another opportunity to become saved from the pains of the ego. That person wants to save you, redeem you, deliver you from your ego; that person is a healer and wants to heal your ego bound mind and return it to Christ mind.

In fact, that person came to this world with the specific intention of healing you. He heals you if you overlook what he did to you and in so doing overlook your own evils and see the joined mind beneath the ego separated minds.

In this light, the woman that did an unfriendly thing to me is my healer, savior, redeemer and deliverer. She volunteered to come to this world and do to me what she did to me to offer me the opportunity to overlook it and in doing so overlook my own evils and become saved. She is my savior.

As noted, initially, I saw her behavior with my ego moralistic eyes. If I overlook what she did to me, what I did to me through her, I would see that the person beneath her ego mask is no other than Christ!

If I forgive her and see the Christ in her I forgive me (for I did to me what she did to me, remember that  I projected her out in my dream); if I see the Christ in her I see the Christ in me.

When I forgive her and forgive all those who did bad things to me and see them as Christ and see myself as Christ, I am saved.

If I truly forgive her and the world I would suddenly see our cruel world momentarily disappear and I see another world, a world that still looks like our world but a beautiful version of our world, for it is in light form.

That purified world is the world reinvented from our world by the Holy Spirit (by us from the right part of our minds; the terms, Ego, Holy Spirit, Christ and God are parts of our minds; we give them seeming separated names to make the point that we behave from many perspectives).

SEPARATION, GUILT, FEAR AND PUNISHMENT

In our world we seem separated from God and from each other and feel that we did wrong. The Catholic Church calls what I have been calling separation original sin and symbolizes it in the supposed events that took place in the imaginary Garden of Eden where Adam and Eve supposedly ate a fruit God asked them not to eat.  That metaphoric event is called our fall from God's grace, descent into the world of darkness and we live in.

We supposedly disobeyed God and now expect God to punish us but God is not punitive. Therefore, we project some people out to punish us. We insist on been punished for our supposed sin of separation. Why do we do so?

To be punished means that we are in fact guilty; if we are guilty it means that we have, in fact, separated from God and accomplished the impossible act of separating from God, from unified reality.

No will in heaven or on earth has the power and ability to separate from God; no one can disobey God's will that he and his sons are unified.

Separation is impossible (for it means the death of God...remember that the parts must be there for the whole to be there) but we want it to seem possible to the point of punishing ourselves, albeit in dreams of punishment.

This sense of guilt, fear and punishment take place in dreams of separation; in reality we have not separated from God hence are not guilty and do not feel fear of God and are not punished by God.

In this light, in my dream of separation, I projected out a woman to seem unloving towards me; I wanted her to punish me because I believe that I am sinful (from separating from God).

I think that I deserve to be punished and had her punish me. But this sin and punishment took place in my dream of separation. In reality it has not taken place. I have not separated from God and therefore I am not sinful; other people have not separated from God and are not sinful.

People cannot possibly agree to attack and punish me for they know that I am innocent. I, too, know that despite what they do that seems evil that they have not separated from God and are innocent.

The woman who was fooling around with several men did so in her dream of separation; in reality she is innocent.  In reality I am also innocent.

BEHOLD YOUR SAVIOR IN THE PERSON WHO YOUR EGO SEE DO BAD THINGS TO YOU

A course in miracles says that what other people did to you is what you wanted them to do so to you. They agreed to do bad things to you to give you the opportunity to forgive them and in forgiving them forgive you and in doing so you become saved. The person who did wrong to you, in effect, is your savior.

The world that seems to have wronged you is a world that is saving you. How does this work? Consider.  I am supposed to be a gifted chap. I had PhD from a top university and at an early age.  But there was a problem. I did not feel like what I studied is my vocation. So, after teaching it for a while I dropped out of academia and began searching for a vocation that would give meaning to my life.

In the meantime, I was not fully committed to any profession and tried many of them. Naturally, since I was not totally committed I could not play the game as it is expected.

In every profession it is those who are totally committed to it that succeed in it.  Do you want to be a professor? You have to be 100% committed to your subject; you must live your subject; you cannot do it half assed and expect to succeed at it.

I was not committed to any subject because none of them made sense to me. I kept searching for what would make sense to me.

In the meantime, as the world sees it, I seem a failure.  I interpreted my seeming failure as due to racism.  I was infuriated when I applied for some professorial positions, was interviewed and was not hired. I felt more knowledgeable than the entire panel that interviewed me (which is true).  But I was not committed to the position that I was interviewing for; somehow, the interviewers knew it!

I, in effect, made folks to reject me; but I made it seem like white racists denied me jobs! I did so to feel angry at them.

Actually, what was going on is that my higher self (the Holy Spirit) had not found something for me to be fully committed to, yet.

Until you are fully committed to a profession you are not going to succeed in it. So, can I be fully committed to something? Of course I can be committed to something.

What am I doing here? I am explaining metaphysics like no other human being can explain it. I read a 2000 pages book written in the most convoluted, hifalutin, gobbledygook language that very few persons understand and explained it to you in ten pages.

Have you seen another human being do what I just did and do so effortlessly? I sit in front of my computer and in two hours explain complex metaphysics.  This means that I am committed to explaining metaphysics.

I translate A course in miracles into simple prose that the average person can read and understand. I rename the thought system. I no longer call it A course in miracles for that name suggests that one is looking for a miracle in the traditional sense that folks associate the term, miracle with, something supernatural happening to one.

Actually, Helen Schucman did not use the term miracle in the traditional Christian sense. To her, miracle means change of perception; miracle occurs when one stop seeing one's self as separated from other people and now sees one self as unified with other people and with God.

When you see yourself as one with all creation and its creator you have changed your mind; you have gone from ego mind to Christ mind, Holy Spirit directed mind and is on your way to returning to God.

The miracle or salvation, however, does not return you to God. It merely changes your mind and eventually takes you to a happy dream, to the gate of heaven, the world of light forms. In that world you still see forms albeit in light forms. That is not heaven.

Heaven is formless. In heaven you do not see other people or God. In heaven you know that you, other people and God share one self and one mind. How can you see other people if they are you? In heaven there is no you and no you, seer and seen, subject and object; all are one self and one mind.

