From Ozodi Osuji's Daily Journal
BODILY ISSUES MAKES ONE FEEL BODY SELF CONSCIOUS HENCE UNABLE TO CONCENTRATE ON SPIRITUAL MATTERS
Mind outside body is calm and serene, peaceful and loving and eternal; it does not feel fear or anger for it knows that nothing can happen to it.
The moment mind enters body and identifies with body it knows that body is vulnerable and can be hurt or killed and wanting to live it feels fear and anger at what could harm it.
In body mind is unease. If body is not feeling well, say, from constipation mind is rattled and cannot be at ease.
A troubled body makes mind preoccupied with ego defenses and physical defenses to make itself feel better before it can think of higher order thoughts like spirituality or even learn about abstract subjects such as science and technology.
Therefore, a proper psychology must be based on body and mind; one must not pursue spirituality that deny the present human reality of body; on earth body is the present reality that people have to deal with.
A sick body leads to a mind being not at ease hence unable to even learn at school or do abstract thinking and work.
LEADERSHIP MEANS PUTTING ONES ENERGY TO TRYING TO REALIZE A GOAL; SO WHAT GOAL AM I TRYING TO ACCOMPLISH?
Leadership is of the ego and body, of this world of egos and bodies, not of spirit for spirit outside body has no needs and therefore no need to organize to meet its needs.
Leadership means using one's ability to work with other people to get them to help one do what serves public good.
So what areas of life am I trying to serve common good, even if in the process I make money from doing so?
Teaching body mind science is the area I make contribution to life; leadership means organizing a school that teaches body and mind science.
MY EGO HATES IT IF A WHITE POLICE MAN OR JUDGE PRESIDES OVER ME FOR IT MAKES ME FEEL SMALL AND POWERLESS
I do not like any white person in authority to tell me what to do for it makes my ego feel small and powerless.
This means that I have an ego that wants to feel powerful. It is my personality and should not be denied.
Black persons in authority also make me feel powerless; therefore, the issue is not a race thing but is accentuated by my resentment of white power over black folks.
The issue is rooted in my ego's desire to seem powerful; that desire for power confronts people who make me feel powerless.
This is who I am. It is rooted in my problematic weak body; my spirit is trying to survive despite the weak body it inhabits.
Ego grandiosity is a response to weak body. One cannot wish away ones nature but one can understand it and ameliorate it.
As long as one lives in a problematic body one will feel a need for power and superiority; neurosis is always going to be part of one's psychological make up.
It is wishful thinking to believe that one can give up the wish for power and retain ones problematic body.
It is only healthy bodies that can have balanced desire for power and love. One can make good use of ones wish for power and use it to become an assertive person in society without degrading people.
The desire not to allow anyone to dominate one can be used to become a powerful person in society, have a goal and doggedly pursue it and achieve it hence become a successful person and make money for one and one's family.
Denying one's reality is stupid and does not solve the problem. If life gives you lemon then make lemonade with it.
Avoiding persons in authority to avoid feeling powerless is escapist, and not the solution. The solution is to reduce my ego's desire for power so that folks in authority no longer make me feel powerless.
If it were possible to eliminate the ego entirely that would be ideal but as we know if one is in body one must have ego, for ego is spirit in body struggling to survive in vulnerable body.
DELUSION DISORDER IS WISHING TO BE POWERFUL AND BELIEVEING THAT ONE IS IN FACT POWERFUL; IN DELUSION DISORDER WISHING HAS BECOME ONES REALITY. THE DELUDED PERSON HAS NO DOUBT THAT HE IS SUPERIOR TO OTHER PEOPLE; HE SEEMS CONFIDENT AND ENGAGES IN GRANDIOSE ACTIONS THAT WILL FAIL. DR. OLUMBA AND EJ ARE THIS WAY
NEUROSIS IS WISHING TO BE POWERFUL BUT REALIZING THAT ONE IS NOT POWERFUL; THE TWO STATES, WISH FOR POWER AND POWERLESSNESS CONFLCIT INSIDE THE NEUROTIC HENCE HE HAS SELF DOUBT AND IS PARAYIZED AND IMMOBILIZED AND DOES NOT ACCOMPLISH ANYTHING.
