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We always have a self

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There Is Always A Self That Wants To Be Something Else; Stop Trying To Be Something Else And Live From No Particular Thing That The Self Wants To Become

Ozodi Osuji

Building on self-observation, I know that there is always a self in me (and in each human being); that self in me wants to be something else; first, it wants to be the body it lives in; then it finds that body not good enough and wants to become an ideal body; then it realizes that even ideal bodies do die and rot and therefore it no longer wants to be an ideal body.

Having rejected body made of matter it wants to live ln light form; light lasts for as long as the physical universe lasts (it has lasted about 14 billion years and will last another trillions of years to come); so the self wants to be in light form to last trillions of years.

When the universe came into being there was initially one wave of light and that light separated into infinite photons.

No more than one percent of those photons combined into electrons, quarks, and quarks formed protons and neutrons; those combined to form atoms and the atoms became stars, galaxies, planets, plants and animals.

Ninety nine percent (99%) of photons are still not inside matter; matter is only 1% of the universe and even that 1% does decay back to photons thus only photons of light exist in the universe.

So if I live in photons form I last trillions of years.

THE SELF, THE I IS THE SON OF GOD

The self, the I is the son of God who is one with God. That self tries to separate from God and invented matter and bodies and now seem to live in the world of matter; it tries very hard to be body but it is not body. That self, the I is eternal but take on many guises; it tries to be many things that it is not.

REMOVE ALL THE THINGS THE SELF WANTSTO BECOME AND IT IS SIMPLY THE SELF, A PART OF GOD

If you remove all the things that the self is trying to become, like socially important self, rich self, powerful self, man or woman (and in the present West changes its gender and be this or that gender); simply stop trying to be any self-other than the real self and know peace and joy and sense of eternity.

The things the self is trying to become are chimera and do not last long, those are clothes it wears to seem like them.

HERE IS THE TRUTH

I have a self; that self-invented an idealized body and self and place it outside me and strive to become it; the self in me tries to become a perfect, ideal self.

I placed the picture of the ideal self-outside me and struggle to become it; I am not the ideal, perfect self and cannot become it.

Now, I give up all desire to become a perfect, ideal self; I stop all efforts to be separated self in body; I stop all desire to be body and the result is that my self knows inner calm and peace; it knows itself to be eternal and therefore no longer feels threatened (only the ideal self can feel threatened by things trying to expose it as a false self).

When the real self is accepted one is peaceful and fearless and does not have anger, depression, paranoia and mental disorders; one knows one's self as pure intelligence, an intelligence that did everything one has experienced in one's life and an intelligence that is part of universal intelligence that invented our collective dreams (this world is our shared, collective dream).

It is my real self, part of unified spirit self, which is the eternal son of God, that placed me (itself) inside my problematic body to experience its craziness; it is it that placed itself in my parents family; it is it that made me born where I was born; it is it that chose my parents, society and the time in history I live in; it is that universal self in me that made everything I experience (it is that son of God, self that made the separated ego self  as a substitute self to dream with, to experience life in body, life on earth with).

THE SON OF GOD IS ALWAYS INNOCENT

The eternal self, the son of God that is as God created him, one with God and all his brothers, is always innocent;  the separated self it invented does all kinds of crazy things, including not loving it and not loving other selves hence our crazy world.

What then should I do: I must  accept my eternal spirit self and accept  the eternal self in all people; I must see our ego dances in body as dreams and overlook them; may be, I talk to other egos about the real self.

MY PRIMARY FUNCTION IS TO ACCEPT MY REAL SELF

My primary duty is to live from my eternal self and live its peace and joy; that is, my function is to heal my mind (healing occurs when I relinquish the ego and regain awareness of our unified mind and live from it).

I must not desire to be this or that self; I must not desire to separate from God (unified self) and be an ego at war with itself trying to separate from itself.

The son of God, my real self, invented the ego and wants to become it and its house, body; I must stop trying to become ego and body.

In desisting from all efforts to be a self apart from my real self I become enlightened to the light self that God created me as.