And where is this heaven? It is in you. You are always in heaven and heaven is always in you. You cannot separate from heaven.

YOU MUST TUNE OUT OUR WORLD TO SEE THE WORLD OF LIGHT FORMS; YOU MUST TRANSCEND ALL FORMS TO EXPERIENCE HEAVEN

Do you want to see the world of light forms and eventually experience heaven? If so do this.  Stop thinking from your ego mind! Keep quiet; make your mind free from all ego thinking and ego categories. Make your mind blank; in Buddhist categories, have no ego self; in Hindu categories, negate all you think is the truth (Neti, Neti, not this, not that, one of the Upanishads said) and accept that you do not know what the truth is.

Don't say anything about anything for you do not know what anything means; you don't even know who you are.  If at all you must say something ask the Holy Spirit, your higher self, not your lower ego self, to tell you what to say.

As noted above, the Holy Spirit reinterprets the events of this world (as I have done in this essay). If you think from your higher self, the Holy Spirit, you tend to be relatively peaceful and happy.

If you keep on forgiving all people, overlooking the world one day you will see the physical world disappear; this is literal and you see a version of it in light form (the world those who have had near death experiences see).

If, ultimately, you reject all forms, purified or dense, light or dense, you will experience the unified world that cannot be expressed in language, for speech was invented to enable us name things in the separated world of multiplicity. In God's unified world speech is not necessary and you do not talk to anyone; you commune with all and they commune with you.

I cannot explain heaven and no one can do so; the Tao that can be explained is not the Tao. Let us just say that heaven is real and is the only reality there is; our ego and the purified form of it, the world of light forms, are make belief worlds, fictional worlds, although one, the world of light forms, comes close to the reality of heaven but is not it, for it still has forms whereas heaven is formless.

DISCUSSION

If one lives what one believes is true and teaches it through living it one succeeds.  If I live the thought system that makes sense to me I succeed in it.

My goal is to establish a school where this new thought system would be taught. I will do it. I will get the money I need to start that school.

As the German poet, Goethe, said, when a person is committed to a vocation the entire universe becomes committed to him and all people open doors for him. One gets the resources one needs to do one's work, the work that one came to this world to do and in the world that only one can do.

It is not ego boasting (delusion, grandiosity) to say that no other person in the world understands metaphysics as I do; this is what I came to do and what I do.

I must teach my thought system, which I call living from love.

Each of us has a special function in this world.  In heaven we are one, same and equal. But we sought separation to go gratify our desire for specialness, to obtain a sense of superiority to other persons. We now live in the special world.

In the world of specialness and specialization each of us has a special function to perform; there is something that one is superior to other persons in doing.

Every other thing I have done in life was a preparation for me to perform my special function of giving the world a new metaphysics, a new philosophy, one that takes from A course in miracles, Gnosticism, Christianity, Hinduism, Buddhism, Taoism, Zen, African religions and the other religions that I studied and synthesizes them into a new approach to living.

CONCLUSION

What is the thought system that I am teaching? It is that there is no way it is possible for what the individual does not want to experience to happen to him. In that light, everything that has happened to me is what I want to happen to me. This includes the good and bad that happened to me. There are no accidents in my life.

Whatever happened to me is what the son of God in me is dreaming through me, what it wants to experience; and that includes my inherited biological issues, my social experiences,  how my parents and people treated me.

Each person I have encountered in my life did to me exactly what I wanted him to do to me (what I did to me through them).

By the same token, whatever has happened to you and every other person in this world are what you and they want to experience.

We must therefore stop blaming other people for what they did to us and take responsibility for them.

For example, black people want to experience racism and poverty and dream where white folks are discriminating against them. It is their dream; it is also white folks dream; white folks dream that they should oppress black folks.

Black folks, white folks and all human beings share the same one son of God so it is one self that is dreaming from all of them.

In the dream folks play different roles; in one life time you may be the slave and in other life times be  the slave master; in one life time you may be white and in another black; in one a man and in other a woman.

It is oneself playing different roles.  You did it all and I did it all; there is no one to blame for our situation.

Does this mean that one should tolerate social injustice; should black folks say that they made white folks to discriminate against them and then passively tolerate it?

To tolerate injustice is to live as a fearful ego. If you are Christ and know that you are eternal how can you tolerate social injustice?

Even if other people destroy your body you know that your spirit lives forever. Jesus stood up for love and those who desired hate destroyed his body but two thousand years later we are talking about him not  about the people who destroyed his body.

Ten thousand years in the future we shall be talking about those who taught the world to love not about benighted racists who insist on being subhuman beings by preaching hatred.

When you recognize your true self, the eternal son of God and know that the world is your dream you resolve to have a happy dream.

A happy dream requires you to love all people and for you to correct evil (through the Holy Spirit) and make our world a happy dream.

If you see an adult man raping a child you must remove him, you can even destroy him. No adult should abuse a child. If you destroyed the body of a pedophile his eternal spirit will return in a different life time to learn that sex is only permissible if it is by mutual consent.

When one undertakes to live from love one makes the world a loving place by not only living from love but correcting our unloving behaviors.

Finally, living from love is not apolitical; it does not avoid politics and leadership matters. As long as people live in separation, in human society they must have conflicts and set up governments to manage their conflicts. The question is what kind of government best serves the people.

At this point in history, a government that provides all children with publicly paid education through university and technical schools and provides all people with a single payer health insurance is best.

In economic matters, clearly, a mixed economy that combines capitalist and socialist ideas is best for the contemporary human polity.

So, while living from love if you have a political calling by all means go for it; do not avoid participating in how your society is governed.

Even in the world of light forms there are leaders; the leaders are enlightened persons such as Jesus Christ, Buddha, Bahaullah etc.

In heaven we are one, same and equal, therefore, there is no politics and leadership in heaven.  We are not yet aware of heaven; we are aware of living in the egos separated world.

We are egos living as egos. The present mission is for each of us to try to live as egolessly as is possible.  You live egolessly when you love all people and serve our common social interests.

You know that you are living egolessly when you feel peaceful and happy. Peace and joy are the gifts of God; we receive peace and joy from living godlike, that is, loving lives.