FIRST MY REALITY MUST BE ACKNOWLEDGED AND LATER DENIED WITH A COURSE IN MIRACLES' REALITY
One must first acknowledge one's personal reality before one can deny it and then accept the spiritual reality that A course in miracles is teaching. My physical issues make my body and the world of dreams seem real to me. When I know that my body does not exist then I would no longer have physical issues for I would have transcended body, ego and the world of space and time.
I had to pursue a big ego. I began pursuing that big ego before I saw white folks. I first associated big ego with rich Nigerians and wanted to be like them and then associated it with white middle class folks and want to be like them. It is because those folks represent, for me, my desire for important big self that led me to want to be like them.
I had a wishful self, I was always wishing to be like the well to-do; my wistfulness is my attempt to adapt to the world of ego on its terms, big terms.
Now I must let go of the ego and keep quiet and experience the world of light forms, and then return to the world of the ego to teach folks how to attain ego transcendence.
With direct connection to the power of God, Holy Spirit I would have the ability to generate wealth and power to do the work I need to do and create beautiful buildings for people to look at. I love beauty and hate America's ugly wooden buildings, I want buildings built with cement and meant to last thousands of years.
MY PHYSICAL REALITY AND PSYCHOLOGICAL RESPONSE TO IT
My reality is that my body is on fire, it has burning sensation all the time, especially after walking, running and doing other exercises or eating food, drinking coffee etc.
This sense of physical disease led me from day one of my life to seek a better body, hence disposed me to idealism and desire for power to bring about the ideal self.
IDEAL SELF AND PURSUIT OF IT IS REALITIC RESPONSE TO MY BODY
In childhood, I constructed an ideal self, a powerful self and wanted to become it. If other people approve it I feel good if not I feel bad. This is my life's trajectory; it was necessary for me to do so given my physical inheritance. This physical nature and psychological response is found in me, my father and grandfather. To deny it is to be stupid.
A COURSE IN MIRACLEES DENIAL OF OUR WORLD
Having acknowledged my personal reality, then I listen to what A course in miracles teaches and see if it is doable. What does it teach?
It teaches that the world we see with our physical eyes does not exist, is a dream, an illusion that seems to exist but in truth does not exist.
It teaches that matter, our bodies, separated ego selves, space and time, the world we see with our nonexistent eyes does not exist.
It teaches that I am in a dream; I am walking around in a dream world that does not exist, the space and time I walk in does not exist; the body with which I walk around does not exist, the food I eat has not been eaten; people having sex have done no such thing, except as in dreams. People been born, dying and having pain did not experience such things; they are dream perceptions (all perception is dream and not real).
EACH PERSON IS RESPONSIBLE FOR HIS DREAM HENCE NO ONE EELSE TO BLAME FOR HIS FATE
Each person is having his own personal dream; all of our dreams dovetail into a collective dream where we influence each other's dreams, but each person is nevertheless responsible for his dreams.
Because each person is responsible for his dream no one can take responsibility for others issues; one cannot be blamed for other people's issues, nor can one blame others for one's issues, although we all do affect each other.
OVERLOOK THE WORLD TO SEE ANOTHER DREAM WORLD, THE WORLD OF LIGHT FORMS BUT YOU CANNOT SEE BOTH AT THE SAME TIME
Since the world is a dream that does not exist, what is done in it has not been done; no one is to be blamed; no one is a victim or victimizer. All that needs to be done is to overlook the dream; overlook the world, overlook what you see people do for they are not good or bad; nothing is taking place in the world for it does not exist.
I am not walking in the world of dreams, There is no point A and B for me to go to; there is no food for me to eat; there is no woman for me to have sex with; it is all dream activities.
Therefore, A course in miracles tells me to let go of the dream and have no judgement of it as good or bad, just let it go.
You escape it by letting it go.
While still in the dream if you know that it is a dream where each person has his own dream you live peacefully; you see dream people come and go and do their dream things and you know that it is all done in a dream. If you do so your mind is peaceful and happy with nothing of the world in it.