God is one continuous wave of light and each of us is a unit, particle in it; the wave and particle share oneself; there is no separation in light, in God.

As an enlightened self (living in the light of God) I model living from it to all people.

NOTHING EXTERNAL CAN HAPPEN TO ME UNLESS I WANT TO EXPERIENCE IT

Nothing external can happen to me, for it is my eternal self in cahoots with other eternal selves that makes me experience whatever I experience.

Radical Muslims, such as ISIS and Boko Haram, cannot harm me for it is my eternal self and their eternal selves that make them seem like they can harm me; we do so to make me feel fearful and fight them, Muslims.

Americans and Western egos make it seem like Muslim egos can harm them so that they give their egos reasons to be fearful and defensive towards them and separate from Muslims.

Now I leave radical Muslim alone for they are crazy egos; if I care, I teach radical Muslims by example how the real self can live in peace without trying being this or that kind of self.

RAMANA MAHARSHI IS CORRECT IN ASKING FOLKS TO FIND OUT WHO THE ETERNAL SELF IN THEM IS

Ramana Maharishi says: know the real self in you that tries to be this or that ego separated self and be it; that real self is eternal spirit, is peaceful and harmless, is innocent but when it takes on separated ego and body and tries to be important in body it can harm other egos in bodies, all done in dreams of life in bodies. He urges people to overlook the separated ego and body and live from their real selves.

LIBERATION FROM THE EGO

Liberation from the ego and its world means not trying to be any self that I can conceptualize and want to become; I must desist from trying to be one type of self or another; I must stop trying to be body; I must stop trying to be moral or amoral; I must stop trying to be anything outside me and simply stay quiet and be the self that I am already, the son of God (Atman) who is one with God (Brahman).

WHO AM I?  I AM THE HOLY SON OF GOD

Who am I? I am not the ego self; I am not a body; I am not the ego ideal; I am not rich, powerful and anything the world construes; I am simply part of an unknown self (unknown to the ego and world); I am part of the permanent, eternal and changeless self, aka God.

In relaxing into that real self I know peace and joy, bliss.

ONE'S PERSONALITY IS INEVITABLE from THE MOMENT ONE IS CONCEIVED IN ONES MOTHER'S WOMB

I must accept that my ego personality was made possible by my body issues and the crazy Igbo society that I lived in; with my genetic inheritance and social experience I had to be the ego self that I am.

I chose my body and personality; they were not given to me without my desire. Now I accept that my ego self is inevitable to my biological and social inheritance and then choose to detach from my body and personality and instead live from the real self.

My ego self was not an accident; it was the product of my body; it is inevitable; every persons ego personality is inevitable.

I chose the body I was born in and from the moment of conception my personality is set in the womb. Now I study my body and personality and accept its inevitability and not blame anyone else for it, not my parents and society.

If one is fearful, angry, depressed, paranoid, manic, schizophrenic, and whatever ones ego type is one had to be so given one's body and one chose that body; one is not an accident.

Genetic oriented psychologists are correct in stating that genes determine mental disorders but they forgot that the individual chose his genes and mental disorder.

EACH PERSON AND GROUP CHOSE HIS PERSONALITY, NORMAL OR ABNORMAL

If you see peoples crazy personalities, such as paranoid Igbos you must accept that they chose to be so; they chose their problematic bodies, families and societies to enable them develop egos that seek superiority to other people hence generate social conflicts for them.

Igbos chose their neurosis; are experiencing what they want to experience and they do so for me to learn about them and from their obvious insanity learn about the lunacy of egos and choose not to be an ego and body and live an enlightened existence.

OTHER PEOPLES CRAZY BEHAVIORS HELPED ME BECOME ENLIGHTENED

Crazy Igbos helped me to become enlightened (by observing their crazy egos and deciding not to be like them); I return the favor to them by modeling enlightened, peaceful living for them so that they stop looking for wealth and power from outside them; they helped me find peace; now my peace, the peace of God, I give to them. They helped me save me and now I help them save themselves.