I am personally not invested in American and African politics, for those are the politics of selfish cowards, of egotistical folks who refuse to do the right things, such as build a social-democratic society (as in Scandinavia).  I am helping construct an alternative to extant politics, one where folks know that they share one self and one mind and without much prompting serve each other's earthly interests.

Ozodi Thomas Osuji

July 18, 2017

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Monday, 17 July 2017 10:38

Perception is projection

While in Europe, I received an email from one of my Anchorage, Alaska A course in miracles group members, Jon Pratt. He told us that finally the entire A course in miracles has been published. If you are a student of a course in miracles, you already know that professor Helen Schucman (a professor at the department of psychology at Columbia University, New York City, USA) took down the inner voice she heard in her handwriting, and sometimes in shorthand. She then had the chairman of her psychology department, Professor William Thetford type her handwritten material. After he had typed it they decided to edit it and remove parts of it that they did not deem meant for the public, especially parts that talked in Psychological cum psychoanalytic lingo that they felt that the non-mental health professional would not understand. The book went through many subsequent editing. Finally, Dr. Kenneth Warpnick, a young psychologist, arranged it in the format that it was published in 1976.  I read the book in 1989. As a scholar, I immediately wanted to see the handwritten version of it. If you are trained in academia you are told to see the source of any material you are dealing with, so I wanted to see the original A course in miracles before it was edited. I called Dr. Warpnick and asked him to please make a copy of the handwritten version and send them to me. He told me that he would not do so for the removed materials were not germane to the message of the course and, moreover, were meant for Helen and Bill, not for the public. You know me; I do not like to be told no. So, I was furious at Ken and gave him a lecture on how he should not hide any part of the book; I told him that as a PhD holder he ought to know something about research, how researchers like me would like to see the original source of what we are talking about. The man stood his ground and did not send the handwritten stuff to me.  Well, some folks persisted in seeing the handwritten material. Apparently, an excellent scholar called Robert Perry finally got a copy of it; it was deposited at the US library of Congress. He meticulously transcribed it into another version of A course in miracles. His new version is called A course in miracles, Based on the original handwritten notes of Helen Schucman, Complete and Annotated Edition (published by his group, Circle of Atonement, West Sedona, Arizona, USA; it was published in January of 2017). The new book is 2000 pages long (the original published A course in miracles was 1200 pages long). Well, Jon Pratt told us about the new version. I wrote to him to get a copy for me so that when returned to the USA I would have it. This morning I went to Church and, lo and behold, Jon Pratt was at the service and he came to me and gave me a giant hug and told me that he bought the book for me and that as a matter of fact it is in his car and he ran out and got it and gave it to me.  I got home from church and immediately dived into the book, especially the new pages added to it. The entire message of the course has not changed but the new version made things clearer. I understand psychological and psychoanalytic language so I benefited from reading the course in that language. The below notes I made from reading the book this afternoon might be beneficial for course students who are struggling to understand what it is teaching. Its basic teaching is that the world we see is based on our projection. Read on.

According to A course in miracles, the world you see is projected out by your mind.  This is regardless of whether what you see is good or bad; your mind produced the world you see.  The world is the outward mirror of our thinking; our thinking produced the world we see; the world does not exist apart from the minds that produced it, our minds.

THE EGOS PERCEPTION OF A GUILTY WORLD TO BE PUNISHED

There are two ways of producing the world you see. One is to assume that separation has occurred and people now live apart from you and you from them; and that there is space and time between you and other persons.

The idea that we are separated from God makes us feel guilty and fear God's punishment for our sin (of separating from him). If we see a separated world we must feel guilty.

You believe that the people you see are guilty of doing the awful things we see people do in the world. This is the egos perception; seeing a guilty world.

If you see people doing awful things you believe that they are guilty; this also means that you believe that you are guilty in doing the awful things you see people doing, for you projected those people out and had them do what you see them do and deny that your mind produced them and made them do it and believe that they did them independent of you and must be guilty while you are independent of them and you are innocent. This is how your ego sees the world; the ego sees you as innocent and other persons as guilty and punished (actually, it believes that you are guilty and ought to be punished and punishes you through seeming other persons!).

Believing the world as guilty you want to punish it and not punish you. But since to see the world, people as guilty is to see you as guilty and to punish them is to punish you then you are punishing you.

THE HOLY SPIRIT'S REINTERPRETED PERCEPTION OF THE AWFUL WORLD YOU SEE; SEPARATION HAS NOT OCCURRED; PEOPLE AND YOU ARE INNOCENT

The Holy Spirit knows that the world we see is the projection of our minds for perception is projection. What you see happening out there is projected out by your mind.

Whereas the ego wants to deny that you projected the world out and see what is happening in it as done by awful other folks, folks to be punished for their evil acts, the Holy Spirit recognizes that your mind produced the seeming evil you see people do to themselves and to you.

You are responsible for the world you see, for it is your dream and is also other people's dreams projected out.

The Holy Spirit reinterprets the world by saying that it is a dream and has therefore not occurred in reality. What you see people do to themselves and to you that makes you angry was produced by your and their minds, which are collectively one mind.

One mind, the mind of the son of God (all of us in tandem are the one son of God) produced the world we see.  Because it is a dream what is done in it has not happened.  Therefore, the people you see do awful things to each other and to you have not really done them. They have not separated from God and done the things you see them do. They are still as God created them despite what they seem to have done; they are innocent, guiltless, sinless, holy and saintly.

You can change your mind, from looking at the world from the egos perspective to the Holy Spirit's perspective.

If you change your mind and now see things from the Holy Spirit's perspective you have changed your mind about the people and see them as innocent despite their seeming awful behaviors.

In seeing other people as innocent you simultaneously see yourself as innocent despite the awful things you did in the world.  For, as you perceive other people is how you perceive you.

In the savior's vision, seeing driven by the Holy Spirit, you see people do what seem awful things and interpret their actions from the perspective of the Holy Spirit; you say that they have not done what your naked physical eyes showed them doing; you now see them as innocent and in doing so see you as innocent.

When you forgive other people for doing the awful things they did to you, you forgive you for doing those awful things to you through them.

In forgiving them, hence forgiving you, you escape from this world's cruel reality and momentarily see a different world, a vision of a peaceful and loving world; in that world people are in light forms.