JESUS WAS AWARE THAT THE WORLD IS A DREAM; HE WOKE UP FROM IT AND OCCASIONALLY REENTERED IT TO HELP PEOPLE IN THE DREAM UNTIL HE ALLOWED HIS BODY TO SEEM CRUCIFIED AND HE RESURRCTED AND THEN DISAPPEARED AND NOW LIVE IN THE WORLD OF LIGHT FORMS, WAITING FOR ALL OF US TO RESURRECT AND JOIN HIM AND FROM THERE WE ALL RETURN TO GOD. JESUS CANNOT RETURN TO GOD UNTIL ALL OF US AWAKEN SO WE KEEP HIM WAITING IN THE WORLD OF LIGHT FORMS, THE GATE OF HEAVEN, WE RELEASE HIM AND RETURN WITH HIM TO HEAVEN, TO FORMLESS LIGHT STATE, WHEN WE ARE RESURRECTED AND JOIN HIM IN LIGHT FORMS. WHEN ALL HUMAN BEINGS HAVE DONE SO, EVEN IF IT TAKES BILLIONS OF YEARS, WE RETURN HOME. WE ALL LEFT HOME AT THE SAME TIME AND WILL RETURN HOME AT THE SAME TIME
If you know that the world is a dream and forgive it, overlook it, keep your mind without ego thinking in it, is peaceful, you awaken to the world of light forms and now know that the world is a dream.
You may stay in the world of light forms or you may reenter the dream of dense forms to help people to awaken and when you have had enough you see your body translated to light form and do not have to die, for there is no such thing as death to begin with.
Death and birth is a magic for keeping those in the dream to believe that the dream is real.
TALK RELIGION AND SPIRITUALITY AND BE POOR
If one is preoccupied with religion, spirituality and God one will be poor. This is because God and his spirit are outside the phenomenal world and do not help us adapt to the phenomenal world.
When spirit manifests in body, space and time it confronts what would seem to destroy it (it came to body to experience the opposite of eternity, death) and must struggle to survive; it must take body into consideration.
Even though to spirit body is nothing and does not exist but in the present world it is not okay to live in poverty as folks who pursue spirit do, for example, Hindu Indians.
Life in body is nothing, as A course in miracles says, but if spirit is not going to make life in body pleasant by giving folks food etc. then it is useless for folks on earth.
It takes ego to decide what it needs to live in its house of nothingness, body and do it. If God is not going help it that God is shut up.
To say that the son of God ought to wake up by giving y up desire for the world of body is nice but you have to show who has done that except Jesus Christ.
Spirituality asks folks to deny body while they live in body and not do what they have to do to survive in body; if you overlook body you die and wake up in spirit, if spirit exists, and if there is no spirit you end and that is your choice.
However, if you want to live in body you need to understand body through science and make the most of it, of nothingness.
ARISTOTLE'S LOGICAL THINKING DOES NOT LEAD TO FINDING THE TRUTH, IT JUST ENABLES ONE TO THINK LOGICALLY
Aristotelian logical thinking is how normal people think but that does not mean that they are stating the truth.
Mad men, schizophrenics, avoid Aristotelian logical thinking and think in their own way and we say that they are illogical. Who knows who is doing the right thing, since normalcy does not lead to truth? I do not know
TWENTY EIGHT YEARS OF SPIRITUALITY IS ENOUGH FOR ME; I RETURN TO DOING WHAT I HAVE TO DO TO LIVE WELL IN THIS WORLD; I DO NOT WANT TO BE POOR ANY MORE.
TALKING ABOUT THE ROLE OF BODY AND MIND IS WHAT MAKES SENSE TO ME AND WHAT SCIENCE MUST DO AND I DO IT AND MAKE A LIVING FROM IT.
EVERY PERSON AROUND ME IS POOR JUST BECAUSE I AM TALKING SPIRITUALITY; A LITTLE BIT OF MATERIAL THINGS WOULD MAKE THEM HAPPY IN THIS WORLD; I IGNORED THEIR NEEDS AND FOCUSED ON GOD AND THAT GOD IS OF NO USE TO ME AND THEM.
MY CALLING IS NOT TO DENY BODY AND TALK ONLY ABOUT SPIRIT BUT BOTH
July 3, 2016