ONLY THE INDIVIDUAL CAN SAVE HIS SELF

I cannot save Igbos and other people but can show them what salvation is so that they choose to be saved when they want to be saved, in this life time or next life times (each of them has already chosen when he is going to be saved; I chose to be saved in this life time hence set obstacles for me to experience and in stop trying to become an ideal ego I remember my real self, one with God).

HUMAN CIVILIZATION IS A STRUGGLE TO MAKE THE HUMAN EGO AND BODY REAL

Human civilization is a struggle to make the ego and ego seem real and enjoy body via food and sex. Defense of ego and body is effort to deny our real self, spirit (it is done via pleasure or pain and poverty, wars and death, all illusions).

NORMAL PEOPLE ACCEPT THEIR EGOS AND BODIES AND RELATE TO THEMSELVES AND TO THE OTHER PEOPLE FROM THAT ACCEPTANCE OF THE UNREAL SELF; NORMAL PEOPLE LIVE IN GREATER UNREAL STATE

I relate to myself and to other people from the perspective of the idealized self. That is, I had rejected my ego and body and rejected other people's egos and bodies and posited idealized, unreal selves and try to relate to me and other people from the perspective of the unreal self; as a result I could not relate well to other people and to me.

My relationship with people was strained; I did not see eye to eye with other people for I was relating to them from different parameters (imaginary ego ideals and perfect standards).

IGBOS, NIGERIANS, AFRICANS AND ALL PEOPLE MANIFESTED TO HEAL ME SO THAT I SHOW THEM HOW TO HEAL THEMSELVES; I MUST THEREFORE BE GRATEFUL TO MY CRAZY BROTHERS

Igbos and I agreed for me to become saved in this life time so as to teach them how to save themselves; I am their ancient Dibia, their high priest who came back to help them learn about their conflict ridden life styles.

I am now saved and must show them how to save themselves; it is our game. I also chose to learn from Nigerians, Africans, black people and human beings in general hence I compulsorily went to their forums to learn about their insane behaviors and writings and from them decided not to be like them, not to be insane.

The entire world enabled me to become saved; our mutual agreement (hidden secret from all of us) is for me to be saved and then show them what salvation is, at the intellectual and experiential level.

In as much as they volunteered to show me what insanity is so that I learn and heal myself  I must therefore be grateful to all people, including crazy paranoid Igbos like the paranoid psychopath, Nebu, for they enabled me to understand the nature of mental disorder and then heal it in me and teach them what is mental health, show them how to heal themselves (many of them may not heal themselves in this life time; Nebu is so sick, that is, lacking in love that he cannot heal himself, learn love, in this life time).

Mental health is living from the real self; the real self is a loving self hence mental health is living from the loving self.

First, I heal me; second, I show Igbos, Nigerians, Africans, Black Americans and white folks how to heal themselves, in that order.

I learned from crazy whites that they, too, need healing...right now they are addicted to sex and homosexuality and need to be healed from that addiction by been shown that health lies in love of spirit not body...this is not a moral issue though.

They will only learn when they are ready. You give to your sisters what they ask;  you  give to them and thereafter teach them that there is a better way; for example,  initially, I had sex with women, gave them what they and I asked for, and later learned that sex is not the solution to our/their existential angst, return to spirit, love.

Ozodi Osuji

August 25, 2016

www.centerformindscience.org

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Ozodi Osuji Ph.D

Ozodi Thomas Osuji is from Imo State, Nigeria. He obtained his PhD from UCLA. He taught at a couple of Universities and decided to go back to school and study psychology. Thereafter, he worked in the mental health field and was the Executive Director of two mental health agencies. He subsequently left the mental health environment with the goal of being less influenced by others perspectives, so as to be able to think for himself and synthesize Western, Asian and African perspectives on phenomena. Dr Osuji’s goal is to provide us with a unique perspective, one that is not strictly Western or African but a synthesis of both. Dr Osuji teaches, writes and consults on leadership, management, politics, psychology and religions. Dr Osuji is married and has three children; he lives at Anchorage, Alaska, USA.

He can be reached at: ozodiosuji@gmail.com (907) 310-8176