That new world you see, the forgiven world, the saved world, the redeemed world, still looks like our world but people in it only do loving things to each other, for they are having a dream of love, a dream of union rather than the dream of hate, attack and separation we have in our world.  That is, the Holy Spirit shows you a picture of a different world. But to see that new picture of the world you must forgive people and forgive you what you see them do on earth.

Let us go from the abstract to the personal. What I think that you are is what I think that I am projected to you for perception is projection.

If I think that you are an unloving person and see you do unloving things to me that is what I am doing to me.  Currently, I see a grown up woman fooling around with many men and not loving any of the men.  This is how my ego's eyes see her.

My perception of her as unloving is my self-assessment that I am an unloving person projected out to her.

I see me fooling around with many women and as an unloving person; I projected what I see in me to her and perceptually see her fooling around with many men. She does, in fact, do what I see her doing; I am not deluded; what I see her do is what she does. The only difference is that the Holy Spirit says that I am doing what she is doing!

What I think that I am doing I deny and project it to the woman and see her do it. Whatever I see other people as is what I see me as, for I projected them and their actions out; I had them do what I see them do.

I cannot see any one do something that I did not believe that I did, for otherwise I would not see them do it.

I think that I am a murderer; I project this self-view out and see other people murdering people and thus see them as murderers.

What I am doing is seeing me as a murderer and wanting to arrest and punish me for being a murderer.

If I adopt the Holy Spirit's perception, I will see people murder people, and generally do unloving things to each other and to me but would accept that I projected them out and had them do those things; Hitherto, I had I believed that the son of God, all of us, are guilty and do bad things and ought to be punished, and that I ought to be punished for doing awful things.

If now I accept that though I see people do evil things that they were done in the dream of separation and that the dream has not occurred, that is, if I forgive the dream, which is the same thing as overlooking the world, I would see the people do what seems to me as unloving acts and accept that they have only done so for me in my dream of separation and guilt. I change my mind about them and see them as innocent.

In doing so I see me as innocent despite the awful things I have done in the world; that is, if I forgive other people I forgive me but until I forgive people I cannot forgive me (for other people are me and when I forgive them I forgive me).

I have a dream; that dream is that I am guilty hence I see a guilty world; I projected out a guilty world where folks do bad things to each other and to me; the murderers I see all around me show me my self-perception that I am a murderer and guilty and ought to be punished.

Through the Holy Spirit, I now I still see people do awful things to each other and to me but know that those were done in response to my self-assessment that I am guilty (of separation) and I overlook what they do, that is, I overlook what I do and see them as not having been done, that I have not done the awful things of the world; I now see people as innocent and see me as innocent.

My perception now becomes that people are innocent; I project out an innocent world, not a guilty world.

Continuing, in America, I see a racist world. This means that I think that I am a racist. I projected that view of me out and see white racists and judge them as guilty and want them arrested and punished. That is, I see me as guilty and ought to be arrested and punished.

Now, I see that the racists out there reflect my self-assessment that I am a guilty person; I projected them out and made them do what they are doing, discriminate against me and some other sons of God, black folks.

I did what I see racists do; but they and I did those things in a dream of our guilt (from separation).  But neither they nor I have done what I see them do on earth so we remain innocent.

I overlook their racism; that is, I forgive racists to know that they are innocent and have not separated from God and remain as God created them, unified with God and me and all people.

I now see a forgiven world (that is, I momentarily escape from our world and see the Holy Spirit's reinterpreted version of it, the world of light forms).

A CONDEMNED WORLD

To not forgive what I see people do on earth is to see them as egos and bodies and that separation is real; to see them not as spirits who are still in God but as separated selves hence as guilty selves; that is to see me as guilty, as ego in body and as separated from God, my real self, the son of God.

To not forgive people and see them as innocent is to condemn them and this world to being a guilty world; and since the world is me, this means to condemn me to living in a guilty world, for as I do to other people I have done to me, for I am the world I see.

I condemn people to living in body and fear hence to being in hell.

Recently, I saw a particular woman do something that I felt was unkind and unloving and felt angry at her. I blamed her and saw her as guilty and worthy of punishment. I separated from her, for I do not want to associate with unkind and unloving persons. This is my ego's perception of her.

But the deeper perception is that I feel that I am not a loving person; I feel that I am an unkind person; I projected my negative self-perception to her and to other people and have them do unkind and unloving things to me.

Unkind persons' actions reflect my desire not to be loved by them, hence by me; they reflect my desire not to have people do kind things to me.

I did to me what I see this woman do to me. I projected her out and have her do what I see her do to me.

There is no way she could do bad or good things to me if I had not wanted to experience those things and projected her out to do them to me.

(While doing to me what my ego considers as unkind, naturally, her ego sees her as kind! The ego always see itself as good; even Adolf Hitler saw himself as good even though he murdered over fifty million persons. My ego and your ego always believe that it is innocent; the innocence of the ego requires other egos to be guilty.)

In the meantime, I blamed her for doing unkind things to me and wanted nothing to do with her and separated from her. I verbally attack her by telling her that she is a phony who talks about love but does not behave lovingly.

What I have done is separate from her, that is, from me (both of us is the one son of God); I have attacked me (under the guise of attacking another person).

The Holy Spirit's reinterpretation of my dream is to see her and her actions as my projection; I projected her out and had her do unkind and unloving things to me; since I projected her out and had her do to me what she did to me I did those things to me.

I did those unkind things to me because I wanted to experience what she did to me and did it to me through her. I wanted to experience those unkind things because I believed that I am evil and deserve to experience bad things.

If I had believed that I am a loving person and deserve only love I would have projected her out to love me.

What she and the world did to me reflect my self-concept that I am a guilty person who ought to be punished, who the world ought to do bad things to and hence I project people out who do bad things to me. The bad things people do to me make me angry at them (hence angry at me).

Now, I forgive other people for the bad things they did to me; I see them as innocent for what they did to me was done in a dream and have not been done; moreover, what they did to me reflect what I want done to me, what I did to me through them (them made to seem like they are not me, are other persons).

I change my self-concept, from believing that I separated from God and people hence guilty to believing that I am unified with God and all people.

I now see me as the innocent son of God and since as I see me is how I see all people, I see people as the innocent children of God.

I reinterpret other people's actions; their seeming evil behaviors offered me the opportunity to overlook them and in forgiving them love them.

If I keep going along this path of salvation, eventually, I would project out a forgiven world, the world of light forms where folks love and are kind to each other. I would no longer project out a world where people do bad things to me and to each other.

I now overlook the good and bad behaviors of the people in the world, that is, I overlook my good and bad behaviors and in doing so escape from the egos world and see the forgiven world, the purified world of light forms (what Christianity calls New Jerusalem, New Israel where Christ, that is, love rules...see Revelation chapter of the Bible).

In the meantime, while still in this world I now see me as loveable and kind and project out loving and kind people, people who love me and are kind to me for what I see people do to me is what I want them to do to me based on my self-assessment ( as a guilty or  an innocent person).

White folks discrimination reflects my belief that I am not a loving person (that is, black folk's belief that they do not love persons) and ought to not be loved, and that I ought to be discriminated against.

I projected white folks out and had them discriminate against me; feeling discriminated against I feel angry at them, that is, I feel angry at me; I attack them, that is, I attack me;  and end up living in a conflicted state of mind and society. We live in a world at war with itself.

Since what white folks did to me reflects what I did to me then instead of blaming them I change my perception of me; I now see me as innocent, that is, as not separated from God, and as deserving love (as in union with God and all his creation).

I would thereafter project out white folks who love me, and do not discriminate against me. There is no way that what a son of God (me, you) does not want to experience can happen to him, for the world is  his dream and everything that happens to him is the projection of his mind.

DISCUSSION

I do not expect those who are not students of A course in miracles to understand what I wrote above; indeed, many students of A course in miracles would probably find it difficult to understand what I wrote.

What I did here is use gleanings from the new version of the course I got today to try to clarify what the course is teaching.

In sum, the course teaches that we are all in God. It says that right now all of us, the sons of God, are in God. While still in God we wished to separate from God, to live the opposite of God; God is unified state and we wanted to experience separated state; God is love and we wanted to experience hate.

We could not separate from God. Unable to do so, while still in God, as it were, we went to sleep and in our sleep dream this world.

The dream of separation began from the Big bang to the present and has lasted fourteen billion years.

In the dream we see separated selves housed in bodies, space and time; we project out people who do bad things to us; we did so for we want them to punish us; we want them to punish us because we think that we are guilty from separating from our father and from each other.

Belief in guilt and punishment makes the separation real. But the separation is not real. It is a mere dream.

People have not attacked us, or did so in our mutual dream of separation; even then what we see them do to us is what we did to us via them, for we projected them out and they projected us out.

The people you see do awful things to you and to each other are still innocent for they have not separated from God and what they did to you they did in their dream of separation and what is done in dreams have not been done; the sons of God, all of us, despite what you see them do on earth remain innocent.

CONCLUSION

Recently, a woman that I thought was my friend behaved in a very unloving manner. I went into my ego mode and told her to get lost.  I do not tolerate unkind behaviors from any human being; in my world you are either a loving person or you are kicked out.

This morning, a new version of A course in miracles was given to me; the new book naturally beckoned me to crack it open and read portions of it. I did and got reacquainted with what A course in miracles is teaching.

The snippets that I read made me realize that I did to me what the woman in question did to me; in my dream of separation I believed that I am guilty and not worthy of love hence projected a woman out and through her not love me.

I did to me what she did to me. However, since what she did to me, that is, what I did to me through her, was done in a dream it hasn't been done.

Therefore, she remains innocent; and I remain innocent. The sons of God, us, have been forgiven. Their real self, the self as God created it, not the ego selves they made as replacement and substitute selves they made for them is always innocent and loving.

Even their earthly unloving acts are a call for us to overlook them and in doing so see their real selves, the loving self beneath the unkind ego.

Beneath the lady's unkind ego is a loving son of God; she offered me her unkind ego as a chance for me to overlook it and in doing so see her loving self; and since as I do to her is how I do to me, thus, in forgiving her unkindness I forgive my unkindness to see the loving self in me.

In effect, she has become my savior, for anyone who offered you the opportunity to overlook their unkind egos behaviors so as to see their loving spirit has offered you the opportunity to overlook your own unkind ego to know you as a loving person, and in knowing your loving self you are saved from the unloving ego. You then obtain the gifts of God: peace and joy.

This is the course in sum. Make of it what you like. It may make sense to you or it may seem to you as loads of rubbish.

While at it, please do remember that Helen Schucman, the scribe of A course in miracles, was a genius; she had IQ of 160, and was a mathematician and psychologist and a professor at Columbia University. Your humble interlocutor is in the vicinity of the superior minds of this world. So, do not cavalierly dismiss the thesis of a book that appeals to gifted minds. Just think about what it says, will you?

Ozodi Thomas Osuji, PhD

July 16, 2017

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Wednesday, 12 July 2017 18:25

From criticism to doing

ADDENDUM

FROM CRITICISM TO DOING

Ozodi Thomas Osuji

This morning I talked about my need to be a doer rather than a mere thinker and how doing what one knows is true is better than dedicating one's self to a life of thinking about the nature of phenomena. I forgot to add a point; that point is that one must go from being a mere school boy or teacher to being an adult.

In doing things you find out what is doable and what is not; in mere ideation you can conceive every possible project; it is when you try to do them that you find out which ones can be done and which ones cannot be done in the real world.

It is easy to talk, to be idealistic and from the yardsticks of one's ideals criticize doer; what is difficult is to be a doer; one can have dreams, visions and lofty goals but real leaders are those who try to realize their visions, men who gather men and material and use them to actualize their dreams and hopes for mankind.

School boys, teachers and professors see their world and study them and see what is good or bad in it and write about it. They do not actually do anything to fix the problems they identified but merely talk about them.

For example, in the UK I sat in the House of Commons and observed the proceedings and thereafter observed what the government of Theresa Mays has been doing and decided that she is not a leader in the mode of Margaret Thatcher, whom I also observed while she was in office.

Emmanuel Macron of France is a leader, he is bold, see, he is already engaged in political incorrectness by telling idiot African leaders to stop blaming everyone and get a hold of their governments, to not produce too many children and not steal too much. He states the truth and could care less what you say about him; African leaders are criminals in office but expect the white man and his political correctness not to call him out for what he is: a thief and if called out he cries racism. Well, we must call Nigerian leaders thieves in political offices.

In the USA it is said that those who can do and those who cannot teach. Teachers like me have very little social prestige in the USA; but in Nigeria people run around with the title of professor and kind of think that that makes them important fellows but in the USA that makes them talkers but not doers. Americans respect doers not talkers; they want you to try to implement what you know is true and don't just sit around talking about what is wrong with their country and life in general.

Bold, courageous persons do their bit to improve the world whereas fearful cowards merely talk about the problems of the world. You see, you are allowed to just criticize the world, politicians etc. but when you actually try to improve the world is when you realize the difficulty of doing so; moreover, those with invested interest in the status quo would fight you, even kill you if you are a real threat to their economic interest.

Imagine anyone who accepts some socialism, as I do, trying to bring about a socialist democracy in the USA and how the oligarchs who rule America would look at such a person. They do not mind it if you are at a university and teach leftist doctrines but if you come to the real world and try to change society they will play power politics with you, including getting you to prison and or killing you.

Any way, if you believe in something to be true you must fight for it and don't just talk about it as I have done; live what you believe is the truth.

It is in living your truth that you are fully alive.  Of course, what is your truth may not be another person's truth. Some conservatives, for example, believe in the capitalist political economy and see socialism as rubbish. I myself accept the rational aspects of capitalism but also know that in every competition there will be winners and losers so we have to figure out a way to help the losers of society in social welfare programs, as in the post second world war Labour's Bevin government and  current Scandinavian social programs.

The relevant point is that what one believes is the truth may not be the truth for others and one must expect criticism and opposition and nevertheless be honest to one's self and live ones truth.

For example, I know that our real self is love so I must live love by loving all human beings regardless of their race and gender, white, black, man and woman and child.  If I did not love a human being and gave a rationalisation why I did not do so I would have disobeyed my own personal beliefs and would not respect me; to respect me I must love all people.

In the end the time for mere idealism is over, it is now time for action, praxis. Actions change the world; ideas prepare folks for action, so what matters are actions, doing, not just empty talking and writing.

Ozodi Thomas Osuji

July 12, 2017

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Wednesday, 12 July 2017 11:17

It is now time to go from thinking to doing

 

PHILOSOPHIZING WITHOUT PUTTING THOSE IDEAS TO ACTION IS A WASTE OF TIME

Ozodi Thomas Osuji

I have devoted a lot of my time to reading philosophy, psychology and science; it is not grandiose to say that I know about those subjects as much as any human being does. I am generally a walking encyclopaedia of knowledge.

What is missing from my life is putting ideas to work for me. I read and think but do not put into practice what I have read and especially those that I know are true.

You can have all the knowledge of this world but until you can put some of them into action, do what you read and teach you are not going to benefit from them.

For example, I know as much as any Marxist but I do not put such ideas to work. I probably know about economics as any professor of economics at any American university but I do not put into work what I know. I can train students to obtain the MBA (finance, marketing and accounting are the most useful subfields of that field) and yet I do not put that knowledge to work for me.

Regarding metaphysics, well, I do not need to boast; I am simply second to none in it. Yet, I do not actualize what I know.

So what is holding me back, what is preventing me from living what I know is the truth? I do not know. What I know is that hence forth my goal is to do and not just talk about ideas. I have talked enough about ideas.

Tomorrow I leave London and head on to New York and a day latter to Seattle and thereafter to Anchorage, Alaska. My goal is to put to work the encyclopaedic knowledge in my head. I will start a College where students are taught both scientific and spiritual psychologies (they must already have a bachelor's degree in regular psychology but come to do graduate work leading to MSC and PhD at the college). Secular psychology only does not heal folks; I know that from practicing it for over twenty years.

I have understood my personality. My inherited somatic issues, cytochrome c oxidase deficiency, spondylolysis and mitral valve prolapse, made my body feel traumatized by the activities of daily living; my body, from the day I was born, was on fire; I was stressed and traumatized.

When a person is in trauma he seeks escape from it; he does whatever reduces his physiological tension. Thus, in childhood I sought ways to reduce my physical tension. In a manner of speaking, I developed aspects of avoidant personality disorder in the sense that I avoided many things, including people. With people I anticipated rejection from them and felt anxious around them and to avoid the anxiety withdrew from people; I kept to myself and read. All I have done with my life is read and read some more.

I returned to Alaska five years ago already one room in my apartment is filled with books; my house is generally a library, often larger than some public libraries.

I do everything that I do rather fast. I write very fast; I type very fast, perhaps, I type over 100 words a minute; it takes me only a few minutes to type several pages, what average persons' belabour over for hours.

Why do I do things very fast? My physical stress and tension required me to do things quickly and get them done and over with and go relax. I write quickly and do everything quickly to reduce my somatic tension from those activities (when I am writing I feel tension in my fingers, hands and shoulders so I write quickly to get it done).

When I was a student, say, secondary school, ask a question on an examination, say, on history, literature etc. and I would write twenty pages on it and other students probably could not write two pages during the allotted time interval. Teachers used to come to me and ask how I am able to write so many pages and do it quickly; some of the more unintelligent ones doubted that a boy could write and tell him all he needed to know, say, about the history of England in an examination and accuse me of copying the answers before the examination. My school days was interesting, for, clearly. I knew more than most of my teachers.

One of the lessons I learned during my undergraduate education at the University of Oregon is that my body is under tension most of the time and how to reduce that somatic tension. Thus, in the evenings I do systematic relaxation of all parts of my body, from my feet to my head; during these relaxation exercises I could see tension oozing out of my body! I then do meditation for an hour to calm down my mind.

If one's body is tense and anxious one's mind is filled with stress, anxiety and fear; thinking done when one's mind is in a state of fear is not useful.

It is when one relaxes one's body and mind that one can think without fear and therefore can think clearly.

When my body and mind is calm I can do physics as well as the top physicists in the world but when my body is tense I cannot have the mindfulness to solve even simple equations. It is somatic tension that led me not to make physics my major for I am incredibly good at it.

I believe that physicists tend to be those with calm bodies and minds; they have the calmness needed to do mathematics which physics needs.

Well, as I learn to relax my body and mind I find myself able to do what as a kid I could not do or found difficult to do.

Regarding Nigerians, Africans and black folks in general I believe that they are too primitive to be relevant in the extant world. Most of them do not even have the mental ability to understand my writing. I believe that it would take Nigeria and Africa, may be, another five hundred years before real human beings who can think emerge from Africa.

In the meantime one must accept that Africa is the home of dunces who do not know their left from their right hand. I expect Nigerians to be thieves; I do not have the illusion that they can see money and not steal it. They cannot tax themselves and use the tax revenue to run their idiot government. They do not even want to pay tax. They depend on revenue from oil to support their criminal governments. When oil runs out Nigeria would collapse, and become another failed African state. There is no way this can be avoided.

Moreover, Nigerians are freaking cowards; each of them wants to live forever and at all costs and is afraid of death. He knows that to fight for good government some people have to die.

The tree of liberty is watered with patriots' blood. But in Nigeria no one wants to die fighting for good government. Thus, they tolerate the criminals who rule them.

Nigerian politicians are literally, not figuratively thieves; they go into government not to serve the people but to steal from the national treasury and occupy positions that gratify their narcissistic need to feel like they are bush important persons.

Nigerian leaders have total contempt for Nigerians, for they know that the people just complain and talk but would not stand up and like men fight for good government.

Nigerians are cowards; their ancestors sold their people into slavery and the slaves in America and Arabia did not fight for freedom but tolerated white and Arab abuse.

Black folks are cowards; cowards to not produce good government.  I have given up on Africans and do not expect them to govern themselves well.

My European tour is now over. Tomorrow, I fly to New York and a day later to Seattle and thereafter to Anchorage, Alaska. In Alaska I will seek money to start my own college where we give bright students graduate education in both secular and spiritual psychology.

I know that my putative students would be mostly middle class whites; Africans don't even have the mindfulness to introspect about their plight; all they do is blame the white man for their issues. Anyway, my target market is middle class white folks; Africans are not yet ready for the type of knowledge we intend to teach.

I will not have African faculty for those like their kin in Africa are not yet professionals who give their all to their students; instead, they seek shortcuts and often steal from whatever organization you bring them to work in. I do not want thieves around me. They destroy whatever organization hires them and I would rather not deal with their thieving and ego related issues (they are always struggling for prestige and instead of doing the work want to be the leader even as they do not understand that the leader is the person who has the vision to start a business, gather people to realize it and not just a man who wants to seem an African big man).

Finally, I go from the world of contemplation, thinking and reading to doing; it is now time to put into practice the tremendous knowledge in my head.

I will no longer give away ideas for free; what people did not pay for they do not take seriously; from now on folks have to buy my over sixty books and read them and go to my website and pay to read posts there (I will use PayPal to charge folks to read articles on my website).

The time for free goods is now over.

Ozodi Thomas Osuji

July 12, 2017

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IDEALISM IS ROOTED IN PERCEPTION OF THE UTTER POINTLESSNESS OF THE WORLD AND DESIRE TO IMPROVE IT HENCE MAKE IT WORTH LIVING FOR

Ozodi Thomas Osuji

When folks hear that one is an idealist they fancy one not a realistic person. They have an idea of who an idealist is: a naïve person who is not realistic; they see the realist as a tough skinned and hardnosed person who accepts the world and people as they are.

For example, the realistic accepts Charles Darwin's idea of evolution and twist given it by Herbert Spenser, the idea that we are in a struggle where the strongest survive and the weakest die out. In competition a few win and the less able to struggle lose. It is said that the realist takes this view of the world in stride and competes and does not care for losers.

Actually, this is a naïve view of what realism and idealism is. Generally, what folks call realists are not very intelligent folk; in terms of IQ they generally have less IQ than idealistic persons.

Consider the English idiot evolutionary biologist called Richard Dawkins. He said that we have selfish genes (Edward Wilson in social-biology makes similar assumptions) and do what we do for the survival of our genes, in us and in our progeny.

How about those who sacrifice for the group? Has this idiot been in the military and seen soldiers sacrifice their lives for their comrades; has he seen Muslim jihadists dying for the future of their Islam?

Dawkins is a silly academic who has lived his entire life in the ivory tower and is fed by the British tax payers; he has no clue about the human motivation and behaviours. If we are motivated by selfishness what motivates soldiers to die for their country? Is there no such thing as motivation by need for the good?

Idealism is rooted in acute perception of reality as it is but refusal to accept it on its terms and struggle to change it. The idealist is able to see that existence in body and ego is utterly pointless, purposeless and meaningless.

We live for, may be, 100 years and die. Evidence points to the fact that we are animals and like other animals live and die and disappear from existence. This is what observation shows us; we are nothing of importance. Our bodies are just meat, not different from the flesh of cows and cattle.

Look at a beautiful girl. She probably arouses your sexual fancy. Now look at her from an objective perspective. She is a beautiful body, alright. That beautiful twenty years old body in fifty years would age and look disgusting.

Have you seen older women, say, those from age seventy upwards, do they look sexual to you? They look yukky.

That beautiful body will die and is eaten by worms and bacteria. That beautiful body is food being prepared for worms. Indeed, that beautiful body does poop and the poop, faeces smells worse than garbage.

If you like the scientific approach, that beautiful body is composed of matter which is composed of elements; the human body has sixty four elements in it, the primary ones are carbon, hydrogen, oxygen and nitrogen; there are trace elements such as potassium, calcium, magnesium, phosphor, zinc, copper, and iron in the human body.

Elements are different arrangements of atoms. Each atom has protons, neutrons and electrons with different quantities of them in each; for example, hydrogen has one proton and one electron, some hydrogen has isotypes, have neutrons in it; carbon has six electrons, six protons and six neutrons; oxygen has eight electrons, eight protons and eight neutrons; you go down the periodic table until you reach number 92, uranium with 92 electrons, 92 protons and 146 neutrons.

Our bodies are composed things that will eventually decompose. The atoms will decompose and the particles will decompose to quarks and photons and ultimately they will all end up as photons and photons end up in whatever they came from during the big bang 13.8 billion years ago.

The point is that where you see our bodies are elements, particles and photons and, ultimately, nothing. We are therefore at the physical level nothing.

Our bodies have no worth. If you cremate the typical human body you reduce it to three pounds of ashes that have no monetary value; your entire body is not even worth a penny, a cent!

How about that for the importance of your body, the body you are proud of and enslaved yourself to working hard to earn the means to support it.

You work twelve hour days to support a body that would die, decay and smell worse that shit. So much for your beautiful body!

The idealist in childhood quickly appreciates that his body and all bodies and society in general are worthless. Life in body is totally pointless and worthless.

As the German idealistic philosopher, Arthur Schopenhauer, observed in his book, World as will and idea, it were better that human beings did not exist; the universe apparently made a mistake in producing human beings.

At the moral level, just consider what people to do; they screw each other up to make a living and then they die and are eaten by common bacteria; they are nothing and it were better they did not exist.

This objective presentation of the human condition probably grosses you up, does it not? It probably makes you see me as pessimistic, doesn't it?

If you have a good enough intellect to appreciate human existence as it is you must be pessimistic; optimism is for morons, really. It is the mildly mentally retarded that take nothingness as something important.

The philosopher always sees life as pointless (existentialist thinkers like Sartre, Camus, Jasper, and Heidegger built their philosophies on the meaningless of being human). He is always pessimistic although like Horace he could seize the day, do what he can today for tomorrow he will die; like epicures he says enjoy the nothingness for you will die; like stoics he says grind your teeth and take it like a man but do not expect it to be a bed of roses and don't complain about it. The point is that life on earth is pointless.

The idealist to be is aware of the pointlessness of being and how being ought to not be. But instead of accepting this reality and perhaps die (some commit suicide) he hopes that perhaps with ideation, mentation, cognition, thinking, imagination that he can improve the world.

Idealism is a chimeric attempt to improve shit and make it a better shit; it is futile for shit remains shit.

Igbos say that life is like the human anus and that no matter how much soap you use in washing it that it would still smell of faeces.

Life in body is pointless but the idealist wants to make it desirable; he wants to justify living by using his mind to wish for a better life in body.

He uses his imagination to visualize how beautiful his body could become and to accomplish it embarks on rigorous exercises and eating well; he posits an idealized body and pursues it; he uses the imaginary ideal body he posited to judge his own body and all bodies and find them not good enough and despairs.

He knows that his ego self is imperfect and he posits an idealized, perfect ego self and wants to become it; he uses the ego ideal to judge his own ego and other egos and find them not good enough and despairs.

He posits how society and government ought to become ideal to replace the current shitty society.

For example, if truth is said, Nigerians are garbage in human bodies; just about all they know how to do is steal; they cannot govern themselves well; put them in government and they steal from it. If you observe them with objective eyes you despair from their depredation. But you can imagine that in the future they would improve and become less criminally oriented.

That is not going happen! They are cowards who are afraid of standing up and fighting for justice and therefore will always tolerate abusive governments, just as their ancestors tolerated been enslaved by Arabs and Europeans in America; their leaders are always cowards who know only how to steal from them but not work for their good.

Nothing good is going to come out of Africa, certainly not soon.  The idealist does not give up on Africans, on human beings and their government; he uses his mind and imagination to come up with how man and his society can be improved and struggle towards meeting that chimera.

If he were to accept the evidence of his eyes he would conclude that man is worse than predatory animals and, as such, ought to be wiped off the face of the earth.

This was how Adolf Hitler thought; he was an right wing, fascist idealist (to make Germans ideal people, ala Hegel's philosophy) and then realized that they are not going to become ideal so he wanted to kill all of them and gave Albert Speer the order to destroy all Germans...see Hitler, Mein Kampf; also see Albert Speer, inside the Third Reich.

The point is that idealism is perception of things as they are and refusal to accept them as they are; the idealist has idealistic wishes that one can improve ugly reality.

You cannot improve shit and make it less smelly. Garbage is garbage. People will always be garbage and you either accept them as they are or you leave them. People are not going to be perfect and you might as well accept them as incurably imperfect and that their governments and society will be imperfect.

You can see life in ego and body as a dream that cannot become perfect and accept it at that level and hope that there are better dreams and that ultimately there is a life that is not a dream and that life must be outside body and ego, outside space and time; this is the mystic's solution to the nonsense that is human life.

One can also see people as they are and not expect them to improve and leave it at that. If you do not have desire for improved people you will not be disappointed if they do not improve. If you want peace and emotional equanimity do not expect people to be better than you see them; that is, give up your idealism for your idealistic goals are not going to come into being.

The point I have made here is that the idealist is aware of what folks call realism but refuses to accept it because it is too awful for him to contemplate.

Consider the American conservative; he fancies himself realistic. He makes money and lives well. But fifty million Americans do not have health insurance and many of them do not have money to go to college, yet the conservative does not feel appalled by this dreadful situation. What does that make him in your eyes?

In my eyes the white American conservative is a sub human being; I have total contempt for American Republicans; it were better that they did not exist, for their emotional and mental state is less developed than those of dogs.

This does not mean that I like American liberals; those have not seen any deviant behaviour that they do not want to embrace. Instead of fighting for economic equality they fight for so-called transgendered men to have access to the same bathrooms with six year old girls. The American liberal is on track to not only approve homosexuality but paedophilia and bestiality. He will fight for these silly issues instead of fight for economic justice.

One is not naïve and knows that there are individual differences in intellect and physical vigour so no matter what you do to improve society there will be winners and losers but, at least, men of good will ought to give all children access to education at all levels: elementary, secondary, university and technical vocational paid by the public and give all people publicly paid health insurance. Having done that people are then left to compete and some will win and others lose.

The poor will always be with us but, at least, we try to help them but to ignore them as American Republicans do while masquerading around as Christians is sickening. I am ashamed to be a member of the same human race with conservative Americans.

Look, I am not writing political ideology here. My present goal is the clarification of the roots of idealism in objective grasp of reality. I hope that I have made that point.

Tomorrow, I will be in London and, the next day, go to New York. My compulsive desire to share ideas with folks, for now, comes to an end.

Cheers,

Ozodi Thomas Osuji

July 11, 2017

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